The experience itself was extremely unique to anything I have experienced in life so far. It is very vague now, but the years of nightmares remind me. The most memorable part was infinite beings of light and darkness swirling around me pressing in to suffocation then expanding to vast expanse and back again. Almost like a dance of sounds and sensation so perplexing, that recalling the memory causes me to chill and swoon. The nightmares have been gone for years now, but I can still recall the events, the words without meaning (many whispers from around me), a vast expanse wrapped tightly around me, and endless maze of emotion that seemed to last forever. In retrospect I loved it, even though it caused much fear and discomfort at the time it caused much needed spiritual growth.
Date NDE Occurred: 1984, 1990
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Uncertain Direct head injury Sled ride into a tree at fast speed. Tin can thrown and imbedded in forehead. Other Clinical death followed by coma after resuscitation. Both events, Each death was followed by coma three weeks for the first one, three days for the second.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Mixed
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I clearly left my body and existed outside it
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal I would not waste time thinking of spiritual things before these events. It is the only think worth thinking about for long periods of time now.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? When being suffocated and whispered to.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning No time existed. It seemed to go on forever in an instant. Every bit of space was occupied yet was in constant motion.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Did your vision differ in any way from normal? It wasn't sight that's for sure. But the images can't be erased from my mind.
Did your hearing differ in any way from normal? I've never heard sounds as those silently embedded in me any place on earth.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No I think I was just there. From beginning to end (always).
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes 1. Everywhere and everything.
2. I knew them all and have no clue who they were.
3. Many words in whispers so loud they dominated the experience.
The experience included: Void
The experience included: Darkness
The experience included: Light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes Both light and darkness, but not like either, un-separated without shadow.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm The entire event was beautiful and just trying to think of it causes serenity.
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? I was happy to be sad. I felt joy and fear.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Relief or calmness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
The experience included: Special Knowledge
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future I became extremely good at divination. All my predictions (which have to do with people) have come to pass. I have stopped divining at this time as I won't tell another person when they will die. I do not consider myself psychic.
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Conservative/fundamentalist Presbyterian
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I now accept all religion as the downfall of mankind.
What is your religion now? Liberal Well versed in all forms of religion, and occult.
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I now accept all religion as the downfall of mankind.
The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Uncertain Serenity. Even in fear it felt of perfect order.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes I evoke a deeper train of thought process in all my friends.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes Indescribable forms, sounds, and sensations.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? I still to this day can't remember the words from the whispers.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Ten years. They could not believe I had died so many times. I only count three times though, the clinical deaths (almost drowning doesn't count).
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. Well I was in a coma for a while and did not have time to reflect right away. The nightmares for the next five years brought me back superficially to the experience. I could feel a big difference between the dreams and the experience itself as there was no comfort or serenity in the dreams.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real. Reality is the only word in the English language that should always be used in quotes.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? NDE will change you forever. There is no return to being naive.
Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? A good question would be. Would you like to experience this again?