Zara L STE

Experience Description

I went to sleep. After I left the earthly realm, I found myself on a beautiful, antique boat on the calmest waters beneath a wonderful sky. On the boat with me were what I could only describe as my family. I felt immense love, warmth, peace, and compassion. The beings on the boat had painted their exterior forms to make me feel safe. I understood everything that was happening telepathically. We never spoke, yet I understood everything simply by observing.

The forms they appeared in were similar to characters from Kung Fu Panda, which was a favorite movie from my childhood. In particular, the tiger on the boat did not appear distinctly female or male and was dressed in a blue coat. I understood that this family had come to demonstrate that there is never fear after earth. On earth, our human bodies are limited and experience great pain. After earth, when our consciousness meets what we call God, which is every family member connected to us, there is no higher god. We are all equal. We are part of different families that share the same love and ideas. The god I met was a family, and I understood that this was my family. The love I felt was infinite, as if they had been waiting to take their little girl back home.

There was no judgment at all, only creativity. We were free to paint whatever we liked. While I was there, I was learning. I sensed that they were waiting for me to try something. That was when I realized I could change the sky from sunset pink and orange into incredible northern lights that reflected upon the water. I tried again and changed the sky into glorious stars. My family on the boat was filled with immense happiness. It felt as though trying the paint on the canvas was exactly what they wanted me to do.

I was with my family in this place, but at the same time we were able to move to a different canvas and play dress-up. I saw a little girl who looked exactly like me when I was young. She wore a pink ballerina dress and always faced away from me. She appeared busy and focused. It felt like I was seeing my pure innocence and heart in the form that reflects me most deeply. Despite my age, I have always been terrified of anything sexual and have hated being an adult because of how adults are treated. I have always wished I could remain a little girl who could run around, twirl ribbons, and play dress-up. This girl felt alive, and I began to understand that she was like a twin sister in a younger form. She looked like me as a child, and on the other side she chooses to stay that way because it is safest for her.

I learned that everything we do on earth is watched or available to be seen. This strengthened my understanding that we are meant to remain pure like our youngest, purest self, before the world pressures us into marriage and having children. That path is not necessary on the other side. I felt complete innocence and purity in the canvases we moved between. I was able to paint myself and the space my family existed in freely. They trusted me, and I trusted them. With the power of my heart and mind, without words, we traveled through many places and experiences.

The insecurities I had about my womanly figure were gone. I had my dream physique. There was no jealousy. I changed my hair, makeup, and clothing, and my family did the same. However, my family always appeared in animal-like forms. I believe this is because I am a deep animal lover, and it has always saddened me that humans and animals are separated on earth. Animals do not speak to us with words on earth, yet we understand their energy. That is how it was in heaven. Animals could steer boats, wear tutu skirts, drive cars, and even be mechanics.

There was so much that I saw. What I understand now is that death does not exist. Earth represents everything we love and everything we fear. The animal kingdom represents the many types of human minds. After earth, there is a place for every mind that serves as its purest home, where no mind ever harms another. I never encountered anything harmful or frightening. The place I was in was the perfect home for me. We could grow flowers by singing and create magnificent mountains and a magical natural world using only our minds. It reminded me of the illustrations in the movie Avatar, with its glowing plants, connected life, and living world. Everything was alive, yet nothing felt pain. Consent was always present. Even if you forgot, no harm could occur. Everything was protected by peace and creativity.

Like a baby being reborn, the family I was with followed everything I painted. The little girl felt like my new avatar, waiting for my consciousness to reunite with her. It felt as though we teleported through different movies and places, experiencing everything again for the first time. I could touch glowing water, give myself wings to fly, or become a bird or a tiger and walk through the jungle. I felt deeply connected. I never needed to ask questions. I simply understood infinite love, peace, freedom, and safety. It felt like my atomic energy was dancing with other minds that shared the same energy. We were separate minds, which explained our different appearances, yet we were all peaceful and free.

You are given the ability to paint your world and universe. Pain from earth transforms into paint in heaven. I found this meaningful because the word “paint” is the word “pain” with the letter “t” added. The letter “t” felt like a symbol of transformation through what we call God. The word “god” reversed is “dog,” and dogs represent unconditional love. They give love without expectation. Because of this, I now see language and religion as keys to heaven.

Humans are not meant to fear the death of the body, because the mind never dies. We simply fly away like butterflies. Just as there are many types of butterflies on earth, there are many types of minds. This reflects the freedom of our consciousness. It was made clear to me that my family has no power to intervene on earth. To act, they would need to be reborn, which would reset their consciousness until a future awakening.

Earth is a frightening place because so many different minds exist together in one space. Enlightening every mind feels overwhelming. Earth represents how consciousness divides itself according to where it feels safest and happiest. It is painful to see how divided the world is and how much suffering exists. We are meant to bring peace to every body and soul without pain. This would bring heaven closer to earth. Our purpose is to awaken minds to the truth that death does not exist. Matter transforms. When the light of the mind switches off on earth, it switches on elsewhere. Earth is the most pain we will ever experience, the closest thing to hell. This understanding should bring peace to those who fear what comes after death.

There is no fear beyond earth. Earth is the only place fear exists. After earth, there is creativity and consent. You can organize games, change rules, and adjust difficulty like a magical box. You simply alter the space you are moving through to match what you wish to experience. Everything I encountered was love, freedom, peace, family, childlike wonder, and exploration. There was no judgment. We are always painting what is seen. On earth, in a heavier and more difficult way, we paint our lives every day.

If you do not want something to be watched, do not do it. This understanding led me to abstain from sexual activity, because it feels as though such acts could become content for harmful minds without consent. I do not fully understand if this is true, but I learned that remaining pure is safest for my soul. I am very sensitive and easily frightened. Remaining connected to my inner child brings me immense peace. Other people may feel empowered through their physical expression, and that is valid. Every mind is unique.

This is why people who have near-death experiences often describe immense love, peace, and wisdom, yet see different imagery. Only your own mind knows what it needs. Since my experience, it feels like a window that cannot be closed. I dream while awake. I see movies in my mind similar to what I experienced, but now from a distance. Sometimes I see images I did not create, as if my family is sending messages. At times these images frighten me, but I remind myself that they are playful lessons meant to teach me that there is nothing to fear beyond earth.

Violet represents the absence of bloodshed. Bloodshed causes pain. Our veins appear blue, but when blood is exposed to oxygen it appears red. Blue and red together create purple. On earth, preventing bloodshed is vital, as it is one of the most painful human experiences. The word “violet” rearranged spells “love it.” This reminds me that all minds originate from the same source and leave clues to heaven everywhere.

After my experience, I see these patterns everywhere. Even religious texts feel symbolic. Knowledge is hidden in language, stories, and symbols. I now believe the human experience is about uncovering these keys to reveal the path of love, whether we call it God, nature, the universe, or the inner child. I still experience visions similar to those from my experience, though they feel more distant. I long to return, but I believe my purpose is to help awaken others.

I believe death is a man-made construct born from fear. The body dies, but the mind lives on. The mind is the doorway to love. We must embrace diversity and allow open discussion about earth and what lies beyond.

Butterfly mind.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date of NDE: 07/07/2025

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? No

How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant

Did you feel separated from your body? I clearly left my body and existed outside it

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Halfway through, I understood everything.
I felt so light and free. There was nothing to be scared of, and I had reached enlightenment by finding my home and family that shared my beautiful ideas. They were free and I was free; we only felt immense love and peace, without even talking.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness? More consciousness and alertness than normal

Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
There was no time. I could change the sky.

Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience The vision during the experience was first person. I was there, I felt everything, and knew that I was present. After, the vision was third person, where I was separate, like a ghost that could still observe it.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience There was no noise, just peaceful silence.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes
It was like a tunnel made of flowers. There was a bright light on each end, but we traveled through the flower wall into another canvas instead of following the light like in movies.

Did you see any beings in your experience? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased beings? No

Did you see or feel surrounded by a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes
I saw many magical and whimsical lights. I had the ability to change the lights and pictures to whatever I pleased to provide comfort and peace. This was all created by love.

Did you seem to enter another world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm
Everything was possible. The world was endless, like a universe of knowledge and ideas, with infinite realities and ways to paint yourself or the world around you. We moved between different scenes and spaces and were able to do many different things.

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Immense love, peace, happiness, completeness, forgiveness, empathy, passion, creativity, and devotion.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly understand everything? Everything about the universe
Death does not exist. The human body dies, but the mind that powers it transforms into a different dimension far beyond the limits of Earth. There were no limits in this place. It was filled with love, peace, and harmony. Everything is intertwined to be part of the same collective. There are no envious human emotions because everything has its perfect place and home, which can be freely changed. We all have a home that resonates with our mind. There is no fear and there is no pain. We are able to change our atomic field to match our dreams and desires. Every human worry is washed clean and made brand new. Earth and this side of the universe are simply like living in a trapped box with trip wires. We are supposed to remove human pain and replace it with acceptance and peace.

Did scenes from your past come back? I remembered many past events
While there, I had infinite knowledge of my life and everything that happened, but it ultimately did not matter. All that mattered was empowering the little girl who had a broken heart from Earth. I think that is why I saw myself as a little girl. It was to show me that I could be her again. I do not have to age and grow old. I can have my childlike heart and sense of wonder returned to me, as the protected, pure little girl I was before Earth broke my heart.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? No

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Other or several faiths
I was researching and studying all of the different religions and spiritual teachings.

Have your religious practices changed? No

What is your religion now? Other or several faiths
I believe there is truth in every religion and spiritual practice, but also misinformation, so I follow the truths I believe in, which overall is the state of love.

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience
I learned how we are supposed to embrace the death of the human body like a butterfly emerging from a cocoon. When we are ready to fly, we say goodbye. Instead of having a sad funeral where we mourn, we should celebrate the person's completion of their earth experience and have faith in seeing our loved ones again. Minds do not die; they simply fly away to a greater place.

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes
I no longer believe in a creator of the universe. I believe it is more like a computer system where minds are generated with free will and power. There is somebody outside the computer watching every mind like a TV channel. Every mind chooses what it wants to paint, and every mind is free to live its life how it chooses and with whom. I don't believe there will be a second Jesus, as Earth is a box ruled without any magical powers. Minds in the heavens would not be able to land here and 'move a mountain.' They would have to be birthed like every other human, which would lead to their consciousness being restarted and everything they knew lost until rediscovered, perhaps through an awakening or signals sent from the heavens. There is no mind greater than another; we are all equal. God is simply a representative of what is to be, what could be, and what has been. God is not blind and speaks the truth. God is not scared of judgement and would allow minds to fly to the heavens when they desire. Human minds fear death because they don't believe there is an afterlife. This inhibits people from being allowed to send their butterfly mind to their new home after Earth. The world on Earth has been led by people who have no idea about the ancestral heaven realm and have locked people in cages to be slaves to the world. This is what I'm against. Human minds are so intellectual they deserve to have the freedom and the right to choose their day of death—pro-choice in life. This would allow people to live more fulfilling lives without suffering in silence, as they would be on their Earthly mission to find completeness and transparency in the acceptance of life after Earth.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
I saw multiple beings at different times and in different states. I saw a version of myself as a little girl, and then I saw majestic, human-like animal beings that wore clothes and did human things. This showed the connection between extrinsic worlds and intrinsic minds.

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? Yes
I saw a movie-like scene from a much older timeline. In it, I saw myself die, as if I had been on Earth before to try and wake the collective, but in past lives was unsuccessful and sadly died.

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Yes
There is definitely a universal connection. Trees on Earth are like the planet's brain. They connect to every human mind and hear every thought. They organize the collective into their homes to bring about the most peace and clarity for each mind.

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Yes
Every mind is its own god. Every god has its family of gods. On Earth, those gods from the heavens are unable to intervene or change anything, as every earthly mind is free to do what it chooses. Earth is like a movie representation of what happens when different minds live in the same house: chaos, discrimination, hate, and pain. After Earth, you fly your way home to the place that is most peaceful for your mind. There is never any fear or argument. Everything is known and protected. Every mind is safe in its space, and with consent you can visit different minds and their homes.

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes
I believe after my experience I have new special knowledge about the mystery of the afterlife. I believe we need to change the idea of death or wanting to die as bad to something like pro-choice, allowing human free will to choose when they want to leave Earth without having to experience any pain.

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? Yes
The Earthly realm is like a locked box. We're stuck inside with fear, pain, greed, envy, and a fear of death, because we cannot fly from Earth to the heavens (except through an NDE). After an NDE and finding yourself in heaven, it's hard to stay grounded on Earth. Knowing that after Earth there is immense love, happiness, joy, and free creativity, the limitations of Earth begin to feel very heavy. Life's meaning on Earth is to be united and stop pain. Humans should never cause bloodshed and should protect every brother and sister from suffering. We need to save every mind in the way they need help. This means ending homelessness, drug abuse, division among nations, wars, abuse, and bloodshed, and allowing for equity and freedom of choice in how people live. People shouldn't have to grow old if they do not wish to.

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? Yes
There is most certainly existence after the death of the human body. The human body grows the consciousness on Earth, but after Earth your mind teleports to a different dimension. There is no gravitational law. It simply is what you view it to be. If you want to move, you move. Everything you think is true and obtainable. It is like being able to paint without holding a paint brush; you are able to bend your reality to fit your desired dreams. My mind was in my earthly figure, but then I changed my appearance to feel greater, as I have always been insecure about my earthly appearance. After death on Earth, you are no longer stuck in the human body cage. You are free to change the molecular structure to whatever you please. Everything is obtainable and nothing suffers.

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? Yes
We are supposed to live our earthly lives until we choose to leave. Like choosing to have a baby, humans are supposed to decide when they are ready to leave Earth at their own will.

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? Yes
Every difficulty and hardship on Earth is ultimately caused by individual minds. The world is made by individual minds. Every mind has free will. This is dangerous, as there are many evil minds on Earth, leading to greed and a division of power where people end up in very bad situations all because of the life they were born into and have no control over. We need to be united like a family, accepting all differences and finding ways to mitigate people's suffering. There shouldn't be an inability to travel. Earth is every human mind's home, as well as the animals' home, and we should all collectively recognize this and not worry about immigration when we need to provide housing and jobs for people around the world who don't have access to things most people do, like education. People who are suffering deserve to be able to get help from anybody in the world. We shouldn't need governments to order our minds; we should be able to free every suffering mind as a collective.

During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes
Love is the highest form of space. There is no need to ask for anything, as love provides the capability to expand your desire into reality. Love has a pure soul that resembles a little girl. The misconception about love or God is that it is a man, but it's the opposite. Love appears in the form of a little girl and has the pure wonders and imagination of a little girl, but this girl loves all things feminine and masculine, like cars, rockets, and adventures. Love isn't only about pretty things, but about having fun and exploring the wonders of the mind's creations in a safe place with family. Love is the greatest healer, but love has no god-like powers on Earth. Love's only power is that of words and energy to bring peace and divinity amongst the human collective.

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life
There is not a single book that can describe the accuracy of what happens after death. There is a god, but not in the highest form that sits above other minds. God is just one representative of the collective. We are universally connected and impact minds greatly with our behavior and actions. We are all in the waiting room. People believe that a god will appear on Earth and perform some kind of magic trick, but that’s not true. Magic doesn’t exist on Earth besides the natural wonders and phenomena of the world. Earth is like a flipped switch; everything that love is and created got flipped the opposite way. Animals and humans have to destroy plants and animal families to survive. The wilderness is filled with things that can go wrong, like freak accidents, poison, or drowning. The human body is so fragile and not permanent, but humans are the only species that grow so old it looks like we are decaying from the outside in. This is the biggest sign that we are not supposed to grow old. We are supposed to be able to choose our time to leave Earth, meeting certain requirements, of course, once a person has found completeness. They are then ready to leave and are not scared of death; they should be allowed to ask for permission. There is nothing wrong with letting a mind that is suffering on Earth and begs to leave be allowed to leave. It’s free will. This would end horrific scenes of suicide; families would be able to say goodbye and prepare. Our minds are like rocket ships stuck in the human body on Earth. After the Earth vessel dies, the mind rocket ship flies to the heavens, where they are met by their family of similar energy, and they get to watch and learn all of the glorious things there are to learn.

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes
I have stopped socializing with people as much, as I would rather watch the movie play in the mind. I also now feel disconnected from the majority, as they view it as 'crazy' or 'something that shouldn't be talked about.' I know that the topic of death makes them uncomfortable, whereas for me it has become an exciting new experience. I only see it as a door: leaving Earth and then arriving in a new space. The new space is heaven, and there is no fear there; it's the complete opposite of Earth.

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? No

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience
It was so visual, colorful, and powerful. It’s something I’ll never be able to forget. The power of the canvas and being able to fly your mind to any part, change things, or start clean—it’s entirely up to the individual mind what they want to experience. They have complete freedom to paint their world as they choose.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The place was filled with immense love and energy. You did not need to speak words; you just observed, moved, and painted as a collective. There was never any fear; everything was possible. Human suffering is a window for the collective to understand we are not like the animal kingdom. We’ve built our walls so high we have forgotten how the beginning of time was. We have the capability to end human suffering by accepting differences in minds and uniting to bring life and love to people that have never experienced basic human needs like education, career, security, warmth, food, and immense love. We should be able to care for people worldwide without human division of any kind and instead celebrate diversity. For the mind to be ready to ascend after Earth, they have to first complete their earthly mission of finding their truth. For some minds, this is having a family, growing old, and dying when the time comes. For other minds, the inability to know when a human body will die of old age causes pain and suffering. Many minds find themselves to be complete much younger and are ready to leave Earth because they grow to hate the world due to inhumane treatment and propaganda for greed. We are all a part of a cosmic galaxy that is complete and perfected, so there should never be any fear. Every mind is restarted on Earth, waiting to be awoken to learn the truth their minds once knew.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? No

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real
I viewed it as an awakening, like I’m supposed to reawaken the collective that has fallen asleep and forgotten we are not supposed to fear death.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real
The reality of my experience is very real. I know it was real after reading other people’s NDEs and how they reached the same space filled with deep understanding and love. Everything that happened there was so beautiful. I’ve never had a dream or any experience close to what I experienced in that reality. This is how I know heaven is real, and for every mind there is a different version of heaven. Everything I saw was like a door to bring me comfort and not fear anything there. It’s all fun and games, beauty with tremendous hope and experiences to discover.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? Yes
After the experience, I can now see visual imagery in my mind very clearly, like a movie, except I'm in third person—like a ghost waiting to load into a game. I can see the pictures and presences similar to that of my experience, but I'm not in it anymore; I'm simply observing it. I can still change things on the canvas, though, like the sky color. It's like a blessing and a curse, as I find it extremely difficult to operate in the normal human world now after seeing what I've seen and what I can see every day in my mind. I can still feel the immense love; I just can't immerse myself in it like I did in my experience.

Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes
I tried to organize the information as clearly as possible. There is so much I could write about everything I learned. It will take a long time for me to write even more.

Anything else to add? Love is infinite, and death is finite. The human body dies, but the mind will never die. It will simply fly to a new space.