Yamuna S Probable NDE

Experience Description 10/25/2026

My NDE/OBE (near-death experience/out-of-body experience) happened during a seizure in the middle of the night in September 2013. It was caused by a blood clot in the left frontal lobe of my brain.

I remember seeing myself in a mirror, with a single streak of blood flowing from the right corner of my mouth. During the seizure, I had severely bitten my tongue, splitting it into two parts. Yet, I felt no pain. I was calm and quiet. I was no longer in my body; I was observing myself from the outside, as though I were watching someone else.

Then I saw a person sitting in the front passenger seat of a red car. We owned a red Hyundai, and my husband was driving. The car approached a huge black steel gate and stopped in front of a building.

But there is another dimension to this experience that I have struggled to put into words. I cannot fully explain what I experienced, given the limitations of language and the human mind's ability to comprehend it.

I felt a void, an emptiness, and an ultimate darkness. Yet, the darkness did not frighten me. I am someone who fears darkness and feels uncomfortable in a closed room. But this void was different. It felt like home, comfortable and where I belonged.

Everything that existed was me, and I was everywhere and everything. There was nothing beyond me. There was no separation between myself and what surrounded me. There was no time, no past, no future, and no memories. There was simply the experiencing itself. There was only the experience of being. I can only describe it as a moment of truth, an experience of my true Self.

I only know that, for a brief and extraordinary period, my awareness seemed to exist beyond my physical body, and my experience of existence was unlike anything I had known in ordinary life.

The Self realized the true state and wanted to remain in that state. My Self witnessed a bright light engulfing my Self.

The light was still bright, but it felt different from any light I had ever known. It seemed to be the only presence, and it was everywhere. I was in it and part of it. The light and I were the same and one.

A few moments later, I found myself floating down into a place filled with white curtains and white walls, an enclosed space. I was moving around and stopped at one spot.

I could see everything that was happening around me, but I was not seeing through my physical eyes. It felt as though I were seeing through open eyes, even though my awareness seemed to exist independently of my body.

A lean man, covered in wires and tubes, was looking at me. I wondered why he was staring at me. I sensed that he was in the ICU because of renal failure.

Slowly, I began to feel my eyes, my mouth, and my physical body. When I opened my eyelids, someone dressed in white was brushing my teeth and wiping my mouth. I gradually realized that I was in the intensive care unit of a hospital and that the person attending to me was a nurse.

I asked her, 'Where am I? Why am I here?'

She immediately called the doctor and informed them that I had regained consciousness.

My medical records stated that I had been in a semiconscious state for almost two days. The blood vessel was recanalized, and blood flow was reestablished. The doctors also administered medication to help me return to a normal, active state.

My Understanding of Death and Consciousness

I do not fear death anymore. Dying is peaceful. In my experience, it was calm and completely free of pain. There was no panic, no struggle, and no sense of suffering.

I realized that it is only the physical body and the mind that die. Consciousness, or the soul, continues to exist. There is no beginning and no end. Everything is a cycle, constantly recycling and transforming.

But I remember the peace. I remember the absence of fear. I remember the feeling of being one with the light. And I remember the realization of the true Self: a state in which there was no separation, no time, no memories, and no beginning or end.

There was only the experiencing itself. The true Self. My Self. I Am.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date of NDE: 09/00/2013

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes
A seizure caused by a blood clot in the left frontal lobe of my brain.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant

Did you feel separated from your body? I clearly left my body and existed outside it
I remember seeing myself in a mirror, with a single streak of blood flowing from the right corner of my mouth. During the seizure, I had bitten my tongue in two. Yet I felt no pain. I was calm and quiet. I was no longer in my body; I was observing myself from the outside, as though I were watching someone else. A lean man, covered in wires and tubes, was looking at me. I wondered why he was staring at me. I sensed that he was in the ICU because of renal failure.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? All the time.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness? Normal consciousness and alertness

Were your thoughts speeded up? No

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
There was no concept of time, just being.

Were your senses more vivid than usual? More vivid than usual

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience I was witnessing everything, but not with my physical eyes.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience I was not hearing anything.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

Did you see any beings in your experience? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased beings? No

Did you see or feel surrounded by a brilliant light? An unusually bright light

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes
A bright light that felt different from any light I had ever known.

Did you seem to enter another world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm
I experienced the ultimate void, darkness, and an unusually bright white light.

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Peaceful, content, and complete.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Happiness

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly understand everything? Everything about myself or others
Everything that existed was me, and I was everywhere and everything. There was nothing before me, nothing after me, and nothing beyond me; there was no past, no future, no beginning, no end, and nothing separate from me.

Did scenes from your past come back? No

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? No

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Other or several faiths
I consider myself a spiritual person. I respect and accept all religions that I have come to know and experience.

Have your religious practices changed? Yes
I am on the spiritual path.

What is your religion now? Other or several faiths
I am spiritual.

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience
There is life after death. Consciousness, or the soul, continues beyond physical death.

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes
I have created my experiences without present awareness. I am experiencing the consequences of my actions and learning my lessons so that I can correct past mistakes and wrongdoings. I am learning to let go of my attachments.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Yes
My inner self witnessed a bright light engulfing me. It seemed to be the only presence, and it was everywhere. I was in it and part of it. I and the light were the same and one.

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? No

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes
Consciousness, or the soul, continues beyond physical death. "There is life after death."

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? Yes
I was fully aware. Everything that existed was me, and I was everywhere and everything. There was nothing beyond me. There was no separation between myself and what surrounded me.

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? Yes
I experienced the void, the ultimate darkness, and the bright light that I am.

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

During your experience, did you gain information about love? No

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life
I was drawn to Vipassana meditation. I am a Vipassana meditator and am on my spiritual path. I was initiated into this path through a profound awakening process. I see things as they are, and my path is not the same. I wish to be who I am and what I am, living in the present and now.

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes
It was slow and gradual. I was ignoring all the signs, signals, intuition, and insights until, suddenly, I was forced to wake up.

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes
I cannot fully explain what I experienced, given the limitations of language and the human mind's ability to comprehend it.

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience
I remember the experience as it is whenever I want to know who I am.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes
I am more intuitive than the people around me, and my intuition has deepened over time. My source protects me when I make mistakes and provides insight when I listen and surrender. Life flows when I allow it to flow, without blocking what is already flowing.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Yes. Life flows when I allow it to flow, without blocking what is already flowing. See life as it is, and live life as it is. Practice forgiveness, gratitude, compassion, and detachment.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes
Immediately and from time to time. The person close to my heart and the one I trusted did not believe me and discouraged me. The spiritual teachers understand my experience, encourage me, and help me advance in my spiritual practices.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes
In my early 20s, I almost drowned in the ocean while jumping over the waves with friends. I was pushed through a tunnel with force, where I lost my breath and believed I was dying. When I woke up, I was on the shore, coughing up water. The people who pulled my friends and me out of the ocean looked relieved when I woke up.

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real
I was afraid of drowning. I feel comfortable and fearless only when my feet touch the bottom of a body of water. I always wear a life vest when getting into the water. I learned to swim recently, only after I let go of my fear of drowning.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real
My ego was protecting me, keeping me comfortable, and preventing me from letting go of fearful thoughts. This was due to my attachment to the material identity of who I thought I was.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? Yes
During meditation, after reconciliation, and after a lesson has been learned.

Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes

Anything else to add? It is a universal truth that every soul will experience. It is destiny.