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Experience Description My wife, soulmate, best friend, and everything to me, died in February 2025 in a tragic car accident just five minutes from home. I was out of town that day and woke up to a news article about her accident. The last time I spoke with her was 20 minutes before it happened, while I was out drinking with a friend at a bar. I completely lost myself that day. Fifteen years together, all gone in the blink of an eye. I spent two weeks by her side in the ICU, where she laid on the bed with a severe brain injury. After countless surgeries, authorizing the withdrawal of life support, and watching her take her last breaths, she was gone. I’m not sure what to call the experience, but one night I bought opioid medication from someone I knew and took several pills with copious amounts of alcohol. That night, I had several episodes where my breathing stopped (respiratory depression), and I could feel myself drifting off somewhere. Suddenly, I felt a strange sensation of lifting out of my body and hovering above myself in my bedroom. Everything looked exactly the same, despite my eyes being closed and being unconscious. I floated through my bedroom door and flew around my living room, which was an amazing feeling. I felt weightless, unbound by my physical body, and completely sober. I floated back into my bedroom, sank into my mattress, and felt myself merge with it. It was as if my essence blended with the atoms of the material, and we were just connected. I sensed a presence in the room behind me and turned my vision toward the side of the bed. A figure began to appear, starting with the feet, then the calves, then the thighs. A sense of fear came over me. When the head appeared, it looked terrifying, like a demon or something from a horror movie. I quickly prayed to Jesus, saying, "Please help me." Suddenly, the face changed, filled with light, and it was Jesus! He looked different from how I’d seen him in church or on TV. His hair was shorter and curly; and he had an incredible smile. He wore a robe and seemed surrounded by an aura of light. He winked at me, and a little butterfly flew off his shoulder toward me. My sweet, deceased wife was riding on the butterfly’s wing, smiling at me with the happiest expression I’d ever seen. The moment I saw her face, I woke up gasping for air. I’ll never know how close I was to dying since I was alone at home. But the combination of opioids, sleep apnea, and alcohol was dangerous. Still, I’m grateful for that experience because it gives me hope that my beautiful wife is with Jesus, waiting to take me on the ride of my life when my time comes. Background Information: Gender: Male Date of NDE: 04/2025NDE Elements: At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Uncertainoverdose - Lucid OBE How do you consider the content of your experience? Both pleasant AND distressing Did you feel separated from your body? I clearly left my body and existed outside it How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? When I was out of my body (entire OBE)I was overdosed on opiates and drunk off of alcohol when I entered my OBE - and was completely sober and alert during the experience. At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness? More consciousness and alertness than normal Were your thoughts speeded up? Faster than usual Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaningNo time in this experience Were your senses more vivid than usual? More vivid than usual Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience incredibly vivid Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience I did not seem to 'hear' much. It was all visual and knowing. Awareness. Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased beings? YesDeceased Wife Did you see or feel surrounded by a brilliant light? No Did you see an unearthly light? No Did you seem to enter another world? No What emotions did you feel during the experience? Fear in the beginning, and then immense happiness after seeing Jesus and my deceased Wife Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Relief or calmness Did you have a feeling of joy? Happiness Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world Did you suddenly understand everything? No Did scenes from your past come back? No Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No Did you come to a border or point of no return? NoGod, Spiritual and Religion: What was your religion prior to your experience? Christian- Protestant Have your religious practices changed? No What is your religion now? Christian- Protestant Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experienceI was raised Christian but always had my doubts that there is anything after this life. Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly originJesus Christ Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? YesJesus Christ During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? YesI felt connected to everything when I was out of my body During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? YesAfter crying out for Jesus he appeared in front of me.Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion: During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? YesAfter leaving my body and 'seeing' everything in my apartment, as if I were awake, all while intoxicated and in a drug overdose, the only determination I can make is that there is more to the physical. Also seeing Jesus and my deceased wife. Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No During your experience, did you gain information about love? No What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Slight changes in my lifeI have hope that I will be reunited with my wife again in the afterlife. I no longer fear death but welcome it Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? NoAfter the NDE: Was the experience difficult to express in words? No How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experienceI tend to forget dreams but this was a completely different experience. Especially since I was in an overdose and intoxicated state, but the experience was sober, lucid, and meaningful. Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? After listening to Dr. Eben Alexanders NDE where he talks about his deceased sister riding on the wing of a butterfly, my OBE seems to be valid and extremely meaningful. At first I couldn't explain it. Have you ever shared this experience with others? YesOnly family. Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? YesI had knowledge of them, did not affect the experience as I'm not sure if OBE vs NDE What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was probably realFelt more real than this life What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? YesListening to Dr. Eben Alexander's NDE account after my experience validated it. Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? YesYes
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