Victor J FDE

Experience Description

I was driving a car with my mother and my best friend. I was passing a truck on a straight stretch and realized that my vehicle was lacking power while a different car in the other lane was coming toward me.

I was convinced that it would not work out and that I would be responsible for the deaths of my passengers. A feeling of immense guilt came over me.

In a fraction of a second, that feeling disappeared, replaced by the certainty that the event no longer mattered at all. I felt drawn upward and out of the car. I moved toward a light that I had known forever, something self-evident. A kind of consciousness far greater than mine, from which I felt an unconditional, absolute love toward my own consciousness. At the same time, I myself felt total love for this absolutely irresistible light. I had only one wish: to try to make this encounter happen even faster.

In an instant I came back down, passed the truck, and turned the steering wheel. None of my passengers realized that we had just avoided an accident.

I continued my existence with the certainty that I would never again experience this state of absolute bliss and wellbeing while alive.

Background Information:

Gender: Male

Date of NDE: 00/00/1997

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes
A car accident that was avoided

How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant

Did you feel separated from your body? I clearly left my body and existed outside it

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? The whole event must have lasted only a few seconds, and the passage out of my body until the return behind the wheel, with the certainty that the accident would be avoided, lasted a fraction of a second
I went from the certainty that I would die to the absolute certainty that I would avoid the accident

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness? More consciousness and alertness than normal

Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Unable to give a duration, when I took the wheel again I would say it was a fraction of a second

Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience I was no longer present in reality

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience Likewise, I was no longer in the passenger compartment, and I was no longer a witness to what was happening there for an instant

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

Did you see any beings in your experience? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased beings? No

Did you see or feel surrounded by a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes
A light that was an infinitely benevolent presence, but it did not seem supernatural to me at the time

Did you seem to enter another world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm
Supernatural compared with our reality, but absolutely familiar and obvious at the time

What emotions did you feel during the experience? A well being that could not be quantified, a fullness, a feeling of returning to what I had left, nothing unreal or unknown

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly understand everything? Everything about the universe
I was returning to what I had left

Did scenes from your past come back? My past flashed before me, out of my control
A few images, but truly fleeting

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Uncertain
The structure of reality

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
The ascent and descent were very quick, I returned to reality with the certainty that my passengers and I would live

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Unaffiliated - Agnostic

Have your religious practices changed? No

What is your religion now? Other or several faiths
An openness to all mystical currents without accepting their dogmas

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience
I had no idea of what came after, and at the same time I felt no surprise

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes
A more clear cut view of dogmas and materialism

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
No voice, nothing supernatural, only the certainty of being expected, of being loved, and also being moved only by the single desire to reach that irresistible light

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? Yes
As I felt myself returning to where I came from, I imagined that it was before my birth

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Yes
I had the impression of rejoining a consciousness greater than my own, and that this was obvious

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Yes
It is this benevolent and enveloping presence

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? Uncertain
To seek that light in the people around us, I am certain that every consciousness is part of the source and must return to it

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? Yes
The experience itself suggests to me that consciousness is not entirely in its place in our material world, but I had no message or words, only feelings

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? Yes
To put life events into perspective, to try to reproduce that capacity for benevolence, this is complicated because we cannot live outside the realities of others if we want to share with those around us

During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes
It is the only moment when I fully became aware that I was loved unconditionally. Feeling love for others is easily accessible, but feeling that one is loved as if that certainty came from within is something else. It is as if you could take the place of the being who loves you and feel that love that is meant for you

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? No changes in my life
Putting negative events concerning me into perspective, but I still have an aversion to injustices toward the weakest

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Uncertain
People may receive what I say differently

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? No

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience
I do not have a strong memory of the events of my life, what remains are feelings, and the experience was essentially a matter of feeling

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes
It depends on the person, but I have not shared it with everyone

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Uncertain

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real
Because I overcame it without any external intake of hallucinogens, even though I know the brain is capable of things that are still unexplained

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real
Like Pascal, I prefer to bet on the reality of the experience

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes
I do not see any other additional questions