Tomasz NDE

Experience Description

I would like to tell you a story. When I wasn’t such a well-behaved boy, I often drank alcohol, sometimes took amphetamine, but I heard that after eating a large amount of acodin cough tablets I would have a super trip. There were even attempts of 40, 80, 120 pills. I ate about 80.

After eating, the only thing I remember is maybe my head started spinning, my body began to contort, and then I felt a high. The next thing I remember is as if I woke up in my own room. I see my mother and sister. I look at everything as a person standing next to, in my room, I looked at them from above but more from the corner. My mother and sister are crying. They say to each other, 'and look what he did.' I even remember that grief of my mother when I saw it all, I felt it all. My mother said, 'Well, he died.' I saw myself lying on the bed, my mother and my sister with tears in their eyes. I stood next to as if I had simply left my body and looked at it all from the side. At that time I didn’t yet think I was dead, or maybe I didn’t want to accept it.

Suddenly everything changed, as if I had moved in time to who knows where. I saw myself as some kind of wave, there were very many of them. All the time it was as if I was aware of it, maybe something happened that changed something. I was constantly a wave, around me very many such waves. We were flying in the same direction. At first upward, as if I had shot out of that room into space.

Suddenly we reached some destination. For me it was that room. I felt lost, I didn’t know where I was. Then I remembered again: after all, my mother and sister said I had died. Only then did it hit me that I was dead!

I was still in that room. There was very much of that pure energy. All those waves looked simply like white squiggles, like radio waves, very pure energy, flying in different directions. One flew forward, another turned off to the side. Something told me not to go where they flew to the side.

The next thing I remember, because I recall that all the time it was as if I had an open mind. I say to myself, 'Okay, if I’m dead, I’m sorry, and if that’s the case,' I keep talking to myself, 'if that’s the case, I want to ask a question about everything I didn’t have an answer to in life.'

I am quite smart, so I remember that state: I had awareness! Because I started checking if I was dead, that is, what they said in life to check now that I am dead.

And then it happened. Whatever questions I asked, whatever I thought, answers came to me from those other waves flying around me. Suddenly they flowed into me. The whole universe became clear to me. It was such a wow. I had contact with all information, as if from the earth, but not like asking a question on the internet. There, time did not flow, there was no time. Everything I asked gave me such a broad stream of answers to one question. The best part is that I understood it all. It started to get a bit boring, I began to look around and… Suddenly something told me to go forward. I was a bit afraid. There were more and more waves going ahead beside me. I remember that ahead it was quite bright, but still very far away. An unlimited number, hundreds of billions of waves next to me. A harbor of energy. I knew perfectly, and I said to myself, 'How simple it is, after all this is that energy.' Those waves are energy.

For a moment, as if I had no feelings because I was fascinated by where I had found myself, plus that knowledge of everything. Suddenly I remembered the image of that crying mother over my dead body. It was as if feelings awakened in me. Suddenly two such pure energies flew to me, just like those waves. Not that they had a personality, but it was as if they knew me. It seems to me they were those kinds of energy that we became, but they were more gracious, like women, or rather their wave forms of pure energy.

They seemed friendly. I asked them if this really was the end, with a bit of fear, as if I wanted to return, because I said, if I know the answer to everything, I am that pure energy, then why can’t I penetrate back into that world? I meant the world of the living again. I wanted to check again, the knowledge, but here, oddly, I didn’t get any answer.

There were no words there, but in some other way I understood all information, and I transmitted it to them. To those two waves that flew to me. I don’t know why they attached themselves to me exactly, but it was as if they knew me. So the more friendly one said to the other less friendly one, it seemed to me, 'Listen, let’s give him a chance.' Then the other said, 'Stop, it’s not worth it,' and that I had already wasted a lot of time. I don’t remember exactly what they whispered to each other.

One of those more gracious waves asked me, 'Do you want to live? Do you want to return?' I answered, 'I would like to, but only because I couldn’t explain to my mother how it happened, because I saw her grief.'

One thing is certain, because I remember that I was thinking quite soberly, or rather consciously. I realized that they were negotiating about me. At least that’s how it seemed to me.

Suddenly, just as I had arrived here, I began to hear a very familiar sound. It was my cell phone ringtone. And then I got another piece of information. 'Touch the phone!' It was a clear message to me. 'Answer the phone.'

I answered, again alive on my bed, looking at the phone whose screen lit up, but in reality no one was calling. There was no alarm set. Because I remember I wanted to be sure and checked the call history. No one called, there was no ring.

My pulse, my heartbeat. In my life I had never seen such an accelerated heartbeat in anyone or myself. Very fast, incredibly. I was all sweaty. I didn’t know what was happening. I was terrified.

But I kept enough reason and awareness to check when I last spoke to someone, and what time it was now. I compared the last call with a friend I must have talked to and the time after this whole experience. It was exactly 7 minutes!

I thought it all lasted hours. Today, looking at it, from the moment my sister and mother stood over my body, that was in the morning. Where I appeared, it was dark, as if it was somewhere in space.

But certainly all that lasted many hours, not 7 minutes.

It took me about a month to check if I was really in reality, if I had returned as a living person. I really checked if I had simply died and come back.

This is not a funny story. It didn’t look like a hallucination. I will never forget that pure energy I met on the other side, which I also was, and sometimes I think that I am, that we all are that energy.

I will add from myself. I consider that I am not crazy. I have a very sharp mind. I trade on the stock exchange, I have an analytical mind. I rather keep my feet on the ground. That is why I also firmly think that this is not an isolated case. This is not simply a product of a pill or hallucinations. A hallucination could be a case, but it is a random variable of hallucination. It should be completely different for different people, and we all describe the same thing!

I was about 23 then. Today I am 41, and I still remember everything, mostly in detail.

Background Information:

Gender: Male

Date of NDE: 01/01/2002

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Uncertain
After the whole event upon return, my body had an unimaginable pulse, amount of sweat, a month of checking whether I am actually alive.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Both pleasant AND distressing

Did you feel separated from your body? I clearly left my body and existed outside it
Access to knowledge of what is happening on earth, past in the present but without the future.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? When I realized that I was actually dead
Huge awareness of what is good and what is bad. Answer to all questions, unlimited knowledge.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness? More consciousness and alertness than normal

Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
According to the phone data that I checked, I am 100% sure the whole thing lasted about 7 minutes. When I was there, there was no time, so being there I thought I was there for at least a dozen hours.

Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience I saw in all directions, simultaneously, but without division of time, in all planes, at every time, forward and backward.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience There was no voice, nothing communicated with a voice.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, but the facts have not been checked out

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Uncertain
First there was a room, literally there good waves mixed with those slightly different, maybe bad, I don't know, but there were fewer of the latter. I flew very quickly with other waves of good energy, there was a glow far away, bright but very far, we all flew there.

Did you see any beings in your experience? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased beings? No

Did you see or feel surrounded by a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes
I knew that there was a light very far away, we all flew there

Did you seem to enter another world? Some unfamiliar and strange place
It was a world between something and something, as a living person I can say it was a world between earth and something because I didn't reach there. I was kind of in the middle together with that pure energy that we traveled, we poured in for some purpose. Someone interrupted it.

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Uncertainty, surprise, worry, a feeling of closeness,

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Relief or calmness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Happiness

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly understand everything? Everything about the universe
And whatever I asked, I got an answer, it flowed to me from all sides, I can't say in a fraction of a second because there was no time, just suddenly!

Did scenes from your past come back? No

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes
A physical boundary? No, it wasn't something physical, I was like a wave, some kind of binding, it's strange that I felt that connection although I can't name it.

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a definite conscious decision to return to life
Those two waves that started leading me, let's call it 'in that tunnel', they seemed to want to ask me if I really want to fly further. My hesitation was great, and that we communicated beyond time, it was certain that I wanted to return, they already knew. Everything happened faster than time.

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Christian - Catholic
Although I am a Catholic, it was pure science, the energy that I saw, that I was a part of, simply went somewhere further regardless of religion.

Have your religious practices changed? Uncertain
I believe in God, not in religion, in God further called a higher power, a force of good and a force of destruction.

What is your religion now? Christian - Catholic
At home I am a Christian, but faith in a higher power called by us God.

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience
Disagreement that hell and heaven exist, agreement that there is good and bad energy, agreement that it's as if I didn't die but changed form, I don't know how to describe it.

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes
That it is worth living in goodness, that this is not the end of our journey regarding earthly life, that the body is just a body and something is inside us that goes on as pure energy.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Yes, I described it, those were the two waves that attached to me, as if they knew me, as if they were to guide me.

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Yes
Yes, that incredible access to information from other waves of that pure energy, I, as one of billions of waves of that pure energy, could bond and take over information from others.

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? No

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes
The purpose is this, precisely after this experience, to tell people that we have a very strong energy within us. We can use it to communicate, if it is possible there, then it is also possible on earth. I received a very strong conviction about that after that event.

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? Yes
After all, I am doing it now, the purpose of life on earth is to carry this energy, and to be able to, how to put it, use it, be able to find oneself, since then I have always had a feeling that I must describe it, that's why I am here.

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? Yes
That was already a certain way of life, extraterrestrial, all that energy that was flowing somewhere, could communicate with me because I was part of it. I could venture to say that we were almost connected.

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

During your experience, did you gain information about love? No

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life
I stopped drinking alcohol, I stopped taking drugs, I have a very clear mind, I analyze, I earn well, life changed for the better. Usually I get answers to most of my questions, I can find them very quickly. I'm not proud but often I see a broader horizon than others.

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes
I defined my state and what was happening as pure energy, which I became a part of.

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience
Incredibly preserved details in memory, appearance, memory of my feelings during this experience, memory of details regarding time despite 18 years after the event.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Uncertain
Often, as if gears catch on each other, I am in the right place at the right time.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Access to that knowledge of the world, that we are such waves of pure energy, return to the body.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes
About 2 years, about three people. The first was my fiancée, she believed me very much. The second was a colleague from work, rather a bit scared. The third person was my mother who, during the whole experience, was standing over me as over a dead person. Her reaction was rather a bit of disbelief.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Uncertain
I had a few lucid dreams, more experience with lucid dreams. But that's also rare, they came spontaneously, often they were nightmares.

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real
For a month if not more, I checked the reality of the world, whether I really returned in my own skin as a human, at the same time to the same earth. It seems funny now but it wasn't then.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real
Absolutely real. Today I know that I am not alone with such an experience, it is no longer a hypothesis or a thesis, it is a real clinical experience of many people.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes
Yes, you asked everything and about everything