Tiffany G NDE

Experience Description

In 2025, I had a very rare and risky SC joint surgery with a knee graft. This surgery is rarely performed, and most surgeons are not skilled in doing it. I went into the surgery, but the night before, even the air felt different. I was terrified to have this surgery, but I was ready after four years of waiting. The last thing I said before I went under was, “Please keep me alive.”

After I went under, I remember floating and looking down at my chest. They were working on my SC joint, which is near vital organs. I remember them working near what I believe was my heart and saying, “Oh no,” and moving very quickly. I remember seeing them hit something with a surgical tool and someone in red shoes running to do something very fast. Then they said, “That was close.” My monitor showed that I was still alive without a flatline, but there was one moment I remember looking at a dip in my heart rate. It wasn't enough to declare anything or last long because they fixed it and said, “That was close.”

I then went somewhere dark and was met with a familiar-feeling energy that I called the waiting room. I had a decision to make in that moment. I had to decide to stay or come back. I remember deciding I would come back and if I did, I wouldn't be better. My surgery would fail, and I would have to fight to get better. I would try to make a difference if I could. All my injuries are so rare and complex that I’m told surgeons don't know what to do. I came back for my son, my dad, and for my mission. I decided to come back to to a difficult life to make a change.

When I woke up, I was so confused and angry. I had no idea what happened, but I had the memory of it. I came back to still be injured with such a rare issue. I kept saying, “I know I should be happy I lived, but it was so much better there.” It was so peaceful, calm, and warm in the waiting room. I felt like I fit in for the first time in my life. I didn't sleep for days because I was scared I would forget what the waiting room felt like; and the experience would fade away. It took me weeks to feel like a human again. During that time, I wasn't able to tell anyone about my experience. It took weeks of confusion, anger, and isolation to understand what happened. I still feel confused, but I’m learning to understand what I went through.

I did come back with a lot of knowledge out of nowhere. I see life and the world so differently now. I started writing a book and am still fighting to find a surgeon across the world who can help me with all my rare and complex injuries. I also came back with a fire that doesn't seem to go out to make a change somehow. I came back with a mission and I believe a purpose.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date of NDE: April 15 2025

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes

How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant

Did you feel separated from your body? I lost awareness of my body
I heard someone say 'oh no' and move fast and then say 'that was close' it was clear but again less of a sound and pre of a feeling.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? During surgery
I was alert to the fact that I was just energy. I wasn’t a body.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness? More consciousness and alertness than normal

Were your thoughts speeded up? Faster than usual

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
There was no time.

Were your senses more vivid than usual? More vivid than usual

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience It was a feeling more than a vision. It was dark but could feel energy.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience I heard the drs, nurses and drs and again it was hearing but more of a knowing. I find it shed to explain.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

Did you see any beings in your experience? I sensed their presence

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased beings? Yes
I had my heart great grandma and my friend who passed with me.

Did you see or feel surrounded by a brilliant light? No

Did you see an unearthly light? No

Did you seem to enter another world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm
I call it the waiting room. The dark place where you make a decision.

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Calm, happy, seen, loved like I fit in finally for the first time in my whole life.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly understand everything? Everything about the universe
Yes. Everything made sense finally.

Did scenes from your past come back? My past flashed before me, out of my control
I had flashbacks of my life happening before surgery.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes
I didnt have time to contemplate. I had to decide then

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a definite conscious decision to return to life
I came back to I call hard mode. I decided to come back for my son, for my dad and for the next me. The me who will have injuries for her hills Sachs to her ribs and everything in between injuried. I came back to fight for answers for the next person who won’t have to be told 'we have studied these injuries enough, we have no one in Canada to even help you' I came back to keep fighting for answers. To write a book about advocating for 4 years for help and 2 failed surgeries. I came back I decided to make a change somehow.

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Christian- Catholic
Before I had my experience I was leading towards Christianity. After my near death experience I had now been looking into as I am strongly drawn to the first religions and teaching ever discovered. My idea of religion has now full changed

Have your religious practices changed? Yes
I have loved very far from Christianity

What is your religion now? Other or several faiths
I became a pagan. I started to without trying to asking having knowledge come to me about teaching before Christianity

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience
I didn’t see and white lights or tunnel which ales it different than I ever had heard about it before.

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes
I learned that our instincts are that our guide books are made of. We have all the knowledge we need if we search within

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? Uncertain
I didn’t know about religion, about the history of humans but I knew it without being told or learning. I see the earth and humans so different now. I see that hell can be on earth as we can have our own personal hell here and it’s depending on what you do with it that matters. You either grow or don’t.

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Yes
We are all one of the same. Jesus wasn’t some magical man like everyone thinks either. He was real but he was more of someone who listened to his own instincts. Who lived as humans were suppose to in ways of helping others and teaching what he knew but he never wanted anyone to bow down. He never wanted wanted the following he has because I believe he only did it for goodness not praise. I feel that has been lost.

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Yes
God isn’t who we think. He isnt some man standing there asking to be worshiped and to bow down. The first human species ever placed on earth didn’t have a map, language or even a guide to life. Israel’s had to be made to learn. The churches that ask for worship and are led with control and fear aren’t true to what is suppose to be. If we were meant to have a bible or book to follow exactly than we as humans would have been given one right away. Instead we learned, evolved and grew as a species. The earth gave humans all it needed. Sadly along the way it was all forgotten and control, greed and fear took over. We forgot to listen to our instincts but relied on others opinions. If you listen to your soul, it knows.

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes
I know I was sent back to make a change. I came back with a mission and a purpose. It’s the hardest mission I’ve ever had and often I wonder why I made it but I know I did.

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? Yes
We are here to learn, grow and evolve.

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? Yes
We are souls. Bodies are just the vehicle. Also I learned a lot about religion and churches.

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? Yes
The hardest moments are the moments that our souls needed to change. Hard times done show up by accident.

During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes
Love is all that’s truly all. The waiting room was so full of love that I don’t fear death anymore

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life
I have a greater understanding that all decisions make a huge impact on the future. I am more scared to air decisions now.

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes
I lost a lot of people. I have isolated due to my health as well as not having a place to turn while i process this all.

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes
I haven’t come across anyone who understands enough to tell.

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience
I remember it so well.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes
I know a lot more than I did before. I can feel a lot more surrounding other people and things happening. It’s much more intense now.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Knowing that we are souls. We will feel others we know again and we can feel them if we ask. Souls are always around us.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? No

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Uncertain
I had heard of it but didn’t know anything about it. I didn’t think they were even real.

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real
I only ever questioned myself because of society and not being able to tell anyone out of fear is sound insane.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes
Yes.

Anything else to add? Not that I can think of currently.