Terri S Probable NDE

Experience Description

Prior to having an emergency C-section to deliver my first child, I was in labor for thirty-six hours. I remember the doctor telling the team in the operating room that they needed to perform general anesthesia because of the condition of the mother.

The unusual experience I had occurred between that memory and waking up in the recovery room.

In that experience, I found myself surrounded by an infinity of warm, bright, loving light-beings. I remembered that I came from this place, and I instantly understood everything. I was so happy to be back there, but the beings told me that I needed to return. They told me I had a little boy and many things yet to do.

My next brief memory is becoming aware that I couldn't breathe, then I realized that the respirator was breathing for me. I could hear, but I could not see anything at that point. I think I went back to sleep. When I woke again, the tube was gone and the nurses were saying, "Did you hear? This little girl had a ten-pound baby!" I have only scattered memories of the next couple of days.

For many years after this experience, I could meditate and reacquire the beautiful feeling of being with the light beings. This was beautiful and painful at the same time, as I was not able to remember the knowledge that flooded in while I was there.

I wish that everyone could have that knowledge and feeling of belonging to infinite love.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date of NDE: 5/21/1980

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Uncertain

How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant

Did you feel separated from your body? No

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? That would be when the knowledge flooded in and I knew that I was back where I belong.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness? More consciousness and alertness than normal

Were your thoughts speeded up? No

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? No

Were your senses more vivid than usual? No

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience I don't think I was seeing with my eyes during this experience.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience In the same way, hearing doesn't describe the way I was made aware or given knowledge.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

Did you see any beings in your experience? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased beings? No

Did you see or feel surrounded by a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes
The light was full of beings or was the beings, and expansive.

Did you seem to enter another world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm
It was not unfamiliar. I felt that I was home.

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Astonishment. I felt "Ah hah! Now I remember!"

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly understand everything? Everything about the universe
I wish I could remember that download.

Did scenes from your past come back? No

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a definite conscious decision to return to life

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Christian- Protestant

Have your religious practices changed? No

What is your religion now? Unaffiliated- Nothing in particular- Religious unaffiliated
My belief now is that what most religious ideas do not accurately convey what God is.

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience
I believed in God before the experience. What I experienced was astonishingly richer than my prior beliefs. I learned that I had been a light being, and would be one again. That is amazing.

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Many beings.

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? Yes
I just knew that this was so.

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Yes
Yes. I came from that oneness.

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Yes
I remember thinking that people would be so amazed and surprised at how flat our concept of God is.

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes
I tried to express this. During the experience, I instantly understood everything about why we're here. I lost all of that knowledge when I became conscious. I have come to think that we choose to come here but I don't know why.

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? Yes
It was clear that I had come from this place, and earthly existence is temporary.

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes
Everyone should participate in kindness.

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Moderate changes in my life
I do not want to experience pain when I die, and I don't want my family to be sad, but I don't fear death.

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes
I don't have the words to convey accurately what the experience was really like. Light, warmth, wisdom and love are kind of flat sketches of something with more dimension.

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience as accurately as other life events that occurred around the time of the experience.
I have vivid memories of the beautiful sunsets that week. Mt. St. Helens had erupted and the view from the birthing room window was gorgeous.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? I still miss the feeling of the experience. It's been 45 years, so I have become less frustrated by the fact that I can't remember the amazing knowledge that was available in the experience.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes
I told my mom right away. She was dismissive, saying anesthesia caused hallucinations. I told her she was going to be so surprised when she sees it for herself.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real
I could still remember how it felt for a few years after it. It was unlike anything else I have experienced.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real
It was real.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes
I wish there were better words.