Steven S SDE

Experience Description

I was sitting by her bedside in the hospital. The only people in the room was her and me.

I had an overwhelming sense that I needed to connect with her before she left. I held her hand and put my head on her. Suddenly, I was in a space I cannot explain. There were two bright lights almost becoming one. I assumed one light was my wife and the other I did not know. Above them to the left was an opening. It was dark and seemed like it was almost a tear in some kind of fabric. I got a sense they became aware of my presence. I felt like I was hurled back to my chair in the hospital room. I even felt nauseous.

I then knew she was gone. Her body lived for a few more hours. I’ve since talked to a psychic, and it was confirmed she had left her body and she did hear everything I told her.

Background Information:

Gender: Male

Date of NDE: 05/10/2024

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes
My wife was dying from cancer and the treatment.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Both pleasant AND distressing

Did you feel separated from your body? No

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? N/A

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness? Normal consciousness and alertness

Were your thoughts speeded up? No

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? No

Were your senses more vivid than usual? No

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience N/A

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience Same.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

Did you see any beings in your experience? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased beings? Yes
Same as above.

Did you see or feel surrounded by a brilliant light? An unusually bright light

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes
Very bright whitish lights sort of exploding outward.

Did you seem to enter another world? Some unfamiliar and strange place
I can't explain the space. I was concentrating on the light I thought was my wife.

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Happy and sad.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? No

Did you have a feeling of joy? Happiness

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? No

Did you suddenly understand everything? No

Did scenes from your past come back? No

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Uncertain
In a space for what seemed a very short time.

Did you come to a border or point of no return? No

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Christian - Other Christian

Have your religious practices changed? Yes
I used to go to church. I no longer do but I believe in what they do. Mostly.

What is your religion now? Christian - Other Christian

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience
I had no thoughts of an opening or tunnel until I researched after I saw it.

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
I saw the lights that seemed to me to be souls or spirits.

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? Uncertain
Same as above.

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? No

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? No

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

During your experience, did you gain information about love? No

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes
I cannot explain where I was.

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience as accurately as other life events that occurred around the time of the experience
Same.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes
I shared it with my brother within hours. He was very receptive.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Uncertain
I've watched so many since my experience I can't remember not knowing.

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real
It is still clear in my memory over two years later.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real
I clearly remember it and what I saw is consistent with others.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Uncertain
My experience is an SDE.