Sara J NDE

Experience Description

I was in a fire in my driveway that got out of control and onto my legs from a controlled burn explosion. The last thing I remember was wanting to die alone; yet, I felt panicked because I didn't want my spouse to have to see me die like that. Then, boom! I was getting up off the ground after a loud noise and was in complete shock. I walked up the driveway to the truck. My spouse drove us fifteen minutes to the emergency room. I got out of the truck and told him to please leave and to grab my stuff from home. I was scared I was going to die and I couldn't leave him like that because I love him so much.

I walked into the emergency room, bleeding and oozing from both thighs with thirty-six percent of my thighs and legs severely burned. I checked in at the desk. They started to get my blood pressure and ask me what was wrong. Then they realized I was not okay while rushing me to a bed. I pulled off my own shirt because they were looking for scissors. I laid down and started writhing around the bed. That was the last thing I remember while being in this world.

The next thing I knew, I was weightless and on my back. I was also in a dark hallway with little white star-like specks. It reminded me of being in actual space with stars all around me. At first I didn't remember anything, except that I felt okay and it was pleasant. There was a sense of quiet and peace. I have no idea how much time went by, but it was some time later. I saw flashes of my son when he was a newborn. He was crying and looking at me. Then I saw the faces of my two girls from the last time I had had seen them. They were so happy. It wasn't like a vision; it was like I was literally looking at them from above. I saw them from an angle, not right above. The last vision that I saw was my husband's face. His eyes looked like he was squinting in the sun. I saw him in his truck with the sun in his eyes during this experience. His face shining down into the girls from an angle, and he was looking up at me at a different angle. I felt a sudden urgency and that I had to get back to him no matter what. I felt pulled or sucked into my body.

That's when I came to, asking the nurse, "Do you believe in Bigfoot?" While I was waiting to be airlifted, she made a comment saying how her arm was hurting because she performed aggressive CPR on me for about an hour.

It seemed like things were going to be okay until I got back home. It was then I started seeing things and filming them for proof as well. My husband and I see orbs and things around us so often I have stacked up hundreds of videos of proof. I also have seen an entity several times; I call it a light being or being of light. I had never heard of one or seen one until two and a half years after the experience.

The orbs started happening two months after I was home from the ICU. Light beings and more appeared about the two-year mark after my experience, and right now will be the third year after it, about the anniversary as well. But I have been having some new issues that have been very intense and scary. It's a feeling of detachment from life and myself and the people around me. I feel like I'm not alive sometimes or that I'm going to die. I then feel rushed with panic and numbness in my hands and face because I am scared my soul will leave my body, just leave, because I feel like the other place I was and this one are one and the same almost, but not quite.

I was definitely always able to feel people's emotions before my experience, but after, I feel like everything is better or improved in a sense. I was able to read people and their past lives about seventy percent right, but now I've been about ninety percent right. It's scary to say all this, and I don't know if others are going through this as well. If they are, I am really scared lately because I feel like I'm floating between places and have to grasp reality just to be here, even though I know I can't just leave.

There are other things like electronics messing up near me and lights at times. I have been able to, from my mind, ask one of the orbs to prove that this was real so I didn't look crazy and to do something amazing, and lo and behold the sky started lighting up and then orbs blinked everywhere. It was amazing, and I have the original copies. It is truly unbelievable, and so are the hundreds of other videos I've been filming since the experience.

My husband is dealing with the strange orbs all the time. We film them all the time together. But, he doesn't feel an intense, loving sensation from the white orbs and orbs in general. They are always around us. He does see them, however. I can communicate, feel their presence, and see them. I just feel like the line between the two places is fading. So I walked into the ER, mind you I was bleeding and oozing from both thighs with thirty-six percent of my thighs and legs severely burned, and I checked in at the desk. They started to get my blood pressure and ask me what was wrong, and then they realized I was not okay whatsoever and rushed me to a bed. I pulled off my own shirt because they were looking for scissors, and I laid down and started writhing around the bed. That was the last thing I remember while 'being in this world,' because the next thing I knew I was weightless on my back in a dark hallway with little white star-like specks, sort of like actual space, all around me.

At first I didn't remember anything, I just felt okay, pleasant, just a sense of quiet and peace. Some time later, I have no idea how much time went by, I saw flashes of my son when he was a newborn. He was crying and looking at me. Then I saw my two girls' faces the last time I had seen them, and they were so happy. It wasn't like a vision; it was like I was literally looking at them from a little bit of a view above them but from an angle, not right above. The last vision that I saw was my husband's face, his eyes looking like he was squinting in the sun. It was on his face shining down into them from an angle, and he was looking up at me at a different angle. He was in his truck when I saw him with the sun in his eyes during this experience.

After seeing his face, I felt a sudden urgency and rush that I had to get back to him no matter what, and the next thing I knew I felt pulled or sucked into this body. That's when I came to, and I guess the first thing I said was 'do you believe in Bigfoot' to the nurse. While I was waiting to be airlifted, she made a comment saying how her arm was hurting because she performed aggressive CPR on me for about an hour.

I was then airlifted and it seemed like things were going to be okay until I got back home. It was then I started seeing things and filming them for proof as well. My husband and I see orbs and things around us so often I have stacked up hundreds of videos of proof. I also have seen an entity several times; I call it a light being or being of light. I had never heard of one or seen one until two and a half years after the experience.

The orbs started happening two months after I was home from the ICU. Light beings and more appeared about the two-year mark after my experience, and right now will be the third year after it, about the anniversary as well. But I have been having some new issues that have been very intense and scary. It's a feeling of detachment from life and myself and the people around me. I feel like I'm not alive sometimes or that I'm going to die. I then feel rushed with panic and numbness in my hands and face because I am scared my soul will leave my body, just leave, because I feel like the other place I was and this one are one and the same almost, but not quite.

I was definitely always able to feel people's emotions before my experience, but after, I feel like everything is better or improved in a sense. I was able to read people and their past lives about seventy percent right, but now I've been about ninety percent right. It's scary to say all this, and I don't know if others are going through this as well. If they are, I am really scared lately because I feel like I'm floating between places and have to grasp reality just to be here, even though I know I can't just leave.

There are other things like electronics messing up near me and lights at times. I have been able to, from my mind, ask one of the orbs to prove that this was real so I didn't look crazy and to do something amazing, and lo and behold the sky started lighting up and then orbs blinked everywhere. It was amazing, and I have the original copies. It is truly unbelievable, and so are the hundreds of other videos I've been filming since the experience.

My husband is dealing with the strange orbs all the time also now because we film them all the time together, but he doesn't feel an intense, loving sensation from the white orbs and orbs in general that are always around us now like I do. He does see them, however. I can communicate, feel their presence, and see them. I just feel like the line between the two places is fading, and that's why I'm here looking for answers and needing all the help and comments I can get.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date of NDE: 03/00/2023

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes
This question has me a little confused. Yes, I easily could have died, and that's when I had the NDE during the aggressive resuscitation for an hour.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Both pleasant AND distressing

Did you feel separated from your body? I lost awareness of my body
I saw my husband in his truck at the last part of my NDE. He left me with the nurses at the ER right before my NDE when I told him to run back to the house to grab my stuff. He was in the truck driving, and it was sunny. We were able to confirm that.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? It was when I saw my husband and my children's faces and started to remember them and all of the intense love and emotion.
It's like a dream, but way more real than a dream would be. A lot more clear, not foggy.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness? More consciousness and alertness than normal

Were your thoughts speeded up? No

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Time didn't seem to speed up or slow down; it was like it didn't exist.

Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience Right before the NDE, it almost felt like I knew I had to do what I had to do, but it was also dreamlike.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience I remember it being very quiet, like when you cover your ears to pop them, and you could hear every little pop and noise one hundred times more.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes
It was a dark tunnel with little white, star-sized specks around me. It was very peaceful and quiet, with no fear, pain, or worry. From our view, the sky from land had the white star-sized specks.

Did you see any beings in your experience? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased beings? Uncertain
I was always sensitive to the paranormal, but voices started coming through my videos and security cameras of people who have passed and people I don't recognize. I recorded them for proof.

Did you see or feel surrounded by a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? Uncertain
Little specks. I can't be certain, but right after my last memory I saw a white flash, and then I was pulled back here to a white room I was in.

Did you seem to enter another world? Some unfamiliar and strange place
Yes, I knew I was in a different place and that they are very close, closer than I would have thought.

What emotions did you feel during the experience? I felt peaceful. I felt nothing painful, and I didn't even remember anything at first, but it didn't matter because I was happy and at peace and had no worries until my life memories.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly understand everything? Everything about myself or others
I understood that there was more to life and that I wanted to do better, be better, and make sure my husband knew how much he really means to me in case it is the last time I tell him for a while.

Did scenes from your past come back? My past flashed before me, out of my control
My most important people and happiest times came through: my kids and my current husband.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Uncertain
I'm not sure if the boundary was the choice to come back or stay because I felt an intense, sudden rush to get back to my husband and knew at the exact time that I was either going to choose to die or come back. It was made clear I had to choose, but it was never said; I just knew. I chose to come back because the intense love and overwhelming sense of separation and sadness was so vividly intense. I was being sucked back to the place I was, sort of pulled back in, following a bright light for a split second. I'm not sure if that's the white light people say they see or the lights in the ER room from a dark tunnel I came back out of.

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a definite conscious decision to return to life
Yes, I wasn't told, but I knew and understood I was either choosing death or life.

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Unaffiliated - Nothing in particular - Secular unaffiliated
I never really had a belief other than family saying Jesus was Jesus and God was god.

Have your religious practices changed? Yes
I do believe the angels are real now. I believe that we go somewhere else, not above and not below, but to a different place of light, love, and energy.

What is your religion now? Do not know
I feel like there is definitely more to life now instead of wondering. I am seeking answers about religion and beliefs to see what I believe and what I do not now.

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience
I wasn't sure about other realms and beings. I didn't really believe in entities, just spirits. But now I know lots of other things are out there besides spirits and humans.

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes
I believe in being a better person now and believe that there are things humans do not understand and are not ready to understand, and they will know when that time comes.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
This was not during my NDE. It was a few months ago. I saw a white being of light, like a human being walking, but with a body of light.

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? Uncertain
I saw a being of light a few months back. It was an intense whitish-yellowish light and had a human shape, but it flies. I have it on a clear video, and I saw it with my own eyes looking up at my window from my driveway. The orbs follow me around often in my videos.

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? No

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? No

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes
I felt a real, true, and pure love, a peaceful love, like when I had my first child.

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life
I feel dissociated with life on Earth and feel as if my soul is trying to leave. I have to bring myself back to it. I see orbs, UAPs, and my ESP gift, which I had before, is way better than it used to be. I find myself thinking about life, death, and everything every day, trying to figure out what is happening to me.

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes
I was very mad and angry after my accident. But as I saw the orbs, UAPs, and other things, I started feeling a sense of love and overwhelming sense of knowing there is a beautiful place outside of the earthly human place. This just keeps me feeling secure, loved, and more at peace with my future death.

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Uncertain
It brings me to intense emotion, like love and tears, but not sadness.

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience
It was so intense, life-changing, and vivid. Everything felt a thousand times more intense there, in contrast to how we perceive things.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes
I am able to remote view and read people's emotions with 96 percent accuracy lately, and I can see things better and more accurately.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Yes, the choice to stay or go, yet not being able to know the right answer, and seeing memories that I would never be able to see like that again as I relive that moment in time.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? No

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was probably real
I knew it happened, but as with everything, time moves on and you forget.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real
Now that it's coming up on three years and I continue to see things (orbs, spirits, etc.), not only that, but a few years later I started feeling like I don't exist. I wonder if I died and am just a spirit that didn't know it passed. More and more, I feel like I'm fading from my life.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Uncertain
I explained everything to the best of my ability, as these are memories I'll never replace or forget. Also, I have many videos to prove the high strangeness phenomena.

Anything else to add? I am having a hard time lately, feeling like I'm going to die or having feelings of detachment, like I'm stuck here and there but I need to move to just one place.