Robert C Other

Experience Description

I moved in with a roommate from Craigslist. I didn’t know beforehand that he had anger management issues.

One night he was muttering things about me outside my bedroom door and I thought he was going to kill me. I began to feel the presence of God as my finger touched my spiritual heart. I felt an expansive love that radiated through and past my being. I then began to feel the crucifixion of Jesus as my body went into the crucifixion posture. While this was going on, I could hear angelic music but also the nailing of the nails. When I stepped out of the heart space, it felt painful and distressing. But, when I focused on the heart space, it was very pleasant. I wasn’t able to finish the experience, but it lasted for what felt like an hour or two. Afterwards, I went through some of the stages of the cross while I was doing tai chi. My body also went into a headstand position, but I wasn’t able to hold it.

Background Information:

Gender: Male

Date of NDE: 2015

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes

How do you consider the content of your experience? Both pleasant AND distressing

Did you feel separated from your body? No

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? The entire experience.
I felt such an expansive love. There was nothing I needed other than this love so I was fully present.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness? More consciousness and alertness than normal

Were your thoughts speeded up? No

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
The power of love was non-linear.

Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience Prior to the experience, I was depressed at my postal service job that I was working full time.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience I heard angelic music.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

Did you see any beings in your experience? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased beings? No

Did you see or feel surrounded by a brilliant light? No

Did you see an unearthly light? No

Did you seem to enter another world? No

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Bliss

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Happiness

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? No

Did you suddenly understand everything? No

Did scenes from your past come back? No

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? No

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Unaffiliated- Agnostic
I grew up in a casual catholic family. We mostly only went to mass on holidays.

Have your religious practices changed? Yes
More open-minded

What is your religion now? Unaffiliated- Agnostic
I’m not very religious. I just try to be a good person.

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience
I didn't know the crucifixion could be experienced by anyone and that everyone has a spiritual heart.

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes
Self-empowerment

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Yes
Love

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Yes
Infinite unconditional love.

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? Yes
To love.

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? No

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? Yes
The crucifixion and the spiritual heart are real. Love is the way.

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes
All that is, all that matters.

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Moderate changes in my life
After me experience, I read all that I could on nde accounts. I read a lot of good books and a lot of accounts on this website and iands.org that made me feel not alone. I don’t talk much about the experience but I do my best to live a spiritual life.

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes
The details of the crucifixion experience: like wiping sweat off my thighs with my fingers.

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience
It's an experience that will never leave me.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The feeling of divine love

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes
I shared it with family. I didn’t get too much into details.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? Yes
I would listen to the music of Frederic DeLarue and Tom Kenyon and would feel the expansiveness of love again.

Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes

Anything else to add? Everyone is spiritual!