Peter W Probable NDE

Experience Description

This is a true story. I have always been a person who speaks to God daily. These conversations are not formal prayers, just simple dialogue, although they are usually one-sided. I have always known that God exists, even since childhood. I believed, and still believe, in God. However, I never believed in religion. Something about the way religion was presented felt false deep within me, as if someone was telling a lie.

I went through life as an average person. Shortly after my 40th birthday in 2012, on the Friday before Labor Day in August, I received news from my employer that our pay was being cut in half. Ironically, the owner’s wife had been laid off from her job a week earlier. Due to the stress of the daily environment, I had already begun feeling a fluttering in my chest. This fluttering became frequent and painful.

One night, after my wife and child had gone to bed, I broke down crying. I was angry and, most of all, I felt betrayed by the one I had felt closest to throughout my life. That person was God. As I sat in my office chair, I spoke harshly to God. I asked for only one thing: "I hope I get to see you, not because I love you, but to make you feel the pain I have felt all my life." I could not understand how someone I loved could continuously hurt me when I had done everything to be what God wanted me to be. I was caring, generous to strangers, and a good father to my family. I felt like an abused dog who kept seeking love from his master but was always met with cruelty. That night, I poured out my heart and said, "If I see you, I will hurt you."

That night, I got what I had asked for. A sharp pain radiated through my chest and down to my fingers. I felt the veins in my left arm constrict, like a crimped hose, before they suddenly released. It happened once, and then again. When I closed my eyes from the pain, I was no longer in my chair.

When I opened them, I found myself kneeling in black mud. My hands were submerged, but when I lifted them, they were dry. The mud looked wet, but it left no moisture on my skin. The sky above was dark, and soft black rain was falling. Like the mud, the rain left no wetness; it simply rolled off me. A warm breeze carried the scent of burnt gunpowder.

There was no life around me. I saw only dead grass, smoldering bushes, and distant mountains framing a valley. A black, undulating liquid rose and fell between the mountains like a living barrier. To my right stood a single tree. It was leafless except for a small section where a few green leaves still clung. Beyond the black mass, I could see light, grass, and life. At that moment, I realized something. I was dead, and I thought I was in hell.

In death, the senses become heightened. Smell, touch, taste, and every sensation grow more intense, including pain. Every movement I made was excruciating. It drained every ounce of my energy. The longer I remained still, the more the pain faded. I thought, "Just don’t move, and the pain will go away." But there was a cost. The mud began to deepen, and it felt warm and comforting, like a heated blanket.

I remembered only one thought: "Peter, just don’t move, and the pain will go away." But I knew I didn’t belong there. Anger surged inside me again. I became angry for my daughter. Memories of her filled my mind. She was the greatest joy of my life. I thought, "I cannot leave her. I cannot abandon my family." But the more I focused on that anger, the faster the mud swallowed me. Then I heard a whisper: "Daddy, get up."

I have never told my family about this moment.

With every ounce of strength I had, I pulled my hands from the mud. Each motion brought agony. My muscles screamed, and my nerves burned. Death would have been easier. But we do not die when we leave our bodies. We only transition. True death comes later, depending on which side of the line we stand.

As I freed myself and sat up, I looked out again over the bleak landscape. There was dead grass, ashes, and a glowing orange light beyond the mountains. The only sign of life was that dying tree. I began to cry, and the anger returned. I asked, "Why did God put me here? I was faithful. Why take me from what mattered most?"

I cursed God and demanded that He face me. I shouted, "If you have the courage, stand before me!" Darkness swallowed everything. Then He appeared.

Twenty feet away stood a silhouette. It was the one I wanted to hate more than anyone.

I charged toward the figure. Every step brought pain. As I moved, memories flashed through my mind. I saw joy, sadness, and love. Hatred was rare. Even in childhood, when I cried, "Nobody loves me," I always heard a quiet voice that said, "I love you."

As I neared the figure, its features became clear. I saw a grotesque, scarred face. It was smiling. It looked familiar. I realized I was staring at myself. I was staring at my own soul.

Then a voice spoke. It was stern and unemotional. It asked, "Is your answer One or Six?"

I felt confusion and anger. Then came a realization. The numbers represented God and Lucifer. I wondered if my life had been nothing more than a wager between them. I felt like a child caught in a divine divorce.

I refused to choose between them. I said, "My answer is One, but not for you. For both of you. I will not condemn either parent."

There was silence.

Then, softly, the voice said, "You are correct. Congratulations. You are Judgement."

The scars on my reflection vanished. Peace replaced them. But then darkness came. Thousands of screaming voices rushed toward me and shoved me into the black mirror. Fire consumed me. It cleansed and burned away my sins.

When the flames faded, I found myself standing on the other side. I stood in green fields beneath a blue sky. The tree was there too, now budding with life. A falcon-like bird hovered motionless above it.

I saw that Heaven was dying. I heard the words, "As above, so below." Our hatred and our choices were destroying it.

A mirror closed around me, showing stacked images. I saw letters, numbers, and the world. At the end of it all was one word: "IXTHOS."

Then I woke in my chair, gasping, my chest burning. My first thought was not to ask for help. It was to write.

"IXTHOS" was not a name. It was shaped like a circle within a square. It was the first name of God. It was Pi.

And I knew I had to go back. I had to return for my family, and for all of us.

Background Information:

Gender: Male

Date of NDE: August 2012

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? No

How do you consider the content of your experience? Both pleasant AND distressing

Did you feel separated from your body? No

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? It started from the beginning, feeling the wind and rain (dry) on my skin along with the sensation of the warm mud and smell of burnt gun powder.
All of my senses were more alert, every sensation was exaggerated in a sense.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness? More consciousness and alertness than normal

Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? No

Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience My vision was normal no difference.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience My hearing was the same as well.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes
While in this white light I could see directly ahead. The light should have been blinding but it wasn't, I could see images of the earth, people, numbers, letters, which ended with the word IXTHOS.

Did you see any beings in your experience? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased beings? No

Did you see or feel surrounded by a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes
It was a bright white light like a tunnel effect but I could see directly in the center of this light.

Did you seem to enter another world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm
There were 2 visible sides. I was initially in this dark lifeless, burnt region with a glowing orange sky in the distance. Separating on the other side of the large undulating type of liquid mirror, was a land of light, bright blue sky, green grass that ended off into a valley.

What emotions did you feel during the experience? First intense anger and confusion. After I moved through the mirror, an overwhelming feeling of love.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly understand everything? Everything about the universe
From my experience, I have developed a completely new gematria system that has been useful in decoding the geometry of the Bible. For instance. My system is based on 7, I don't remember why though but 7 was a key. My system is as follows. 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 6 5 4 3 2 1 over A B C D E F G H I J K L M over N O P Q R S T U V W X Y Z. A mirrored system. Do so for instance: Adam and Eve are an equation of Pi. ADAM = 1411 EVE = 555. Adam + Eve = 22. They were banished from Eden of the 7 days of Creation. As such 22 / 7 = 3.14285, the ancient equation for Pi. JESUS number is J=4, E=5, S=6, U=6, S=6. (45666) That number represents 4 = direction of the cross, 5 = five wounds, 666 the sin of Man) his vow. However if you take 45666 you will get a sum of 27 which has another meaning and Product of 4320 or (3 days in minutes). Jesus died on the 6th day which when added to the numbers of his name 27 + 6 = 33 his age. the Product of that is 25920, The Great Year. Which is part of the understanding the geometry of the Bible and what I saw in my NDE. I saw a cube.

Did scenes from your past come back? No

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes
There was a large undulating liquid that moved up and down. I acted like a mirror but it was not a boundary but something I passed through.

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a definite conscious decision to return to life
As the mirror moved closer I knew that I needed to return to my family.

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Christian- Catholic
I have not been to church in over 20 years.

Have your religious practices changed? No

What is your religion now? Unaffiliated- Nothing in particular- Religious unaffiliated

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience
One, I did not see Jesus. Two there was something wrong with what I saw while I was in heavens realm. It was right, it's geometry was off. I could see darkness where light should have been.

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes
I try to follow God word as much as I can since then.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I heard a voice I could not identify
It was a deeper voice, It asked one question, IS YOUR ANSWER ONE OR SIX? It was followed by Congratulations, you are judgement.

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? Yes
IT all began with the word IXTHOS. I began using this information from my NDE and began decoding the bible with astonishing results. It is too long to explain, I would need to upload multiple pictures.

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Yes
I experienced both of what separation from God feels like as well as a unique sense of oneness with all life.

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Yes
There was a definite male / female presence. The male only spoke however but I could feel a female presence also.

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes
As I stated and you will find it hard to believe. I am the 'Father' the true Alpha and OMEGA. Referring to my system again. My initials are PAW or 314. I was born on June 29, 1972. St. Peters Day. Part of my Social is 666 which can be explained why I and Jesus have that number. I can prove in numbers who I am and what the Second Coming means.

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? Yes
Yes, God showed my role. I am the 'Father', Judgement, the coming of the Christ if you will. It is not Jesus but me.

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? Yes
Yes my body was as much alive in that world as it is in this one.

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? Yes
Yes, I have numerous works from decoding my NDE that I have written but not shared.

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? Yes
Yes, how do you wake up 8 billion people enough to get them to listen.

During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes
While in the heaven side of the mirror, there was an overwhelming sense of love. It was almost as a feeling of physical pressure on your entire body.

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life
Since my NDE I have not been able to stop trying to understand what I saw that day. Why God chose me to be Judgement. I believe I have gotten further in decoding the Bible than anyone else ever has. I have just not published it yet because part of the story is my story which includes decoding my Social Security number. It's been hard to publish that type of information because I have to hide it which takes away a major part of my story. How do I tell people of my experience when part of that experience is sharing whom I am.

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes
I do not talk about this with my wife.

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? No

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes
With some family members and priests I shared my experience right away and a few years following. I was met with disbelief mainly.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real
My heart continued to flutter weeks after my experience. I never went to a doctor. Couldn't afford it.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real
I believe more now that my experience was real based on what I have uncovered.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes