Pasha L FDE

Experience Description

My ex-boyfriend pushed me against a closed door, squeezed my throat, and was holding my son in his arms while he did it. I was already turning blue.

During this time, I saw my past; my whole life flashed before me. It felt peaceful, good, and it felt beautiful. I walked toward the white light. It had no color; but it felt peaceful and calm. It was freeing somehow. If it had gone on a little longer, I probably would have fainted. But, eventually he stopped choking me. It felt strangely freeing, actually, even though I love my life.

In hindsight, I was panicking and felt afraid. But in that moment, all was simply peaceful and quiet. It was beautiful and felt good.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date of NDE: 00/00/2011

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes
My breathing was cut off. I saw my life flash before me and I saw my children.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Both pleasant AND distressing

Did you feel separated from your body? No
I only saw my life flash before me and heard nothing.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? At the moment it happened, I would say.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness? Normal consciousness and alertness

Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Time seemed to go faster or slower than usual
It felt like an eternity, but somehow it was only seconds.

Were your senses more vivid than usual? More vivid than usual

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience I did not see anything at all. I was so perplexed because I only noticed how he grabbed me by the throat, and then I could only remember that my life flashed before me, and yes, and then this white light and this peacefulness came.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience I heard nothing at all.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes
Yes, it was the beginning, and then suddenly there was only light.

Did you see any beings in your experience? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased beings? No

Did you see or feel surrounded by a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes
It was a bright white light.

Did you seem to enter another world? No

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Contentment, happiness, beauty.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Happiness

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly understand everything? No

Did scenes from your past come back? My past flashed before me, out of my control
I saw the birth of my children, them growing up, my childhood. It mainly had to do with my children.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? No

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Do not know
Protestant faith, only lightly.

Have your religious practices changed? No

What is your religion now? Christian - Other Christian
Protestant faith and the supernatural.

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience
During my experience, I just saw this white light. It was calming. It felt good. It felt right.

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? No

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? No

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

During your experience, did you gain information about love? No

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Moderate changes in my life
I am no longer as involved with others. I have become cold, and I often think my life is more important than the lives of others, because I only have this one life and I must live it and enjoy it and not fixate on others, since many people wanted to harm me.

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes
I became colder toward my former boyfriend, and yet I somehow clung to him and did not leave, because I was afraid of being alone.

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? No

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience
I can remember it very well, also because it triggered a trauma.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Yes, my life has actually become more important to me.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes
Other people were rather incredulous.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real
It actually took time before I processed and realized it, but even so, it happened, it is okay, I had an experience. However, I do not want to have this experience again, because what if it is really too late then?

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real
It was definitely real, what happened.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes

Anything else to add? Now that I have become older, I have also grown somewhat more in faith, spiritually, yes, also with a very great interest in moon cycles, witchcraft, magic, things like that, because I determine my life and no one else.