Nicolas F Other

Experience Description

Like a number of my previous experiences, this one involves being redirected from certain death, as if the universe is keeping a vigil over us. However, unlike all the other ones that can be explained through notions of a higher consciousness, this one rests in some other category, unknown to me.

I was following a Porsche very closely, and we were both speeding on a small, narrow, two-way street, about 50 m.p.h. in a 25 m.p.h. zone. The street was on a downgrade slope. I had been at the dentist’s, a particularly painful three-hour visit, and I was making my escape, free at last, accelerating toward freedom and open space, when the Porsche suddenly braked and stopped. It took me by complete surprise. I was not concentrating on the road, more on my discomfort, and the bit of joy that I could extract from my hard-won freedom. I had not seen the stop light and it had turned red. A Buick doesn’t stop the same way as a Porsche. It is heavier than a couple of rhinos and about as maneuverable. However, it would not have made any difference. I could not have stopped if I had a Ferrari. I was following too close at too high a speed.

There was no evading the collision. There was no corridor of space on either left or right through which I could have escaped. On my right, cars were parked along the curb in a long row. The road was narrow, and the Buick was wide. I would have had to back up and reposition it, and then squeeze in between the Porsche and the parked cars, but even then, it would have taken some skill. On my left, there was a stream of uninterrupted traffic; shifting to the left would have meant a head-on collision. In any case, there was no time to react from this close distance to the Porsche. I was trapped, doomed. I accepted the collision as inevitable and blanked out.

When I came to, I found myself lodged between the Porsche on my left and the row of parked cars on my right. There was no room on either side, not more than a couple of inches. I had no idea how I had gotten there. I then looked hazily to my left, and the man in the Porsche was staring at me. He was not angry, but immobilized, perhaps by disbelief. He must have seen what had happened but could not reconcile himself to it. Or was he just glad that I had not crushed him? I do not know what he saw. Perhaps he had seen me in his rearview mirror and awaited the massive hit. Neither of us could do anything but look at one another, silently seeking some answer that was not coming. For some strange reason, the cars behind the Porsche had not activated their horns, even though the light had turned green. Everything stopped for some time. Time itself was immobilized. All the cars behind the Porsche were waiting patiently. What had they seen, if anything? The driver of the Porsche sat there for a while longer, with that unknowing look on his face, and then took off. After a long row of cars passed, I merged into the road again and proceeded to drive home. I didn't tell anyone about it.

I have hesitated writing about this because the incident seems to suggest that my Buick itself would have had to perform some sort of acrobatics, which would, understandably, be dismissed. I cannot place it in some "working of the interwovenness of the universe upon itself," some "higher consciousness," whatever that implies. How would that explain the physical aspects of this episode? How did the car end up in that space? Or manage to enter that space? How did it do so physically? I cannot say. Were my hands on the steering wheel? I do not know. There had not been the room to steer into the space, conventionally speaking. I have no answer to it, to this day. It confounds me. Someone told me that I had automatically, by habit, hit the brakes and dovetailed into the only space available, by accident. Of course, this would happen once in a billion times of dovetailing, but I had to reconcile myself and say that it could have happened. The car could have moved sideways when I applied the brakes and slid into the space. That is actually possible, now that I am writing about it, but our existence in the world is not sufficiently old for it to have happened.

Does it not ultimately suggest that we live in a simulation? And it was placed there, like a toy? This would also explain the "as if" self, the "almost" being. Would this not even be the definition of "simulation"? That we are "almost beings"? And love is how we fill that absence of being? When all is said and done, I must say that I know nothing of it.

Background Information:

Gender: Male

Date of NDE: 9/3/2003

NDE Elements:

How do you consider the content of your experience? Neither pleasant NOR distressing

Did you feel separated from your body? No

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? In this particular case, everything happened after I lost consciousness.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness? Less consciousness and alertness than normal

Were your thoughts speeded up? No

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
I don't know how to express it: after the event itself, time had no significance; it did not exist.

Were your senses more vivid than usual? No

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience I went unconscious. I saw nothing.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience I heard nothing.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

Did you see any beings in your experience? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased beings? No

Did you see or feel surrounded by a brilliant light? No

Did you see an unearthly light? No

Did you seem to enter another world? No

What emotions did you feel during the experience? None

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? No

Did you have a feeling of joy? No

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? No

Did you suddenly understand everything? No

Did scenes from your past come back? No

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? No

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? No comment

Have your religious practices changed? No

What is your religion now? No comment

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience
What was consistent was my knowledge that a sort of Omniscience exists interwoven with our consciousness, and can change the course of events that involved saving one's life; what was not consistent with my beliefs or experiences, was the abnormal and precise movement of physical objects through space, like some joggling of space itself.

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? No

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? No

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

During your experience, did you gain information about love? No

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? No changes in my life
Nothing changed as the result of the experience. I do not fear death. I fear not finishing life properly, as I grow old and as evil people are working to insert themselves into my life.

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? No

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience
I remember it because I was so puzzled by it. But I'm not obssessed with it.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? No

Have you ever shared this experience with others? No

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real
It took place in the world of physical objects. It was clear and obvious. But it was not the reality that I expected to exist.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real
I see myself speeding behind the Porsche and then parked next to its right side, with nothing in between.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? Yes
I come from a lineage where we experienced events that were beyond everyday ordinary explanations.

Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes
Clearly, but none suggested an explanation of the event.

Anything else to add? No