Nick N NDE

Experience Description

I remember doing a shot sitting next to my girlfriend's mentally handicapped son. It is a blank from the time I pushed the drugs into my vein until the time I became aware again.

I felt like I was shooting down a tunnel at light speed. It was darkness as far as I know, with hints of different shades of black if you can imagine it. I think for the most part I was scared because I did not know what was happening at the time, but then it hit me. I must have overdosed. All of a sudden the light speed changed direction, like my fear drove me back towards my body. I did not want to die. How I knew I was speeding back toward my body I do not know, but I did. A tiny prick of light was in the distance, but it was very far away. As I got closer I realized that the light was my eyes, like looking through a window. I could hear my girlfriend saying, "No, we can't give up on him, spray him again." She was beating on my chest, and then I literally felt my soul come back into my body, or vessel as I now realize.

As I did, I took a long breath, breathing in as hard and as fast as I could like someone having a panic attack. I was so scared. My girlfriend was mad, but as soon as she saw the fear on my face she said, "Aww, he's scared." The look on my face was of pure fear. I cried instantly and could not believe what had happened.

Here are a few more details I was told. My girlfriend found me and could not get in the door, so she screamed for her brother who came and kicked the door open. She began throwing cups of water on me and said I would suck in air every time she did. I know the exact type of breath she is talking about because I have saved a few lives of people who were overdosing. After a few minutes her brother grabbed me. I was obviously a blue purple color, and when they tried to move me it was like I was already in rigor. He said he walked me like a board to the bathroom, as stiff as a board. They began spraying me with the shower head and she was hitting my chest. According to her, I had probably been overdosed for twenty five minutes give or take a few. I did not even know what I experienced had been a near death event until a year or so after. I did not know other people have had this same type of thing occur, but now I realize what it was.

Hopefully to anyone reading this, our bodies are just vessels. I felt my consciousness shoot back into my body from somewhere else. I believe I was very close to being gone forever from this world, but fear or whatever it was sent me back towards my earthly vessel.

Background Information:

Gender: Male

Date of NDE: 2/23/2021

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes
I was overdosing on fentanyl.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Both pleasant AND distressing

Did you feel separated from your body? I clearly left my body and existed outside it
I heard her screaming and crying and telling her brother not to give up on me.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? While I was flying down the tunnel and then back toward my body when I saw the light was actually my eye holes.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness? Normal consciousness and alertness

Were your thoughts speeded up? Faster than usual

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Everything happened fast, but while I wasn't in my body I didn't care about time.

Were your senses more vivid than usual? More vivid than usual

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience It's like I was still me or could see in the sense that I was aware.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience I could hear an angel's voice from very far away. That's what made me stop and shoot back towards my body.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, but the facts have not been checked out

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes
Yes, at what felt like light speed, very fast. It felt like I was miles away from my body.

Did you see any beings in your experience? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased beings? No

Did you see or feel surrounded by a brilliant light? No

Did you see an unearthly light? No

Did you seem to enter another world? Some unfamiliar and strange place
It was a tunnel of different shades of black.

What emotions did you feel during the experience? At first I felt like I was just nothing but something at the same time once I became aware that I was aware.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Relief or calmness

Did you have a feeling of joy? No

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt no longer in conflict with nature

Did you suddenly understand everything? No

Did scenes from your past come back? No

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Uncertain
I don't know what made me stop and turn around.

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a definite conscious decision to return to life
As soon as I heard her voice, I wanted badly to be there.

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Do not know
I believe in God, at least I think I do.

Have your religious practices changed? Yes
I know that energy can't be destroyed, just changed.

What is your religion now? Christian - Protestant

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience
It made me realize that our bodies are just vessels.

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes
I know there's more to this life than we realize.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? Uncertain
I don't know if I existed prior or not.

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Yes
Wherever I was, it was definitely on my way to the other side.

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? No

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? Yes
Wherever I was going, it was not on earth.

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

During your experience, did you gain information about love? Uncertain
I did feel peace, or something like that.

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Slight changes in my life
I don't know, I've kept using and have overdosed since then, but I was never out as long as I was during that experience.

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Uncertain
At first, yes, but now, no.

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I do not know how my remembrance of the experience compares to my remembrance of other life events that occurred around the time of the experience
I remember it very vividly because it happened to me.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? As a whole, I know there's some kind of existence after death.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes
Probably a year or so, and I don't know how they felt.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real
I didn't know what to think, but now I've analyzed it.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real
It happened; I experienced it.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes

Anything else to add? Nope.