Nathan R Possible NDE

Experience Description

My earliest memory as a child was dreamlike. I used to believe it was a recurring dream, but after a revelation during a breathwork session and a profound emotional reaction watching a program about near-death experiences, the realization hit home. When I was born, I was operated on within the first twelve hours. I had malrotation of the intestine. This meant that food would not have been able to pass through the intestines, so I had to be operated on immediately after birth. I later found out that I had some struggles in the ambulance and during the surgery itself.

I am unsure of what to call it, especially since I was so young when it happened. I call it a dream or memory.

I was of falling from the sky. As I approached the ground, I did not stop. But rather, I fell through the ground and landed in an underground, cave-like place. There was a cloaked Being there. All I saw was the cloak and did not see the face. It reminded me of like the Grim Reaper but without the scythe. He told me that it was not my time yet. This experience was then repeated over and over.

The insight I received during a breathwork session as an adult was that the Being was some sort of higher self who was protecting me. I had things that needed to be achieved in this lifetime.

I still feel a little unsure about whether this was a near-death experience or not. My uncontrollable emotional reaction to hearing a similar thing described in a program on near-death experiences makes me feel as though it was one. However, there is a cognitive component that bothers me because how do you know for sure?

Background Information:

Gender: Male

Date of NDE: 6/2/1992

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Uncertain

How do you consider the content of your experience? Neither pleasant NOR distressing

Did you feel separated from your body? I clearly left my body and existed outside it

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Hearing the words 'it’s not your time yet.'
The image, even now at age 33, is crystal clear in my memory.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness? More consciousness and alertness than normal

Were your thoughts speeded up? No

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? No

Were your senses more vivid than usual? More vivid than usual

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience I can’t really explain it based on not having accessible memories from around the age of 12 hours old.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience No change

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes
I felt as though I fell through one, albeit very briefly.

Did you see any beings in your experience? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased beings? No

Did you see or feel surrounded by a brilliant light? No

Did you see an unearthly light? No

Did you seem to enter another world? Some unfamiliar and strange place
An underground cave-type place.

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Confusion

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? No

Did you have a feeling of joy? No

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? No

Did you suddenly understand everything? No

Did scenes from your past come back? No

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
The cloaked being expressed that it wasn't my time yet and repeatedly sent me back, causing me to fall through the sky and the floor again back into the cave.

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Do not know

Have your religious practices changed? Uncertain
I feel as though my spiritual practices, or becoming more spiritual, have allowed me to realize this experience.

What is your religion now? Do not know

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience
I had zero experience of what the world was at that point due to my age.

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
A cloaked figure said it wasn't my time yet.

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? No

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? No

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

During your experience, did you gain information about love? No

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Unknown
I feel like where I’m at now is due to finding myself on a spiritual path, not necessarily due to the experience. Although the recollection of the experience does point to something greater and that there is a purpose for me and all beings.

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Uncertain
I'm not sure.

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience
The imagery in my mind is clear as day, but nothing else from around that time is, due to my age.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No

Have you ever shared this experience with others? No

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was probably real
Because of my age during this experience, I was never able to put it into words as a child, although I feel like I tried explaining it to my mum once but wasn’t understood. Now, with the imagery being clearer and clearer, I feel as though I can recognize this as a potential NDE.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was probably real
The emotion I felt upon hearing someone describe their experience with a being who said, 'It's not your time yet,' on a show about NDEs is the biggest reason I feel it was true. The tears were instant and highly relieving. I felt seen and experienced a deep sense of truth in that moment.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes