Nabil N STE

Experience Description

I don't know if the following description fits the most common NDEs, but after the experience I had confirmation about what I had lived through.

Before the experience, which happened after I fell asleep on the night of January 14, 2026, I had been going through a few difficult months filled with injuries, anxiety, and panic attacks. I was six months away from graduating, and I had to secure an internship before January 2026. I had applied for countless internship openings, but I was always rejected. Of course, with the peer pressure I felt, I couldn't help believing I was the problem, since all of my classmates had landed internships at big companies while I had nothing. The internship was the key to my graduation. I had experienced depressive episodes and panic attacks before, but what I went through during the first two weeks of January, leading up to the 14th, was overwhelming.

I felt numb. I couldn't leave my room, I could barely eat, and I didn't socialize with anyone during this period. I used to live alone, and my family lived in another city. During that time, I believed that being dead would definitely be better than waking up every day in the same hopeless situation. It got to the point where I had a suicide plan in case things went sideways.

On the night of January 14, I went to sleep with the wish of not waking up. As soon as I closed my eyes, I opened them somewhere else entirely. I was lying on my back on concrete, crying nonstop and feeling enormous fear. I was in a big space that seemed to be one vast expanse. Everything was in a color that was a mix of lavender and grey. I can't say exactly what that color was. Grey clouds filled the sky. On my right, I felt the presence of someone or something. I knew deep down that the "person" holding my hand was me. It felt more advanced and higher than my current self, perhaps in terms of consciousness, but I knew it was me.

This "me" entity kept holding my hand and comforting me, saying things in my native language like, "Don't worry. You'll be okay. You'll get what you want. You'll be okay."

As I cried uncontrollably, I saw the sky above me open like a portal, its background composed of white light, and I saw an entity I recognized almost immediately.

Growing up, God, or as we call it in Islam, Allah, was portrayed as a man in the scripture, the Quran, even if most people won't admit it and instead say Allah has no gender. In the scripture, Allah was always referred to as "he." In the scripture, there were often descriptions of this divine entity. Most were positive, such as being forgiving and merciful, but there were also negative traits, such as being judgmental, punitive, abusive, and cruel to some extent. I believed in these descriptions, and I believed that no matter how small or big the mistake I made, I would be punished and burned in hell. I was also very familiar with Jesus and who he was.

As soon as I saw that entity, I immediately knew and said in my head, "That's the creator." This entity didn't appear to be either male or female. It was just the creator as it is. I knew it was not Allah, nor Jesus, nor any of the deities I knew of or had learned about.

When the creator looked at me, I felt an immense sense of comfort, of being seen and heard. I knew I wasn't going to be punished or tortured. In my experience, no physical features were attributed to this entity. It appeared to have a head, two arms, and two legs, and its whole body was filled with stars and colors of the universe. It was as if this entity had the whole universe within it.

The creator squatted down but remained in the open portal, and I felt a sense of familiarity and closeness to it. A moment later, the creator sent a beam containing all the stars and light of the universe directly into the space between my heart and my gut. As soon as this beam touched me, I felt more love than I had ever experienced in my life before that moment. I described this love to my therapist like this: take love as we experience it in this life and multiply it by 1,000. That love made me feel so warm and so safe.

I closed my eyes there and opened them in my room, where I had a smile on my face and tears in my eyes. I closed my eyes again immediately, and I was shown three pairs of football scores for my team, which was playing three more games in the Afcon. As soon as I opened my eyes, I wrote down the scores. I believed that if the scores were right, they would validate everything I had experienced that night. And to no surprise, the results were correct. Since then, I have believed very deeply in what I experienced.

This experience changed how I see the creator and religion entirely. It helped give me comfort and peace that I had lacked for the previous six years. Surprisingly, I haven't had any anxiety attacks or panic attacks since the experience, while before this happened I had one almost every week.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date of NDE: 01/13/2026

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? No

How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant

Did you feel separated from your body? No
Not happening at the exact moment, but I was given the scores of three football matches that were being played in the days after my experience, and they were correct.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? All the time during the experience.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness? Normal consciousness and alertness

Were your thoughts speeded up? No

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? No

Were your senses more vivid than usual? More vivid than usual

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience During this experience, my vision was definitely better than my everyday vision, and I could know everything I saw without prior knowledge.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience During the experience, I could understand what was going on or what the other entity's intentions were without hearing them with my physical ears.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

Did you see any beings in your experience? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased beings? No

Did you see or feel surrounded by a brilliant light? No

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes
A bright white light that wasn't too harsh for the eyes. It felt different.

Did you seem to enter another world? Some unfamiliar and strange place
It was a place that didn't have an Earthly atmosphere; no humans or living creatures were in sight, and I felt like it was just me and my higher self.

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Extreme love, safety, and warmth.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Happiness

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly understand everything? No

Did scenes from your past come back? No

Did scenes from the future come? I saw the scores of three football matches of my nation's team that had not yet been played.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? No

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Muslim
I was born into a Muslim society. I used religion as a shield from the outside world, so I was religious but not spiritual somehow. I always had questions and no answers, and religion was always associated with fear and anxiety of judgment, so I was never comfortable in the practices or beliefs.

Have your religious practices changed? Yes

What is your religion now? Do not know
Currently, I understand that maybe religions are like a guidebook brought by possible beings from the other side and not something we should follow literally. I respect all religions, but none of them bring me peace.

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience
Mostly about who God was, especially in terms of qualities and behavior, if I may. The negative attributes of God portrayed in scripture were not consistent with everything I knew about the creator the moment I saw it. I immediately knew that most everything I knew was altered in some way and was wrong about God's identity.

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes
I started being grateful for everything I have and for everyone in my life. I also changed my perspective on many things. I stopped judging people for choosing their way of life.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
I believe that was a higher form of myself, to which I'm not sure if I can attribute the 'unearthly origin' description.

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Yes
It was an immediate knowing when I saw the creator. It felt so familiar, as if I had always known.

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? No

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

During your experience, did you gain information about love? Uncertain
As I received that beam from the universe that had so much love, I couldn't help but understand that the creator and the universe are love.

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes
I got closer to my family and spend more time with them than I used to.

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? No

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience as accurately as other life events that occurred around the time of the experience
I am blessed with the ability to remember everything I live, whether in real life, the dream realm, or during this experience.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes
I shared this experience with my therapist because it had such a great impact on me and changed me overnight.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real
While my nation's team was playing the remaining three games and the scores matched what I saw, I believed in what I had lived.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real
After watching many NDE videos and reading stories, I can relate to the feeling of love and warmth.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes