Matheus D NDE

Experience Description

I am a man and I am 20 years old now. Four years after the event, I decided to share this story, because I had never told anyone before. I was afraid and hesitant to talk about it because it caused me a certain shame, but today I have gathered the courage. At 16, I went through a severe episode of cerebral hypoxia after a suicide attempt. The event left small physical aftereffects from which I am still recovering, but it was also marked by a vivid and profound experience that I wrote down shortly after it happened.

At first, I had a clear sensation of being outside my body. I saw myself lying on the floor and realized I could touch my own physical body. I found myself in an environment that seemed like an absolute void, similar to a universe devoid of everything. Only the exact spot where I was had light. The ground looked like muddy red earth, and the air was filled with an extremely strong and unpleasant odor, a smell I had never experienced before in my life, the closest thing to it would be decomposition.

Suddenly, beings appeared with heads similar to pigs’ heads, but without cartilage. Their bodies were so thin that it was possible to see their entire bone structure. One of them, physically larger than the others, seemed to lead them. He looked at me and said, “You are not dead yet!”

Then some of these beings began to touch me. Their skin was extremely cold and seemed to melt at the touch, as if it were burning. They had a color that was difficult to define, with gray being the closest tone. They had large teeth and intense odors. One of them touched a finger to me as if trying to understand or sense what I was.

They said words that deeply affected me. One of the beings stated that he had been a bad person in life, mentioning that he had committed a serious crime, and said he deserved to be in that place. Then he pointed out that I was naive for being there without having done anything comparable. Another being declared that I was not dead at that moment, but that one day I would die and we would meet again.

Shortly after that, a figure approached dressed in white garments with gold details. It was not possible to make out its face. I immediately felt that it was someone I could trust. The being had many wings that covered its legs, head, and back, and that sometimes covered the front of its body when they flapped. Its presence caused an immediate reaction in the other beings, who began to melt and scream in pain.

Without saying a word, this figure removed me from that environment and took me to another place. It was a place as bright as daylight and with a pleasant aroma. From that point on, my memory of the event is interrupted, as if my mind had been reset.

When I regained consciousness in the physical world, I noticed serious signs of trauma. In front of the mirror, I saw that my head was purple, my lips were almost black, and I was bleeding. In the days following the event, I experienced a feeling of indescribable peace and absolute clarity, as if everything in the world made sense. Before the experience, I had been diagnosed with severe depression. After this experience, I was able to get out of that hole, and I felt alive. I do not know how to explain it, but I never thought about suicide again, and my life has never been so good. I think today was the day I could finally free myself by sharing this. I feel light. This is something really very significant to me. Even though I am not sure whether anyone will read this, I thank you in advance for the project and for the opportunity to share my story.

Background Information:

Gender: Male

Date of NDE: 00/00/2023

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes

How do you consider the content of your experience? Both pleasant AND distressing

Did you feel separated from your body? I clearly left my body and existed outside it

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? From the beginning I felt fully conscious of what was happening. It was as real as reality itself.
Much more real. The feeling is that I stayed in that place for an eternity.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness? More consciousness and alertness than normal

Were your thoughts speeded up? Faster than usual

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
As I said, I felt as if it were an eternity, totally without the sense of time as we know it.

Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience My vision during the experience was incredibly more vivid. I could perceive with extreme clarity structural details (such as the bones and teeth of the beings), the claylike texture of the ground, the specific colors, and the wings of the being who rescued me. It was a perception of presence and environment far more intense and hyperreal than the ordinary physical vision I had before it happened.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience Detailed and clear. I cannot explain anything beyond that.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

Did you see any beings in your experience? I sensed their presence

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased beings? Uncertain
They gave me to understand that they were dead, paying for their sins.

Did you see or feel surrounded by a brilliant light? No

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes

Did you seem to enter another world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm
Yes, almost like the religious hell or something of the sort.

What emotions did you feel during the experience? During the experience, bitterness, deep sadness, and regret.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Happiness

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly understand everything? Everything about the universe
This question made me tear up. Yes, I felt that I had discovered everything, everything about life; everything had answers. I asked mentally and was answered immediately. That was incredible.

Did scenes from your past come back? My past flashed before me, out of my control

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Uncertain
Honestly, I did not understand the question very well, but I could feel beyond what I am as a human being, almost like something divine.

Did you come to a border or point of no return? No

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Unaffiliated - Atheist

Have your religious practices changed? Yes

What is your religion now? Unaffiliated - Agnostic

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience
I was not religious, I do not come from a religious family, at the time I was an atheist, and today I identify as agnostic. I have never had even minimal contact with any religion.

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
I do not know the mystical origin of it, but it was almost like an angel.

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Uncertain

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Yes
I did not see God, but I could feel that something exists and that it cares about all of us.

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes
Yes, I am totally certain about some things. I have a dream of dedicating my life to helping other people, and that is the purpose I have chosen for my life. After this experience I learned that life is not individual.

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? Yes
Before hell and the change to a place of light, I felt that there is indeed a purpose in life, but I do not know what it is.

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? Yes

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

During your experience, did you gain information about love? No

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life
My life changed completely. The experience ended the severe depression I had and completely eliminated any desire to commit suicide. I gained a deep peace, love for being alive, greater compassion, and a constant feeling of lightness. I have a purpose, a goal in life.

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? No

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience
I can hardly remember anything from before the experience. This is because of a neurological trauma. It is incredible that I remember the experience in detail but do not remember the names of people I knew before the experience.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Everything. There is not a single part; everything was extremely meaningful.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? No

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real
Extremely real, but it did not frighten me. I did not have nightmares or fear, but it was an absolute certainty that it was real.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real
It is a different feeling. It is a reality incomparable to ours. There are no aspects that are the same, because they are totally different.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes

Anything else to add? For now, I think that is all. Sometimes I have scattered memories; sometimes I wake up and remember small details from it, nothing very significant, more small moments or details.