Lori P STE

Experience Description

I have no recollection of anything in particular that happened before this experience. As I have explained, my mother was in the hospital with a broken hip after being diagnosed with cancer and had been battling it for a few years. The only thing I can say is that I was under a great deal of stress because of this.

My memory is very vivid after all of these years I can explain to you what happened in detail. The very beginning sees me in a blue and white rather than in full color or black-and-white scene. I am in a bus full of people. It’s dark and I have been asleep and missed my stop. I get up and walk to the front of the bus to speak to the bus driver about missing my stop when I reach the front of the bus I’m holding onto the bars there by the driver seat and there are children in the front seat behind the driver, and the driver is very heavy and the buttons are pulling at his shirt. As I’m explaining to the driver that I missed my stop and could he let me off at the next one there was a sudden gasp from the children behind him and others on the bus. The bus driver slammed on the brakes and I I gripped the bars. When I looked up, I suddenly was outside of the bus in front of the windshield hovering, and everything was in full vivid color. We had reach the very tip of a deep crevice. The bus was teetering at that edge, I could see a small bridge that you would have to walk very carefully across because it was so thin from one side of this crevice to the other there was a waterfall to my left falling, sparkling radiantly with light in it across the crevice there was a botanical Haven of some sort, lush with vivid beautiful plant life, all having light behind them and lively with a breeze. The bridge that went across that I mentioned earlier was made of tortoise shells, browns tans, and that color and was also filled with light and it not only span across from one end to the other but was also a wall that went straight down to the bottom of the crevice. It was beautiful. I recall not having any conversation with anyone or seeing anyone in particular they seem to be life in the garden in front of me there seem to be live in the waterfall to my left, but words cannot describe the feeling of joy and being loved as if my own mother were cradling me I felt safe. I felt happy and I felt loved. I remember right after this happened. I would explain this to people, and it would so often occurred to me that I could not explain my feelings my emotions with the words that I had in my vocabulary.. I’ve often wondered why I had this experience that is so like and your death experience in many ways, the waterfall the emotional high, the beauty, the light being able to remember this experience as if it happened yesterday all of these things are similar to the experiences people that have had in your death experience events.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date of NDE: September 1991

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes
My mother was dying of cancer and had broken her hip which excelled her event.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant

Did you feel separated from your body? I lost awareness of my body

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Throughout what I have detailed.
I just can say that I felt very alive and alert and happy. Beyond mere words can explain.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness? More consciousness and alertness than normal

Were your thoughts speeded up? No

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
I have no concept of the time during this event.

Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience My vision seemed normal and the bright light in everything was comforting.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience I didn’t hear anything after I was off the bus that I remember.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

Did you see any beings in your experience? I sensed their presence

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased beings? No

Did you see or feel surrounded by a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes

Did you seem to enter another world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm
I was hovering, one foot crossed over the other. The entire scene was felt of another world.

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Pure joy and love.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly understand everything? No

Did scenes from your past come back? No

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes
The tortoise shell lighted bridge/wall was very long and only about 10@ wide as it felt too precarious to cross to the other side.

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Unaffiliated- Nothing in particular- Religious unaffiliated

Have your religious practices changed? No

What is your religion now? No comment
I was raised catholic went to catholic school for a time. Have not had any personal affiliation with organized religion for many years. Spiritual.

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience
I did not have an experience of something that I did not know before. I only experienced them in an unusual and incredibly beautiful and loving way.

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes
I believe kindness and love are very important to share.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
It seemed the garden beyond the crevice and waterfall to my left had a presence more than plants and water. There were no words passed. Only feelings.

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? Yes
More peace than I’ve ever known. More joy than I’ve ever experienced.

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Uncertain
Awareness of a connection, yes.

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Yes
Somehow the presence of the waterfall had a divining nature.

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? Yes
I remember telling my mother about this experience and felt relieved for her. I’ve always thought I’ve had little fear of death Since then.

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes
I experiences unconditional love.

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes
I am more compassionate. I am more forgiving.

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes
It is like there are no words to fully convey the level of joy and being loved I felt. The colors in the garden beyond the crevice, the bridge and the waterfall all had a light and radiance and familiarity. They seemed to know me well if that makes sense.

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience
I can remember every detail of that experience. I often meditate there and look around but can only vaguely recall the feelings that I had. I know them, that they were beyond extreme with joy and love but I cannot summon those emotions again as in the experience.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes
Most reactions are interested, curious.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real
I immediately wrote it down, fearing I would forget. But I’ve never looked at that again or even know where it is. It was very real to me like nothing else in my entire life.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes
Yes.