Lena S Probable NDE

Experience Description

I was diagnosed with stage four cancer when I was age of 26, in 2006. I had chemotherapy, radiation, and a radical hysterectomy. After my third round of chemo, I got very sick and started vomiting for the first time during my treatment. I went to the emergency room and was kept there for eight hours as they tried to bring my fever down while I continued to vomit. The nurse on staff kept me there because she knew this was not a normal symptom for me. She insisted the doctor order a blood culture. After eight hours they sent me home. The results of the blood culture should not have come back for 48 hours, but the next morning they called and told me I had an infection. I went back to the hospital. As I entered my room, I told my nurse that my heart had started to hurt. They laid me down on the bed and put a blood pressure cuff on me. I looked to my left and saw that my blood pressure was 40/20 before I blacked out.

The first image I had was of me being on a bus with no seats in the middle. The bus seemed to be going very fast with trees and other things flying past the window. I looked to my left and saw my grandfather sitting at the back. He had passed away five years earlier. He was wearing the clothes he typically wore, holding his cane, and looking out the window. Then everything went black again as I went unconscious.

The next vision I had was the same thing with a bus going fast and trees flying by. To my left, at the end of the bus, was my grandfather again. He was still holding his cane and looking out the window. But this time, he was wearing hospital clothes. The vision went black again.

When I woke up, there were a number of doctors and nurses standing around me in the intensive care unit (ICU). I remember waking up from that vision, thinking that it felt like the best nap I had ever taken. When I saw the nurses and doctors over me, I felt so much at peace. I said, "Hello, everyone." The sepsis was so severe that they had to put me on a ventilator, and they did not think I would make it through the night.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date of NDE: December 2006

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes
I went into septic shock and was put on a ventilator

How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant

Did you feel separated from your body? No

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Yes
I was kind of foggy with the chemo and drugs and not feeling well and when I woke up from that vision, it all felt clear

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness? More consciousness and alertness than normal

Were your thoughts speeded up? No

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Time seemed to go faster or slower than usual
It seemed like we were going really fast

Were your senses more vivid than usual? More vivid than usual

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience I was not feeling good prior to my vision, and when I woke up from having the vision, I felt very at peace and comfortable for a little bit.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience Same

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes
It felt like I was on a bus passing by trees, but headed somewhere

Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased beings? Yes
My grandfather

Did you see or feel surrounded by a brilliant light? No

Did you see an unearthly light? No

Did you seem to enter another world? Some unfamiliar and strange place
It felt like I was heading out of earth and going somewhere

What emotions did you feel during the experience? I felt very at peace and calm

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Happiness

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly understand everything? No

Did scenes from your past come back? No

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
I felt like my grandfather in hospital clothes was sending me back to earth and saying it was not my time

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Christian- Catholic

Have your religious practices changed? No

What is your religion now? Christian- Catholic

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes
I truly believed that there was a heaven and that our family and friends are waiting for us

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? No

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes
I felt like my grandfather was telling me that my time was not up and I needed to continue doing work down on earth

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? Yes
I felt like my grandfather being there showed me that he was the guide that was supposed to take me to another place

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

During your experience, did you gain information about love? No

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Moderate changes in my life

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes
I am more compassionate

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? No

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes
I had a former basketball player draw the image so that I would remember it and I described it to her and she made a drawing that I hang up in my house. Everyone whom I’ve shared it with gets goosebumps.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was probably real

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes