LeAnne RB NDE

Experience Description

I was in the ICU recovering from COVID, flu, and sepsis. As a type one diabetic, this was incredibly devastating for me health-wise. The nurse gave me a dose of fast-acting insulin that sent my blood sugar crashing. They reported I was down to a 26.

I became aware of looking through what looked like sheets or drapes. I was trying to fight through layers of the sheets or drapes to get to a very bright light. I could see my hands moving forward, trying to pull away every layer of cloth to get to the bright, warm light. In the light, I heard very kind voices. I could not make out who the voices were, but I knew they were familiar and very friendly. I was incredibly frustrated at not being able to get through the layer upon layer of cloth. I kept pulling the cloth left and right out of my way, but there were more and more layers. I wanted to be in the light and with the friendly voices. I was amazed at my strength, given how sick and weak I had been for several weeks.

Then I heard a voice to my right calling my name. "Miss Karol. Miss Karol." It was my Philippine American nurse calling my nick name. She was trying to get me back to consciousness by injecting glucose. I was abruptly pulled back from the cloth and the light. I opened my eyes and was wrapped in blankets to keep me warm, since I was sweating profusely due to the blood sugar crash. I was very confused but very aware that I had been somewhere different.

The most fascinating part of this experience is it feels as if it opened up some kind of portal to the other side. I regularly get messages from relatives who have passed and friends who have died. I feel closer to them. I will feel them move through me or feel them sitting next to me in times of trouble. I now have absolutely no fear of dying. I know what’s on the other side is comforting and reassuring, that I will be free of pain and able to be with my loved ones in a different way.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date of NDE: 2/16/2020

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes
I was in the ICU recovering from Covid, flu and sepsis. I had Covid before they even knew what it was.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Both pleasant AND distressing

Did you feel separated from your body? No
At the end of the experience, I guess is my blood sugar was coming up. I did hear my nurses intervening to try to save my life.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Through the entire experience, I felt very aware of trying to get through the blankets in a cloth. I kept moving my arms right to left right to left right to left swimming through the cloth peeling it off to get to the light. Very aware during the entire thing
I was strong and full of energy.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness? More consciousness and alertness than normal

Were your thoughts speeded up? No

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? No

Were your senses more vivid than usual? More vivid than usual

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience I have retinopathy due to diabetes, and my vision was crystal clear during this experience

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience The hearing part was very frustrating because I could hear voices, mumbling in the light and they were very low and reassuring so I know they weren’t the voices of the nurses who were very panicked. These were dreamy, low deep voices reassuring me. They did sound more like mumbles with no specific words, but I was drawn to them and wanted to get through the cloth to find them.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

Did you see any beings in your experience? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased beings? Uncertain
I could not make out the voices individually, but I felt close to them. I felt I knew them or could be safe with them. They were very pleasant.

Did you see or feel surrounded by a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes
Yes, the bright light in compass the entirety of the vision in front of me. But again there were layers and layers of blankets that I could see through. But the light was incredibly bright, incredibly warm, incredibly reassuring and inviting.

Did you seem to enter another world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm
The area beyond the blankets was very bright very warm and very safe. I was working so hard to get to it.

What emotions did you feel during the experience? I felt determination, frustration, and calm. Again frustration that I could not get to the end of blanket after blanket after blanket to get to that light. But I was determined to get there. I was calmed by the light ahead. And kind of ripped out of That endeavor into the reality of the hospital room.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Relief or calmness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Happiness

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly understand everything? Everything about the universe
I’m not sure I understood everything but I did know that what was in front of me was inviting and warm and safe. I have had a peace about me ever since. I’m not excited about the thought of suffering before death, but I do know that death is now a transition from our earthling bodies to some more divine place for our souls.

Did scenes from your past come back? No

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes
I was fighting through layers and layers of blankets. I could see the bright light through these very thin blankets. The blankets were blue. Very light blue. And I never seemed to make progress. As I wiped one away to the right another would appear. And to the left another would appear. The frustration was never making progress. Interesting that I never was panicked thinking I was being smothered. It was more a feeling of I need to get these blankets out of the way so I can get to the light.

Did you come to a border or point of no return? No

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Christian- Catholic
Born Baptist, converted to Catholicism for my children. Whatever the name deeply spiritual with a deep belief in God and Jesus Christ.

Have your religious practices changed? No

What is your religion now? Christian- Catholic
Deep belief in God and Jesus Christ and an afterlife.

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience
I was raised to believe in heaven and hell. And I do believe heaven is a bright place with welcoming souls. So if indeed I was dying and moving toward the afterlife, this is consistent with what I believe. But I don’t believe this was just a dream. It was brighter than anything I’ve ever experienced more memorable. I have dreams about it often. I can see it as clearly today as I saw it on that day. I remember every minute of this experience very very clearly.

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes
Yes, I am now more certain than ever that once we have our earthly lives, we go on to become souls in another dimension

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I heard a voice I could not identify
I heard low deep mumbling’s. Very calm. Deep voices that sounded like echoes. I have no idea what they were saying or who they were. But it was several voices and they were very different from the voices of my nurses in the room. I definitely felt drawn to them

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Yes
This place with the bright light and the mumbling voices was incredibly welcoming. A very positive place to be the fact I had no fear and only a desire to be there..

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Uncertain
The light and the voices felt very spiritual. Very heavenly if you will. I don’t know if that comes from constructs in my mind of what I believe having to be. Maybe subconscious? But I was very aware that this was a place I needed to get to

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? Yes
I knew my soul needed to get to the light. The light meant security and freedom and safety.

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? Uncertain
It was profound, how determined and strong I felt in moving the sheets from side to side given how weak and sick I had been for several weeks. I felt invincible. Which is why it must’ve been so frustrating that I could never get through the sheets because I felt, I had the strength and determination to do it

During your experience, did you gain information about love? No

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Moderate changes in my life

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes
I am a bit more forgiving and understanding of people‘s challenges because I realize the chains most people are carrying by being so connected to their earthly bodies. So connected to money so connected to things. It makes you more convinced their scarcity and you have to compete and fight to win. I am now less connected to money to things to ridiculous wasteful emotions. And pettiness. There is a higher calling for all of us. A better way for us to be.

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? No

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience
As I said above, this was the most profound experience I’ve had in my life. I think about it almost every day. The vision is with me all the time.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes
As I said, after this experience, I feel some portal opened up to the other side for me. I have felt the presence of a loved ones and friends who have passed. I have felt them move through me. I have literally felt them sitting next to me at times. I have even had friends talking about their loved ones who have passed and feel I hear messages from those loved ones to tell the friend. I don’t know if I’m crazy or if I’m actually hearing direction from these people to tell their loved one what they’re thinking

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The warmth and reassurance of the light. The kindness of the voices on the other side.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes
I have told family and friends here and there about the experience. They are all very supportive.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes
I have always been fascinated by near death experiences. But only has interesting information. Until I had my own and now I am very connected to you information about the experiences and mediums and spiritual energy.

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real
It is hard to explain why I know that this was not some subconscious reaction or construct in my brain that just played out. The connection to this light into those voices was very real. And I see that the blankets were my sign. It was not my time to go. But there are still layers between me and the other side.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real
As I continue to experience health challenges, I believe more than ever that I have guardian angels around me protecting me and keeping me as healthy as possible with these challenges

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes

Anything else to add? I have become a bit more obsessed about connecting with a medium, who is actually a real medium. I believe there are people who have that ability, and now that I know there is another side. I would love to connect through someone with a stronger ability than me.