Kristen N NDE

Experience Description

I am disabled with severe electrical heart issues including supraventricular and ventricular tachycardia and PVCs. I have had four EP studies with ablations in previous years. The most recent was in the summer of 2023 with my current cardiac specialist. None of them worked.

I was visited by my Higher Self one morning prior to my last heart surgery. She stated that I was to be aborted and to speak with my mother. I called my mom and stated what I was told. She said, "How in the world do you know that? Only your father and I know that." She had been at a non-Catholic hospital outside of town to have an abortion. My dad had called and said, "Keep the baby and come home."

Stunned after getting off the phone with my mother, I asked my Higher Self why she would tell me that. She stated she needed to give me proof of something I had no idea about, so I would believe and trust what she needed to tell me. Whenever I channel, I always ask for evidence and then a message, so my Higher Self and Divine Team always do this for me.

She then proceeded to tell me that I came to Earth with my Seraphim heart. My Higher Self is a Seraphim Angel named Azra. She said my heart beats at a higher frequency. Then she stated that when ablations happen, the spots on my heart move, and they are not supposed to move.

Fast forward to the summer of 2023 when I had my heart surgery. My doctor took longer with me and was excited that he got it. When he went to my family in the waiting room and told my husband, Ray stated, "Give it a week and we shall see." After about a week following surgeries, my heart issues come back and the episodes tend to change how they feel.

I went to my follow-up appointment a week or so after surgery, and I was in a horrible episode. The nurse did an EKG and left the nodes on just in case the doctor wanted to do another one. The doctor came in and stated, "It moved. It's not supposed to move," the exact words that Azra had told me.

My NDE:

It was the morning of November 3, 2023, which is also my husband Ray's birthday. He has his own business and would often work at the time. He decided to stay home that day, and he stayed in the bedroom while I left the bathroom door open while I was taking my shower. He would usually be in the den playing his game or in the office. Our daughter Emily was 21 at the time and still in college. She was also not supposed to be home but decided not to go to class that day.

I felt good that morning, the type of morning when I would exercise or go out to the store. I was in the shower, and I remember facing the water. I instantly felt off and leaned against the shower wall. In that moment, my soul came out of my crown and faced myself. I knew exactly what was happening. There was no pain and no fear. I watched myself slide down the wall and fall over and hit my head on the marble leading into the shower. We renovated the shower a year prior, so there was no longer a glass door. I remember seeing myself turn purple. I could see Emily's face, wide-eyed and focused. Then I could hear my name, saw something go over me, and then I was instantly on the Other Side.

When I fell, Ray said, "Whatever you did, you got the dogs' attention." Our two dogs were on the bed. When I didn't answer, Ray looked up to see me on the floor, and I was blue. I turned blue and purple, and there was some blood as I hit my head on the marble. Ray had to give me consistent chest compressions to keep me from turning colors. He yelled for Emily. She thought it was a joke and took her time getting into my room. Since Emily was home, she called 911 while Ray did the chest compressions. She got all our animals in another room and waited for the paramedics.

The paramedics got there within six minutes. My husband and daughter waited in the truck for a bit when the Chief came over and said, "We got her heart started. She has been intubated," and they were ready to take me to the hospital. That's when it hit my husband that my heart had stopped, for probably about ten to fifteen minutes. When I was out of body, I could see the paramedics intubating me, but it was blurry. I could hear them speaking to me and telling me what they were going to do and that they needed my help.

When I went out of body, I remember swirling and feeling so free and light. There was no heaviness of a body, but the biggest weight released was all lower thoughts: the anxiety, the worry of life, and so on. I was just so at peace and with so much joy and love. I was immediately with God or Source. There was no question as to who it was that I was with. God is this beautiful yellow huge orb that has a tinge of orange in the color, like a sunset. Source told me I did an amazing job. Everything was telepathic and instant. I could feel the love Source has for me, like nothing I have ever felt, beyond love for a family member and your own child. In life, I have always been childlike and silly but with this curiosity. God stated, "You're like me." Just like we have certain traits from our parents, this was from God. God is masculine and feminine, pure and utter unconditional love and joy. God is funny, whimsical, magical, and full of ultimate wisdom. We had a conversation, but I cannot remember it all. I do remember these bright rays of lights coming onto me. I started to look like the sun; they were everywhere. God said, "Look at each beam. These are prayers. You can go to a single ray and go to the person." I could hear people crying my name, Kristen, Kris, Krissy. Some were yelling, some angry. They were all prayers.

When Ray called my parents (they lived over an hour away at the time), my mother, who I have taught how to connect with guides and so on, asked her Spirit Team for a sign that I was going to be okay. I always called my mom my Tree, and I was her Apple. When my parents got to the hospital, the head nurse introduced herself. She told her that she was the head nurse and her name was Apple. My mom looked shocked. The nurse said, "Yes, it's short for Appleonia." So even though Mom was freaked out over what was happening, there was a sense that I was going to be okay at the same time. That was the sign from Spirit.

My physical body was unresponsive for all of Friday, November 3rd. I did not wake up until early the next morning.

My daughter has a thing for eyes. They are unique in color and design. While I was intubated, I opened my eyes and Emily got all excited. The nurse stated that it was just my body movements and I was not back. Emily said my eyes were flat, with no depth to them. They were not my eyes.

Back to my NDE. While I was with Source, I began my life review. My review was about everything good I did for others, the joy, the laughter. I could feel how my positivity affected others. I was surrounded by images and scenes throughout my life. One in particular was when I was a few years old. My mom was in a baby blue dress and I had handed her a buttercup. She was just over the moon with joy and love.

I know that I was shown these joyous moments because that is what my Soul needed, not that I was perfect in any way or never did anything wrong. I needed to see and feel how I made others feel in the happy moments. I remember it now, and all that I want to do is to help others, to have them feel so much love, joy, happiness, and laughter.

From there, I went to a beautiful area filled, and I mean filled, with all of my family and ancestors, guides. I do not have a memory of speaking to my family, but everyone I have ever channeled was there. All my pets and pets that I have channeled as well.

I remember in life when I would do mediumship and there was a dog that was hit by a car and a woman who died from a heart attack, they would always turn to me and say, "It doesn't hurt. God takes you out. Only the body feels, not the soul." I always thought it was interesting how they would tell me to let their loved ones know but always turned to me. Now I know why: they knew what was to come years later.

Right in the front was Trent, a young man and friend of a friend (who is also a medium) that I had channeled in detail several times prior. He did this smile, a smirk where one side of his lip was higher than the other, and we embraced. Then I was with Jesus. He put his hand on my heart and said, "I am, you are, we are." I was then given the choice: do I stay, or do I go back? I remember saying that I loved Kristen and all in her life and her story was not over yet.

In that moment, Source said that I needed to be infused with specific healing energy prior to returning. I practice a couple of healing energies (Reiki and Rahanni), and a few years prior to my NDE, I had a spontaneous gift of another healing modality that I didn't fully understand but was told that I would. Well, that was what was given to me: a full integration of my Spirit and my body being infused with this new healing modality. I was told after my NDE more about it and that it was called Rainbow Light Chord. I was entwined almost like a double or triple helix of rainbow energy around me. And I knew my physical body was receiving this as well.

Then I went to the Great White Hall. It had neat, huge white walls (I had been there before in vivid visions while alive years prior). There are books all on one side, large white tables around the room, and on the right, there was a huge, huge window with window panes. I could see three planets through the window, and I knew which planets they were. A few months after my NDE, I was told they were Mercury, Uranus, and Jupiter, which are in a trine in my chart that a friend told me about when I asked her.

I had my Higher Self sitting at my left at one of the tables and two Lighted Beings across from me. There was this map, a timeline of my life. I could move it forward and backward. The writing was a blue color. I was fully in charge of my life. I remember stating, "Kristen is coming back and we are going to make it amazing." But it was me; I was in charge of creating my experiences.

Then I was back, totally and fully back. Ray said I popped right up. I was strapped down, head in a brace and intubated.

I never saw my physical body. Only when I first left my body did I see.

I was in total joy. When my parents came in, my hair was in disarray due to product still in my hair. Mom said when I turned and looked at her, I had this curly cue sticking out from the side and this happy, joyful, carefree look on my face like when I was little.

One of my best friends was in the room with her husband. John asked what I saw. Suzanne was stunned because she said they had to keep asking me questions. I had a short memory of only thirty seconds once I woke up or so. Suzanne said every question I had to search for. She said you could see it in my face and my eyes would look up and search for answers, but I did know the answers: who I was, who they were, what year, and so on. But when John asked me what I saw, without hesitation I spoke of God.

The staff who were taking care of me at that time came to visit me the day after or so because they could not believe that I was in a room and okay. They didn't think I was going to make it. I was off to another hospital to have a defibrillator put in by my cardiac specialist.

A few weeks after being home, I had a friend message me asking to speak with me about what she saw. She is also awakened with gifts. I had not told anyone what I had seen. So much flowed back to me within that time and months later about what I experienced in Spirit. This friend proceeded to tell me that she saw me looking like the sun. That was when I was with God and prayers were coming to me. One of my mentors told me that she saw me dancing, swirling. That was when I was first out of my body.

Then I was told by Trent to tell his mom what I saw, that I saw him. I hesitated for some reason, but finally messaged her. She said, "Kristen, Trent came to me and told you both embraced." It was validated for me as well as for my friends who channel.

I have grown so much since my NDE, in gifts and in how I help others. I have had incredible experiences and visions since 2016, and this NDE was beyond anything.

We are not our physical bodies, and we are so incredibly loved and supported. All is mind; our thoughts create our realities.

Thank you for reading about my experience.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date of NDE: 11/3/2023

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes
Yes, I was in the shower and my heart stopped.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant

Did you feel separated from your body? I clearly left my body and existed outside it

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? When I was out of body, swirling with God, all through the NDE I was very, very aware. There was no doubt.
I felt more alive and more real than life itself as we know it.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness? More consciousness and alertness than normal

Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
I lost all sense of time. These are the events as I remember them occurring.

Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience Since I have had spiritual visions prior, it felt like that. Beautiful, vivid colors, but you feel everything. You feel the colors and environment you're in as well.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience It was telepathic. Honestly, it felt normal to me.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased beings? Yes
I could see my family, but I don't remember having a conversation with them. I remember conversing with a friend's deceased young son and having a conversation with Jesus.

Did you see or feel surrounded by a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes
I was instantly with God/Source.

Did you seem to enter another world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm
I was with God. I was at this beautiful greeting area when I saw everyone, but it wasn't about the atmosphere there; it was about being with everyone, and especially being at the Great White Hall.

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Absolute joy, lightness, clarity, peace.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly understand everything? Everything about myself or others
I had such clarity, but honestly more clarity about myself and the universe came AFTER my NDE through other visions, experiences, channeling, and events that were profound. I had a Dark Night of the Soul, full Kundalini Awakening, Divine Feminine Awakening, and Shaktipat, all in 2024.

Did scenes from your past come back? My past flashed before me, out of my control
I had a life review and it was a full 360-degree immersive experience.

Did scenes from the future come? Not specifically, but I knew I was coming back for "amazing." I had seen the three planets out the window in the great white hall. When I spoke to my astrologer friend, she explained they were a trine in my chart. A lot more astrology has come to me since my NDE, though I am not a certified astrologer. I hope that makes sense.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes
I was in spirit for sure. Because of my spiritual awakening, I was totally aware of what was happening, that I had died. I know that I was in the Aethers.

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a definite conscious decision to return to life
There was never a "you can't go beyond here" feeling. I know that I was with God, and then I was in what I call a greeting area. I never felt restricted; it just was what it was, if that makes sense.

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Christian - Catholic
I was never a practicing Catholic. I did have a spiritual awakening in the summer of 2016, so I had gifts that opened prior to my experience.

Have your religious practices changed? Yes
I do not practice a specific religion. All religions have some fragment of truth, some more than others. I spend more time in reflection and gratitude and more time auto-channeling. Although I was out there a lot for a while sharing my experience, I withdrew as I went through many profound changes. I practice a lot more self-care and boundaries.

What is your religion now? Other or several faiths
I am highly spiritual but do not follow one particular faith.

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience
God is a huge ball of light, masculine and feminine. Even though I wasn't perfect, God was proud of me and proud of everyone. We are so infinitely loved and supported. We choose our life and circumstances prior to coming here. Everyone plays a part, and it's an agreement we make with those other souls. This is not a one-size-fits-all experience. It is very individual but, once realized, part of the whole.

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes
How I see myself changed. I took a nose dive through a rabbit hole of my conscious and subconscious beliefs, seeing the world differently, events that force change, and how others react. Living "outside the program," I see that people get sucked into money, power, etc. Honestly, a lot that I can't even think of right now—many realizations throughout my days.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
I was with God, then my family, ancestors, guides including Jesus, animals that I had lost, plus everyone I have ever channeled, including pets.

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? Yes
I stood with Jesus in a sea of everyone connected with me. Jesus touched my heart and stated, "I AM YOU ARE WE ARE".

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? Yes
I lived many lives. I wasn't supposed to come into this life as a person; I was to be a Guide. I "slipped in," so to speak, knowing I had things to do that I could not accomplish from the other side.

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Yes
Universal connection, or oneness, exists.

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Yes
I went straight to God/Source first. There is no question as to whom I was with. I explained it in detail in my NDE account.

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes
We are here as fragments of The One, Source God, to have individual experiences. That is why some are just living a human life, some awaken, and the struggles are all lessons we chose. We have free will here; we choose to flow or go with ego, which is the veil.

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? Yes
We are here to experience. We are fragments of God/Source experiencing beyond what can be done in the Aether.

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? Yes
We are infinite beings, energy consciousness. We exist, and all exists outside linear time. Earth is for experience and duality.

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? Yes
Since 2016 I have connected with Star Beings as well as Angelic Beings and Deities like Shiva, Jesus, and Buddha. One Being, whom I call Lorelei, I saw years before my NDE. She appeared vividly in my mind's eye early one morning. She was speaking to me, but I could not hear her. She is the only Being that has ever moved their mouth to speak to me; all others have been telepathic. I knew I was deeply connected with her somehow and felt so comforted. She was blue with no hair, big eyes, a nose, and a mouth. She had distinct freckles over her cheeks and nose and was beautiful. She was moving her hands, and my head physically felt funny. I was a little nervous yet comforted. I have had dizzy spells and was afraid this would cause one. She kept moving her hands and then pushed them toward me so I could see her palms, and these grey specks flew into me. I knew she was activating the grey matter in my brain, that it was all about frequency and receiving higher levels of communication. The reason I say all of this is because after my NDE I asked why I did not see Lorelei in the greeting area or at all. The response was, "because I am alive."

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? Yes
When I was swirling out of body and feeling so light, I remember the emotional burdens that weigh humans down: the anxiety, shame, pain, fear, and worry that we hold on to every day. I was meant to remember this so I could tell others, to teach that we are not here to control life but to flow with it. Like a hurricane, we can be the eye of the storm, the peace within the chaos, and not be affected by what occurs around us. We have a choice in how we act and react. All is mind.

During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes
Love is what we are at our core: deep, unconditional love.

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life
I was scared of death. Death doesn't hurt; God takes you out so you don't feel that kind of pain. I am more compassionate towards others. My ego might be annoyed by others, but my soul or higher self knows they chose to live this way. I can see people's patterns, what they're meant to heal, things like that. I have no fear of living life, knowing to flow with it. Again, I have an ego, but I can see both sides where I couldn't before. Now I embody the higher perspective and can see through the pattern.

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes
I am closer to my loved ones, especially my husband. We are high school sweethearts and have always been super close, but this is amazing now. There has been a lot of healing, even in friendships.

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes
The emotions I felt, and still can feel, I do my best to put into human words.

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience as accurately as other life events that occurred around the time of the experience
This experience is just as real, if not more real, than my life. It is what happened and what I experienced. There is not a day that goes by that I do not think about it.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes
I see, hear, feel, know, taste at times, and smell. I awakened these gifts in 2016 during my spiritual awakening, but after my NDE it was about embodying all of it. Embodying the gifts truly allows them to become superpowers. We all have them. There is no one person above another. I channel Guides, Deities, God, Angelic Beings, and loved ones, both human and animal. I speak to trees and the elementals. I bilocate in my mind's eye (my guides do this; I cannot control it yet), and I can remote view, seeing this world from a bird's-eye view and situations.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Being with God, the love, carrying the weight we do with our emotions, seeing Trent, the words spoken to me from Jesus. Honestly, all of it is significant and profound for me. Also, while speaking with a best friend after my NDE, she reminded me that I told her on a date in 2023 that I heard a male and female voice. I was told something by a male that I don't remember, but the female said, "You're ready, it's time." I knew something was coming. I had even stated openly that I would die at an early age.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes
I think I started to share about a month after with my mentor on her YouTube. Then Spirit told me, "If you are asked to share your experience, say yes. Don't look them up; just say yes." That was profound because had I known the followings of the YouTubers I spoke with, I would have backed out from shyness at speaking to that many viewers. Now I view it differently. Sharing my experience to help others and bring peace is not about me.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes
Very little. It honestly freaked me out listening to others talk about dying. I knew about the life review and that people could see their human bodies. After my NDE, I remember reflecting and knowing that each soul learns differently. Mine needed to see the good and the joy so I could bring that back and remember it to live with that memory. I was honestly mad that I couldn't see myself, only when I first came out. But even then it was hazy, like when it's a hot day and the pavement shimmers. I could see Emily's face clearly but could not see Ray's face. I could not see me, so it was hard realizing I was intubated for a day. I asked if anyone had a picture of me, which just seems crazy.

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real
I was dumbfounded, but also not, because I've had really amazing spiritual experiences. I was in contemplation a lot. I typed things out. Speaking about my experience truly helped because a little more clarity was given, and a lot of realizations. Like the two lighted beings across from me. I found out during a hurricane after my NDE that these two beings are my soul guides. I had a discussion with someone and she stated that it sounded like those two beings could be my guides that have been with me since the birth of my soul. I was covered in chills and a knowing that that was truth. These guides revealed themselves to me as Zepplin and Talos.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real
No doubt. With everything I experienced and continue to experience with spirit and my gifts, no doubt. This was real, and others in my community telling me what they saw prior to me even saying anything was profound.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? Uncertain
I'm not quite sure how to answer this question. I think about the experience often. I am constantly connecting with my Divine Team; I'm always "on," so to speak. I ask questions about what occurred, and there is more clarity in understanding the reasons.

Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes
Beyond a doubt.

Anything else to add? I was truly in bliss for about four months after my NDE. Just childlike bliss. Then I felt more human with the emotions, and then I had the dark night of the soul for a few months prior to my full Kundalini awakening, full integration, and understanding of Rainbow Light chord healing, Shaktipat, and Divine Feminine Awakening.