Experience Description

I am now a brother in Christ. For a long time, my soul was trapped in grief and self-blame until God revealed a series of miracles that led me to where I am today. I want to share my experience and ask whether anyone has had similar visions or experiences.

First, I would like to explain our background. Z and I were born in the same year. My birthday is in March, and hers was in July. Before this tragedy, neither of us was Christian. We had never read the Bible and knew nothing about Christian teachings concerning heaven or the spiritual world. We were simply living ordinary lives.

Our relationship began very suddenly. After knowing each other for only six days, we decided to become a couple. We had only one year together on earth.

On September 6, Z, the true love of my life, chose to end her life following a severe mental health crisis and painful misunderstandings between us. Z had a tragic childhood. Her biological parents abandoned her when she was very young, and she grew up in a girls' home.

Before her death, while in an extremely confused state, she left her savings and ring to her former husband, S, who had been with her for 15 years. On the night of her death, S dreamed that Z stood behind him and spoke to him.

I was devastated and overwhelmed by unbearable guilt. On the morning of September 7, I returned from the mortuary after identifying and claiming her body. I was preparing to end my own life so I could follow her.

But God intervened.

At that critical moment, my mother brought Sister L, an evangelist, to my home. Shortly afterward, her husband, Pastor K, also came to visit me.

As Pastor K prayed for me and began guiding me spiritually, I experienced an extraordinary vision consisting of five consecutive scenes.

**First Scene: The Gray Door**

Under the pastor's guidance, I saw a gray door. I was afraid, but the pastor encouraged me to try opening it. I slowly pushed the door open.

**Second Scene: A Paradise of Stick Figures**

When the door opened, a world appeared before me that looked exactly like a child's drawing.

It was a cartoon-like paradise with a beautiful garden. The dominant colors were blue, white, yellow, and green. I also saw angels that looked like stick figures.

**Third Scene: The Room and Piano**

The pastor continued guiding me and asked me to look to the side. I saw a room containing something I could not immediately identify. At first, I thought it looked like a cabinet. Then I clearly recognized it as a piano.

This deeply shook me.

The pastor knew nothing about Z's secret wish to buy a piano for the living room of the new home we had been preparing to move into. It was something she had desperately wanted before her death.

**Fourth Scene: Z's Gaze**

The pastor asked me to look again and describe what I saw.

This time, I saw my beloved Z.

She was looking at me from behind the piano. Then she moved from right to left behind it. As she moved, her eyes remained fixed on me.

**Fifth Scene: Jesus and Z**

Finally, the pastor asked whether I could see Jesus.

At first, I could not see anything. After concentrating again, an image of Jesus appeared in my mind. He looked like Jesus in traditional Christian paintings rather than a living person.

Then I saw Z standing on Jesus's left.

Throughout these five scenes, no matter how hard I tried, I could not place myself into the vision. I perceived Jesus and Z telling me that my time on earth was not yet over.

The following morning, September 8, I experienced another vision while fully awake.

I saw Z standing on a flower-lined path in the early morning. She was facing me and holding a black watering can. She appeared completely peaceful.

On September 24, at her funeral, I formally declared in the name of Jesus that Z was my wife. I acknowledged her eternal place as my wife and placed a wedding ring on her.

Her former husband, S, did not attend the funeral.

Something remarkable happened that same day. At noon, the police located Z's biological parents, with whom she had lost contact many years earlier.

Her mother later embraced me as though I were her own son. She encouraged me to remain strong because we would meet again in the kingdom of heaven.

Later, S had a second dream about Z. He dreamed that she was traveling through Europe, accompanied by two strangers. She was smiling as she walked toward the next part of her journey.

The dream gave S a sense that the grievances between them had been resolved. He was finally able to let go and find peace.

All these experiences, visions, and events profoundly affected me. I believe God has shown me something extraordinary, but I am still searching for answers.

What exactly were the visions I experienced? Were they real? Were they a promise from God?

Has anyone else experienced anything similar?

Is Z waiting for me in heaven? Are we soulmates? Can those in the spiritual world sense our existence? Will Z see me when I eventually reach heaven?

As the husband who remains on earth, how can I find the strength to continue living my life?

I am now learning to live courageously in our new home while keeping Z in my heart as my eternal wife.

I hope that one day, when my time on earth is naturally complete, we will truly be reunited in our heavenly home.

Background Information:

Gender: Male

Date of NDE: 09/07/2026

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes

How do you consider the content of your experience? Both pleasant AND distressing

Did you feel separated from your body? No

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? After I saw the vision

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness? Normal consciousness and alertness

Were your thoughts speeded up? No

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? No

Were your senses more vivid than usual? More vivid than usual

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience Only my senses were heightened, and there was spiritual warfare.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience Only my senses were heightened, and there was spiritual warfare.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Uncertain
I only saw a gray door.

Did you see any beings in your experience? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased beings? Yes
My wife.

Did you see or feel surrounded by a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes
A golden light when the door opened.

Did you seem to enter another world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm
It was like other people's near-death experiences, but mine was a vision.

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Hope and emptiness.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Relief or calmness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly understand everything? Everything about myself or others
I felt as if I had seen one side of heaven.

Did scenes from your past come back? No

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? No

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Do not know

Have your religious practices changed? Yes
I now attend worship every Sunday.

What is your religion now? Christian - Protestant

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience
Because at that time I did not yet believe in Jesus.

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes
I only want to be closer to God, so that I can reunite with my loved one in heaven once again.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Uncertain
Jesus only appeared at the end.

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes
I want to know whether my vision means that my wife and I are each other's ultimate soulmates.

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? Yes
I saw my vision, just like others do during their experiences.

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes
I saw my wife always facing me, and in the piano scene, she would move.

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life
Money and material things have become less important than before. Instead, I want to be closer to Christ, and I am learning to be more patient, humble, and compassionate, to put myself in others' shoes, and to be mindful of the people around me.

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Uncertain
Because we are now separated between heaven and earth.

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes
Because of the piano, even I had forgotten this agreement, but it suddenly appeared in the vision.

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience
After a month, I still had a clear image in my mind.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes
My spiritual senses seem to have been enhanced.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Seeing my wife in the vision was especially meaningful, because I was very afraid and did not know where I would go. At that time I did not know heaven existed; now I know, and the memory is still there, but I am very afraid that I am not her soulmate.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes
They believed in the Lord together with me.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real
Because that image was like a slideshow playing in my mind; it was not something I could have imagined on my own.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real
Because that image was like a slideshow playing in my mind; it was not something I could have imagined on my own.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes