Kathy S SOBEs

Experience Description

I will share a few experiences. So, this is a little long.

At the time of the first, I was working as an assistant manager for a restaurant chain. My husband was the manager. We were good at helping to turn around stores that were in trouble or had issues. We had been transferred to Rehobeth beach. When I first moved there, I worked a few months without a day off, sometime 2 shifts in a day. I was extremely depressed and exhausted. I was really sick of working for this chain. I felt incredibly guilty because I had a small child, a son, who I had given birth to when I was 15. I felt like I never saw him. I begged my husband to let me quit. He just said that we couldn't afford it.

Eventually, the depression got to the point that I wanted to leave earth. Before I went to sleep everyday, I would beg Jesus, 'Please take me. I hate it here.' Finally, I decided that Jesus wasn't doing anything, and I was going to kill myself. I didn't want anyone to catch me doing it because they might stop me. (I wasn't thinking abot my son.I'm not sure why). I decided that I would check into a hotel and pay for three days in advance. I would tell them that I did not want to be disturbed and slit my wrists.

The night before I had this planned to happen, I went into my bathroom to get ready for bed. I was about to put the toothpaste on my tooth brush. I felt really nauseated for a split second then I was in another place, and I was with Jesus. I knew the being that I was with, and that they were with me all the time while I was on earth and still are. I did not see him, or I am not allowed to remember, I have never been sure which. I did not doubt that it was Jesus. I feel like the being was to my right.

As far as the atmosphere, I can only remember darkness. I do not know if I am not allowed to remember the place or if it was really just darkness there. I do know for a fact that it was somehwere that I had been before this event, and before I was even born here on earth. This I do know with certainty. I was in a body because I was shaking. Afterwards, when thinking about the experience, I always would wonder why because I was not afraid in the least bit. Not at all. Now I think maybe it may have been vibration like people may experience when they OBE.

I was saying over and over, 'I hate it there. Please don't make me go back.' I will try to describe the communication from the being. It is extrememly difficult. Think about when you want to get a point across to someone, but you can't You can't because maybe you have developed the point over many years and all of your life's experience. So, it is really impossible to make them understand. Now imagine that you could. If that person could sort of feel the whole concept all at once. Not just the concept, but everything as if they came to the conclusion themselves by exactly the same means and every facet of the getting to it.

Now think about if someone were telling you about something that happened to them yesterday. Now imagine that you could just jump into the memory and experience it as if it were you from that person's vantage point. These examples might help you kind of get the way the communication is, but not quite completely. You just know. This being did not speak any words to me, or I may not be allowed to remember any. I was saying words as thoughts, projecting my thoughts and everything behind my thoughts was there like a sharing. The being was infinitely patient and at peace.

I could have stood there forever, and he would have waited for me to just get it all out. Then, I was in my son's bedroom. As soon as I saw my son asleep on the bed, I said, 'Oh yeah, Michael. I have to go back.' As soon as I made that choice, I was back in my earthly body. My husband was patting me on the face. He asked me if I wanted to go to the hospital. I said, 'No I'm fine.' The depression and desire to commit suicide just evaporated. I did not tell my husband about what happened until many years later. He said that he didn't know if he believed me because nothing like that had ever happened to him.

The other two experiences were recent. I wish that I could communicate with you like with the being because many years of happenings were in between. This was about 1 year ago. I was in the bathroom by the shower. The thought of the weight of injustice here on earth brought me to my knees with sadness and dispair. After I came out of the bathroom, I went and sat on the couch. I had this knowing that this was some kind of event marker in my life and it was time for some type of awakening. I also had the knowledge that I had learned and completed something that I came to earth to learn.

Later on, not the same day or week, I ran across an interview of someone on youtube. I am not advertizing, so I will not mention the person's name. They had said that they had been out of body many times since being young. I learned from the person how the person did it. They controlled it. I told my husband that I was going to try it. I was nervous about one thing. This person went through sleep paralysis during the process. I didn't want to have that happen because you feel like you can't breath. I was willing to do it anyway. My husband was busy playing video games in his office one night. I figured that was a great opportunity. I tried the method. One moment I was laying on my bed, and the next, I was opening my eyes on my favorite spot on the couch in the other room. I felt just like normal, body and all. At first I was disoriented. I thought, 'How did I get here? Did I fall asleep on the couch?' I forgot for a few seconds what I had been doing. Then I remembered that I was just in the bedroom trying the out of body. I said to myself, 'Holy s*#@. This is really happening right now.' Then I wondered if I was really dreaming. Although, it was nothing like a dream. I was just like being awake in the middle of the day. Exactly the same. I remember it just like something that happened when I am wide awake. However, at the time I was second guessing.

I rememebered someone said that if you command full consciousness in a dream that you can get completely out of body. So, I said, 'I command to be fully conscious in this place.' Immediatly, I was back in the bed, awake in my body. Something that I noticed was that just like my first experience, there was no travel time. I was one place then the other seamlessly. Not even a fraction of a second in between. When I was back in my bed, my husband was entering the room. So, I don't know if he woke up the body or if it was my command that made me go back. I started kicking my arms and legs because I was so bummed to be back in there.

The next night, I decided to try it again. I was waiting a little while in the bed. I got lazy or frustrated, whatever you want to call it. I gave up and flipped over onto my Left side. (I usually sleep on my side). Then I was opening my eyes on the couch again on the same side that I had flipped over onto in the bedroom. This time I knew that I was out of body right away. It was very short. I started to get up off of the couch. I was back in the bedroom again before I could stand up completely. My husband was coming in the bedroom again. I started flayling my arms and legs again.

After that I have not been able to get out of body like that again. I have tried. However, I know that death does not exist. I can see how someone could die and not realize that they were dead because it was exacly like waking moments. I felt exactly the same.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date of NDE: 1988

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes
If the event had not happened, I would have commited suicide the next morning.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Neither pleasant NOR distressing

Did you feel separated from your body? I clearly left my body and existed outside it

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? I was fully concious and alert throughout my experiences. Unless you mean was my body conscious.
Unless you would say the telepathy or communication with the being was more.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness? Normal consciousness and alertness

Were your thoughts speeded up? No

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
This is too hard to decribe. During my first experience, I could have spent eternity before going back to my body. It didn't matter how long I took. During the other two experiences, time was normal like on earth.

Were your senses more vivid than usual? More vivid than usual

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience I could not see anything in the first one, or I am not allowed to remember what I saw. At least not until I was taken to my son's room. I am not sure which. The second and third experiences, It was a little darker in the room than normal. This was consistant with how it would be because the light was off in that room.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience I do not remember any sounds except my own thoughts.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

Did you see any beings in your experience? I sensed their presence

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased beings? No

Did you see or feel surrounded by a brilliant light? No

Did you see an unearthly light? Uncertain
I seem to remember some light in my son's room off to the right where I think the being was standing. I don't know if it was the being or light in the room.

Did you seem to enter another world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm
I was not allowed to see it.

What emotions did you feel during the experience? A little excitement at the first out of body on the couch. Other than that, no emotion. I did not even have emotion when I was saying to the being that I did not want to come back to earth.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? No

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? No

Did you suddenly understand everything? No

Did scenes from your past come back? No
I became aware that I existed before this life, and that I had been in the place I was before.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Uncertain
I think that I was at a crossing point. I am not allowed to remember it yet. My choice was to cross it or return.

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a definite conscious decision to return to life
I knew that I had an obligation to my son, and chose to return.

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Christian- Protestant
At the time, I thought that everyone believed in Jesus. They just didn't talk about it. I felt that someone was always there, and I thought it was Jesus. I was not very religous. I did not go to church at the time.

Have your religious practices changed? Yes
More objective.

What is your religion now? Do not know

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience
At the time, I was Christian and had never considered that we lived before we came here. However, Jesus was consistent.

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes
I considered that there may be reincarnation. Before I believed that this was the only life consistent with christianity.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
I encountered a being that I know and am aquainted with. The being has always been with me here. I knew him as Jesus, and I am certain that it was a male being. I find it hard to describe the relationship in words completely.

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? Yes
A being that I know well, and thought that he was Jesus. He did not tell me that he was. I just knew it.

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? Yes
I was in a familiar place that was not here.

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Yes
The communication mode was this. Full openness as if we, myself and the being, were one, completely connected. So much so, that I do not know if the being is a version of myself.

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Uncertain
I am unsure if I encountered Jesus because of my beliefs at the time. In other words. If the being was a guide or some other, I cannot be 100% sure because I am still living a human life here on earth. I certainly know the being, though. The being held no judgement towards me.

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? Yes
I was in a different body. I knew that I existed before this life.

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

During your experience, did you gain information about love? No

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Moderate changes in my life
I am more objective about spirituality.

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes
It's very hard to describe the communication.

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience
I don't ever forget it. It doesn't fade.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes
I had some expeiences

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? It is all meaningful and significant.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes
several years. Positive reactions except my x-husband, who was just unsure.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real
The first experience saved my earthly life because if it didn't happen, I would have commited suicide the next morning. The other two were as real as me sitting here right now typing this.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes
Other than the things that cannot be described like the communication with the being.