Jurnee M ADC

Experience Description

That night, after feeling intense panic and texting him urgently, I fell asleep. During sleep, I experienced being in a completely white space. There were no walls, floor, or ceiling, yet it felt like an architectural room without boundaries. The white extended infinitely in every direction. It was calm, silent, and expansive. The lighting resembled bright fluorescent light.

My ex and I were standing face-to-face in this white space. He appeared confused and disoriented. He asked, 'What’s going on? Where are we?' I felt calm. I did not feel any emotion in that space. Calm is the closest word I can think of to describe the unemotional lack of feeling. I clearly remember telling him that he had died. He did not seem aware that he was dead. The interaction felt direct and purposeful, as if my purpose was to help him cross over or understand what had happened.

There was no visible departure. We were simply standing there facing each other in the white void. The memory of this environment and conversation remains extremely vivid, even years later. It has not faded. I cannot explain how I knew to text him and warn him about the car accident right before it occurred, but in the days leading up to it, I had an unsettling feeling I could not pinpoint.

The experience was both awakening and distressing. The white space itself felt calm and infinite. However, after waking and learning of his death, I began to carry a sense of guilt. At times I wonder if, in that moment in the white space, I could have told him to come back instead of telling him he had died. I sometimes question if helping him understand he was dead somehow allowed him to fully cross over. Intellectually, I recognize I may not have had control over what was happening, but emotionally there remains a lingering feeling of guilt.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date of NDE: 10/28/2017

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes
My former partner (daughter’s father) was involved in a fatal car accident during the night of my experience in 2017. I was not physically present at the accident, but the life-threatening event was occurring at the same time I was asleep and having the experience. I had an intense sense of panic right before falling asleep and texted him 'car accident!!' at 1:41 AM. The reported accident call came in at 2:12 AM, and he was officially pronounced dead a little after 3 AM. I woke up between 4–5 AM to the phone call informing me of his death. The timing of my experience aligned with the window between the accident and his official time of death.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Both pleasant AND distressing

Did you feel separated from your body? No

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? My highest level of consciousness and alertness occurred while I was in the white room facing my former partner. Although I was physically asleep, my awareness felt sharper and more stable than in ordinary waking life. I was fully aware of what I was saying and why I was saying it. I knew what that white void was.
I was not clouded with emotions. I knew my purpose in that space. I was not confused.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness? More consciousness and alertness than normal

Were your thoughts speeded up? Faster than usual

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Time seemed to go faster or slower than usual
It was a quick interaction; I didn’t see him depart. I felt like I was only sleeping for five minutes, although it was longer. I abruptly woke up to the phone call informing me of his death.

Were your senses more vivid than usual? More vivid than usual

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience My vision during the experience was clearer and more stable than ordinary waking vision. The white space was extremely vivid and uniform, with no shadows, no visible light source, and no visual distortion. It did not feel dim or dreamlike. The environment appeared continuous and infinite, yet it felt structured, like a space without boundaries. I can still visualize and remember his exact facial expression of confusion. But oddly, I don’t recall what clothing or color we were wearing.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience There were no external sounds in the white space. It was completely silent. However, communication between us felt direct and clear. There was no echo, background noise, or environmental sound.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased beings? Yes
My ex-partner

Did you see or feel surrounded by a brilliant light? An unusually bright light

Did you see an unearthly light? Uncertain
The whole white void appeared as bright fluorescent lighting, but there were no visible light sources.

Did you seem to enter another world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm
Vast white room or void with no end or items.

What emotions did you feel during the experience? No emotions

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Relief or calmness

Did you have a feeling of joy? No

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? No

Did you suddenly understand everything? Everything about myself or others
I knew what the white void was and why I was there. I was fully aware of my ex’s death.

Did scenes from your past come back? No

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? No

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Other or several faiths
A mix of beliefs. I’ve always interpreted the Bible differently from what Christianity teaches.

Have your religious practices changed? Uncertain
I believe God could possibly be our own conscience or energy itself.

What is your religion now? Other or several faiths
Same as prior

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience
I believe in 'life after death', but I never knew what that would look like. I never thought it would be a white void. I always imagined it would be seeing a blinding bright light, the kind that people often talk about.

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes
We aren’t bound by our physical boundaries, and something exists after death.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? No

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Uncertain
I knew my purpose was to bring clarity to him and be there for comfort (although there was no physical touch or a traditional goodbye).

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? Uncertain

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? Yes
Our consciousness is not bound to our physical bodies.

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

During your experience, did you gain information about love? Uncertain
I didn’t feel any emotion, but I loved my ex-partner.

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Moderate changes in my life

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes
Trying to describe the space is a little difficult because it appeared as a white room, but it wasn’t a room.

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience
I was in shock over his death for a while, grieving. Those days feel foggy. But that moment in the white space carries more emotional depth and clarity than the day I saw him in his casket.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes
I’ve always been intuitive, but after the experience, it has heightened. I’ve been able to cross into another person’s dreams more frequently. I also had a specific visitation dream with my ex. He was playing with our daughter; we were in a lake. He was asking about certain things she likes, as if his spirit was not present. She was a year old when he died. The visitation dream occurred when she was about 3.5 to 4 years old. It was different from other dreams I’ve had of him since he passed away.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? It unsettles me that I was 'ok' with his death while in that white void.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes
I've only shared it briefly with my current partner, my ex's mother, and a close friend. It was a while after it happened, as I felt extremely guilty and didn't want to appear 'crazy'.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes
I've heard of people seeing a bright light they went into. My ex-partner ironically had an NDE himself years before his death and years before he met me. He told me he saw the surgeon working on his head while he was put under. He said he was floating above his body, watching the surgery. He had a large piece of glass that struck him in the center of his upper forehead. They had to put cement in his head. The glass was millimeters away from causing immediate death.\n\nI don't think it affected my experience. What I experienced is not what I would have assumed it would have been. I don't think I could have formed the thought of the white void without experiencing it. It was a space I never could have grasped understanding of before the experience.

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real
The timeline of events (from the text message I sent before the accident, my falling asleep, the time of the car accident, and the time of his death) verifies that my experience was real. I knew he died before I knew he died. I also learned that someone can be unaware of their own death immediately.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real
It helped me to 'awaken' more.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? Uncertain
Never have I experienced the vast white void again, but I have crossed into others' dreams while they are sleeping directly next to me.

Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes

Anything else to add? Not directly related to that experience, but I have had a close encounter with a color changing (plasma?) orb that put me into a liminal state. It was my first time being in that state. This happened years after the experience, in November 2024. It is still an open case on the national UAP reporting agency website.