Julia B NDE

Experience Description

Once I was grabbed by my neck and thrown down, there was a "snap," and suddenly I was somewhere else. I think this was the moment I left my body because I did not feel anything or have any memory of what had just happened. I remember thinking, "Where am I? What happened?"

It felt like maybe 30 seconds passed, and then I began to see a white light in the distance. I very slowly began to float toward it, and I could see a tunnel starting to take shape. The white light seemed to be about half a mile away, and I was moving toward it very slowly.

Then I saw what looked like a hologram appear on the "wall" of the tunnel. There was not really a wall, but that is what it felt like to me. It looked like a movie being played on a projector screen, shaped like a rectangle and glowing with a bluish-white light.

I saw a scene from my childhood. It was me at about two years old, standing on my little step stool beside my grandmother, who raised me, and watching her wash the dishes. I would often do this as a child and sometimes play with the suds. I remember thinking, "Oh, there's me with my grandmother!"

Then, all of a sudden, I heard a voice urgently say, "He's killing you! Don't let him kill you! You're not supposed to die yet!"

At that moment, I remembered what had happened. I could feel my body again, and it felt like pins and needles from my head to my toes. I tried to move, but I couldn't. I tried to scream or breathe, but I couldn't.

The voice said, "Don't let him kill you! It's not your time yet!"

I fought with every bit of strength I had to move. It felt like I was trying to push a giant boulder or a car off of myself. It was like pushing against this massive weight that was holding me down.

Eventually, I felt myself shoot back into my body like a rocket. I don't know how else to explain it. Suddenly, I was back in my body, and the person who had been choking me got up off of me. I was coughing and shaking, and I began to sob uncontrollably. Thankfully, he left me there alone. I curled into a fetal position, held myself, and cried for a long time.

Because of this experience, I know for a fact that our soul can exist independently of our body. I was still ME during the time I was "floating" in that space, and I SAW the white light. I know it was real. It felt good, and I wanted to go there.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date of NDE: 07/00/1997

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes
I was physically attacked by my boyfriend. He came behind me, put his arm around my neck, and threw his entire body on top of me. Immediately after this, I was in another place with no recollection of what had happened and I felt nothing. It was as if I were floating in space but there were no stars. It wasn't scary; it felt like a peaceful "waiting room."

How do you consider the content of your experience? Both pleasant AND distressing

Did you feel separated from your body? I clearly left my body and existed outside it

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? I felt alert and conscious the whole time, strangely enough, because I couldn't have been "conscious" in my body while experiencing floating in space and seeing the white light. But my mind or soul, or whatever part of me was floating there, never felt unclear; I felt quite sharp and alert.
I could think very clearly and quickly, as if nothing inhibited me.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness? More consciousness and alertness than normal

Were your thoughts speeded up? No

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
I wasn't thinking about the passage of time.

Were your senses more vivid than usual? More vivid than usual

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience It felt similar.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience Similar.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes
I started my way into the tunnel but didn't make it far before the voice told me I wasn't supposed to die.

Did you see any beings in your experience? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased beings? No

Did you see or feel surrounded by a brilliant light? An unusually bright light

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes
A bright white light that I slowly got closer to, as if it was pulling me to it.

Did you seem to enter another world? Some unfamiliar and strange place
Floating in what felt like outer space with no stars.

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Calm and peace, and then a bit of concern and panic at the end when the voice told me not to let myself be killed before my time, then I felt determination.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Relief or calmness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Happiness

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? No

Did you suddenly understand everything? No

Did scenes from your past come back? My past flashed before me, out of my control
When I saw the scene play out.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Uncertain
Not sure.

Did you come to a border or point of no return? No

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Christian - Other Christian

Have your religious practices changed? No

What is your religion now? Christian - Other Christian
I believe in Jesus because I have had experiences that let me know He is real. Yet I don't believe in "preachers" who rob people of their money while claiming to follow Jesus. I prefer independent prayer and a personal relationship with God rather than churches that are more like cults or businesses. I spend a lot of time studying con artists who call themselves "pastors," and I want to teach others what to look for so they won't be taken advantage of.

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience
I have always been open to the idea that other realms exist. I have always believed in God and a spiritual realm.

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I heard a voice I could not identify
The voice told me he was killing me and not to let him kill me; it had urgency to it. I knew it came from a being with authority and it cared for me.

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Yes
Hearing the voice let me know there was a higher being aware of me and looking to assist me.

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? Yes
I know I wasn't in my body because I would have felt a man with his full body weight on top of me choking me, and I didn't feel or remember that until the voice reminded me. Plus at the end, I felt myself being shot up into my body.

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes
The scene I saw reminded me of the love I had as a child for my grandmother and her love for me.

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Slight changes in my life
I seem to have a "knowingness" and have vivid dreams of things that end up coming to pass. I am incredibly intuitive.

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? No

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience
I will never forget this experience.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Uncertain
I have always had those abilities, I think.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? I wish I had gotten to reach the white light.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes
Only shared with a few people, and unfortunately they usually look at me like I'm crazy; I get the sense they don't believe me. A few times it's resulted in great conversations if the person is very spiritual or had experienced things of this nature themselves.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real
I had no doubt it happened. My mind was clear and sharp.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real
I still know it really happened.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes

Anything else to add? No.