Josh W NDE

Experience Description

I do not remember the event causing me to go to the hospital. I guess that I had a bad seizure and my friends called an ambulance.

I remember coming to consciousness in a dark, but bright, space with a 360-degree spherical view. I no longer had a physical body, which freaked me out.

I could hear someone saying, "It's not your time yet. Come here." I went toward the voice and there were multiple bright lights of different colors. I started asking where I was and what was going on. But, I had no outward voice. As soon as I said in my mind, a voice said back to me, "You are safe but this is not your time. You have work to finish." I then realized we were speaking telepathically. I had an overwhelming feeling of bliss, love, and understanding. I had no more pain, stress, depression, anxiety, and so on.

I kept asking, "Where am I?" but all they would say was, "You are safe." They then told me I had not finished my job on earth and I was to return. I told them, "I did not want to return and wanted to stay home." They told me, "You are supposed to become a healer of youth, preach the word of the creator, and lead people to a higher vibration." I told them, "This makes no sense; I am a drug-dealing addict with no education. How am I supposed to help anyone?"

They told me I chose this life and I was to learn from my experiences in order to teach others how to overcome their trauma. Until I learned from my experiences, I would continue reliving the same life. I told them yet again, "I did not want to leave this place," and they just repeated the same thing too. I asked them, "Well, how am I supposed to do this?" and they didn't answer the question. They then told me I had been anything in many lives and this was my final form. They said once I finished this chapter in my lineage, I would be given a choice of coming back to earth in a physical form. I could come back as a spirit guide, or being able to come back to the, "Light to live for eternity." I once again tried to tell them I did not want to go.

All of a sudden, I woke up in the hospital with all kinds of tubes in me and a mask on. Everyone said as soon as my eyes opened they had never seen me look so mad. I started trying to rip everything off of me. When they got the mask off me, I started saying, "Why the heck did you bring me back here?" No one understood what I was trying to say, and no one believed the story I told. They told me they had no answer for why I ended up in the hospital. But they told me that I would never walk, talk, or think properly again and have permanent brain damage.

Six months later I was walking and talking just fine but still had brain damage. I moved across the country to get away from the cops, drugs, and crime I was a part of. I smoked weed for a couple more years to medicate my PTSD and ADHD but quit that as well and got on ADHD meds.

For the next 12 years I suffered from suicidal tendencies that the doctors chalked up to brain damage and PTSD. I stopped telling them about my NDE as it felt like they were leaning toward putting me in the hospital. I did not want to kill myself over those things; I wanted to go back "home." Incidentally, at the end of these 12 years, I got my yearly MRI. The doctor started telling me how beautiful my brain was and how I should feel proud. I told him what had happened to me, and he did not believe me. He left the room and came back 45 minutes later saying it was a miracle and had no answers for why it happened or how it healed itself.

From ages 18 to 30, I wanted answers to what happened to me and why I am living this life. I studied every major religion and a few forms of spirituality. I learned a lot about the human aspect of God. But nothing explained what really happened, the truth of why we are here, and my overall experiences and feelings.

Then, at 30 years old, I was at the end of a very bad relationship and a business gone bad. I was having a huge three-day fight with my girlfriend. I was once again having thoughts of killing myself one Sunday afternoon. At about 3:30 p.m. I was watching YouTube and a voice that was not mine popped into my head and said, "Go to church." I quickly replied and said, "I am not religious and not Christian." About an hour later the same voice said the same thing and I replied, "There is no church service at night." I then jumped on Google and found one church that had a Sunday night service. After that service I was hooked on Jesus and claimed to be an evangelist. I then started working as a carpenter, and a few years later moved back home. Long story short, a couple of years after being back home I developed back and hip issues which led me to go on disability. The government gave me an option to go back to school for retraining in a field that was not so physical. They would pay for 75% of my tuition and give me money to live on. I decided to be a correctional guard. But, one night I kept thinking that this decision does not feel right, and the next day the school got shut down.

I jumped online and found another school and saw a course for counseling and human services. A voice in my head said, "That's it!" Three weeks later I was in college. I just graduated and now I am working as a youth rehabilitation worker with youth who have trauma-filled lives and active addiction issues. I also found my way to Gnostic Christianity, which to me is the closest thing to our world history and our creator. I am also in the works of brainstorming a couple of books, one to be called "Mind Mapping" and the other "The Truth About Religion and Spirituality." I also just turned 43, for timeline's sake. I have come back with special abilities I did not have before. I now have a sense of compassion I never had before. I seem to be able to know what people are about before I talk to them and seem to understand what they are trying to say without being able to use words to describe it. But the weirdest thing is being able to communicate with the universe; both with the creators and the dead from time to time. It is not an all-the-time thing, but as my meditations get stronger my abilities get more vocal. This life now has way more details, but I think this is a good snapshot.

Background Information:

Gender: Male

Date of NDE: August 2000

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes
I took something like a hart attack but was not one and took something like a brain aneurysm but was not one and kept having seizures and flat lining. So they put me in a medical coma for 4 weeks to stop the seizures so I would stop dieing

How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant

Did you feel separated from your body? I clearly left my body and existed outside it

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Im not 100% sure what your trying to say but as soon as I came to inside the light world I was 100% of consciousness and alertness.
I would say before this happened I was turned off to the universe but now its like a door was opened that can not be shut again. Life has and will never be the same again.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness? More consciousness and alertness than normal

Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
There is no such thing as time and we seem to be living multi lives at once

Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience as Jeff puts it I had 360 degree vision

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience Theres was no hearing as you have no ears. Telepathic is the closest work we have to explain it

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased beings? No

Did you see or feel surrounded by a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes
The light world is dark but bright at the same time. It dose not hurt your eyes though and myself and the beings are a bright shining color that my brain wants to call a aura

Did you seem to enter another world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm
I entered the light world. I guess we could call this heaven

What emotions did you feel during the experience? First was shock and then a overwhelmingly feeling of bliss

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly understand everything? Everything about the universe
Once in the light world everything just makes sense.

Did scenes from your past come back? No
I did not see my life flash before me but was still awear of my past life events and was told I had lived many lifes before this one

Did scenes from the future come? Like I said in my previse store they told me about having to learn from my life experiences and I was suppose to help youth with the same type of experiences and I was to become an Evangelist of sorts

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
I guess if I where to put it in a Christian form I made it to the light world but to the gates of heaven for judgment but there was not physical gate or judgment

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Other or several faiths
No Faith

Have your religious practices changed? Yes
I would call myself religious'but do study the teachings of Jesus and other spiritual leaders like buddha

What is your religion now? Other or several faiths
gnostic christianity

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience
I did not believe in 'god' of a after world and I clearly due now

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes
My life has changed 100%. My mind and hart has been open to the universe and I will never be the same again.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Like I said in my story I meet a few mystical beings all of different color and all loving energy

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? Yes
They told me I had lived many lives before this. I also have done a past life regression and told my worker I lived 87life times.

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Yes
We are all connected as one. Plants, Animals and Humans alike

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Yes
The creator has created everything but I did not get to meet him. I was meet by his workers and I guess Christians would call them angles.

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes
They told me what my purpose was and you become an all knowing and understanding light being

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? Yes
Like I said above. We have lesions to learn to vibrate high enough to ascend into the future we want

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? Yes
You reincarnate in human form again and again until you have learned your listens and how to vibrate at a very high conciseness. You then get a choise to come back as a human form or as a spirit guide for humans or to live in the light world. its your choice

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? Yes
We are hear to learn lessons in order to vibrate high enough to enter the light world but there are shadow entitys on this earth that will try to trick you to keep you here. Theres is no hell but you could be living in hell like state on this earth. Life is Yin and Yang so with light there is shadow.

During your experience, did you gain information about love? Uncertain
They never said the word love but you felt it more then ever and to reach a high vibration you must love

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life
I did a 180 and have lived a 100% different life

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes
Personal relationships are very hard for me. I am very much attacked to other people with NDE without them telling me. I feel safer and more understood with them. I have a hard time finding a life partner that lives on the same level as me and it takes it toll on me. I long for a life partner. Im getting lonely

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes
You can not explain in words in any shape or form what the light world is or how it feels. Your human mind can not even begin to understand the vastness of death, god or the universe

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience
I remember everything like its happening right now

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes
I am able to know if someone is a good person or not before I speak to them. I am able to understand them without them being able to explain themselves. I am able to pull knowledge/answers from the universe and communicate with peoples spirt guide/undead people

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? My ability to love myself and others

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes
I have told a couple friends and doctors. I joined last week the Nova Scotia Psychedelic Society and was a get together (Speed friending) and told a lady I had died and changed my life. She then looked at me and asked tell me about your NDE. So I did and she then told me about her father dieing and then her father gave me a message to tell her.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real
The very second I got back into my body I knew what happened and was very upset about being back in my body

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real
It was as real as real gets. There is not one part of me that thinks otherwise

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? Yes
I can now transcend to the light world but can not communicate with the universe 'knowledge/get answers'

Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes
This is 100% the truth

Anything else to add? I know Jeff calls you his 'Soul Mate'. Soul Mates are not just life partners but people to share each life time with. If you have ever meet a stranger and felt like you have know them for ever you have. But a life partner soul mate is truly special. No matter if the are on the otherside of this pant you will seek each other out and marry in every life time. No matter how bad things get never leave them and always remember to huge them daily.