JL R NDE

Experience Description

I had a termination. Two days later, I was ill in bed and knew that I was dying. Unknown to me at the time, I had sepsis due to a twin fetus remaining. I clawed the wall of my bedroom with my fingers, while in and out of consciousness.

I started to go down a dark tunnel. I was concerned that I was going down. I thought heaven was up, but I was going down. The tunnel was dark. Then I saw my nana standing by a gate in blinding light. My nan said it was not my time and to go back.

I have since seen this image many years later in real life.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date of NDE: 06/00/0081

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes
I had undergone a termination of pregnancy

How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant

Did you feel separated from your body? I clearly left my body and existed outside it

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? At the end
I have never been so alert

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness? More consciousness and alertness than normal

Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
It lost present time

Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience So much clearer. I can replay it in my mind

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience Quiet

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, but the facts have not been checked out

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes
Dark and downward twirling

Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased beings? Yes
My grandmother

Did you see or feel surrounded by a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes
Bright shining sunshine

Did you seem to enter another world? No

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Scared

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Relief or calmness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Happiness

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly understand everything? Everything about the universe
Not willing to share at this moment

Did scenes from your past come back? I remembered many past events
I remembered living in the past a long time ago in neolithic times

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes
I was sent back

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a definite conscious decision to return to life
My nan told me it was not my time to leave

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Unaffiliated - Agnostic

Have your religious practices changed? No

What is your religion now? Unaffiliated - Nothing in particular - Religious unaffiliated
Pagan

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience
I was very young. It was a very real experience.

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Uncertain

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? Yes
My grandmother

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? Yes

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Yes

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? No

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? Yes

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? Uncertain

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

During your experience, did you gain information about love? No

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Unknown

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? No

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience
It was real

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Uncertain

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Yes. The gate that I saw I have since seen on the Internet. That being Glastonbury orchard.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real
It was real

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real
It was real

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes