Jene B NDE

Experience Description

It was between 11:30 and noon. I was in my room in the labor and delivery unit. The anesthesiologist had come to administer the spinal anesthesia for childbirth. He did not read the paper that stated my allergies and how sensitive my body was to medication. As he was administering the anesthesia, he hit my spinal column and one of my legs jerked straight up. I asked the nurse what that was, because it felt like an electrical shock through my body. The medicine stunned me, as if I had taken a hard hit to the head. The nurse told me to stay still.

Then I believe he injected something into me making me feel light-headed and nauseous. I told the nurse. She began to lay me down on my side. I could hear the monitor beeping very fast, and then it slowed down. I could hear people running frantically around the room. I heard the nurse say, "Her blood pressure is dropping. We're losing her! We're losing her!" The last thing I remember was the nurse saying, "Her blood pressure is 30 over nothing. You killed her, you son of a b&tch!" My last thought was to my unborn child, "I'll see you on the other side."

Then it went completely dark. I vaguely remember leaving my body and seeing it on the bed. The next thing I remember is standing in an incredible park-like scene. I saw rolling hills, trees, grass, sidewalk, and flowers. The colors were so intense, beautiful and amazingly peaceful. The singing of the birds was like nothing I had ever heard before. All of it was the most beautiful thing I had ever seen in my entire life.

A woman was standing next to me on my right side and talking to me. I remember looking at her and thinking I should know her, but I could not remember who she was. Then I realized it was my grandmother, who had died at age 55. She looked about 18 years old. I did not pay much attention to her as she spoke. I was looking around at the people and the angels flying around, listening to the sounds, and just being in awe. Out of the corner of my eye, in a place I should not have been able to see, I saw my sister who died as a baby. Now she was walking down to me and carrying my son. I heard my grandmother say, "She's bringing your baby to you." That was the only time I understood and actually paid attention to her. I was so in awe of everything, I completely tuned her out.

The singing got louder and louder. The music went around me, through me, and became a part of me. It was incredibly beautiful. They were singing, "He's coming, he's coming, he's coming." I looked around, wondering who was coming. I could see all around me. I still did not know who was coming. I could see my sister and my son getting closer, about 20 feet away. I was still looking around to see who was coming.

Then I was immersed in the most incredible feeling of love and peace that I have never felt before or since. I was at peace for the first time in my entire life, and I swooned. It was incredible! I felt a presence behind me; he was the one projecting the love. I immediately knew this was God, and I was so humbled and grateful. My sister and my son were now about 10 feet away, but they looked both close and yet far away. I could only think and focus on God's love. I heard him very clearly in my left ear, "Do you want to stay or do you want to go?"

I responded, "Heck yes, I want to stay." My sister stopped walking. I looked at my son in her arms, although I could not see his face. I said, "But that's not fair to him. I've lived. I'm happy not to go back. It's his decision if he wants to go back, but we either stay or go back together. You do not separate us."

The next thing I knew, I was back in my body; fully conscious and aware. For some reason, my body was on my right side. I could hear the nurses and doctors. I heard the doctor say, "She's dead." I heard the nurse say, "You son of a b&tch!" I started moving my finger, and the nurse must have noticed. She said, "We got her back, you lucky son of a b&tch."

I was angry that I was back. I was no longer immersed in that love. When I told the nurse I died and went to heaven, she believed me. Out of the people I told; the doctor, my husband, my parents, my brother did not believed me. My sister-in-law did believe me.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date of NDE: 1/5/2000

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes
I was giving birth. Anesthesiologist gave me too much meds during my spinal.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant

Did you feel separated from your body? I lost awareness of my body
Vaguely aware when I left people were running around the room I really didn't turn around to look at my body I didn't care. I was aware it was there and I didn't care

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? The entire time I saw the park (heaven)
I could see things from far away that I typically could never see. I could see the blades of grass the Petals on the flowers the Angels wings each individual feather the colors were extraordinarily like I've never seen before the sounds of the singing was music that I could actually feel and see I could see so far away and so close at the same time I could see everything except what was directly behind my head

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness? More consciousness and alertness than normal

Were your thoughts speeded up? No

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
How far away my sister was to how close she got to me was impossible to do normally in this world

Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience At that time I could not see far away past 20 feet everything was blurry when I drove I could see blurry things I assumed it was either car or a cow. Didn't want to hit either. But when I was in heaven I could see a blade of grass 300 ft away.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience My hearing was the same I believe but everything was sweeter louder and beautiful

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Uncertain
I don't remember leaving my body and going to the heaven I vaguely have a sense of a blackness and a light but I'm not sure what that means

Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased beings? Yes
My mom's mom and my older baby sister and I saw lots of angels and other people who looked like they has just died as well

Did you see or feel surrounded by a brilliant light? No

Did you see an unearthly light? Uncertain
I saw a pinpoint and what I saw in heaven the light was out of this world

Did you seem to enter another world? No

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Love, peace, awe

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly understand everything? No

Did scenes from your past come back? No

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a definite conscious decision to return to life
God asked me if I wanted to stay or go. When I replied hell yeah I want to stay and I left it up to my son to make the decision I didn't even have a second after I said it was his decision I was slammed back into my body.

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Unaffiliated- Agnostic
I believe in Jesus just not religion

Have your religious practices changed? Uncertain
It didn't change for the first 25 years. But slowly I've been headed towards God just hard when you're surrounded by non-god people who don't want you to be a believer.

What is your religion now? Christian- Other Christian
I follow Christ.

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience
I always believed in Jesus and I always believed in God but more of a how I was raised in the Catholic religion but I didn't truly believe. I mean I wouldn't go to my death over it I wouldn't disagree with people if they called him a prophet and not the son of God to each their own. I really didn't believe in Heaven and Hell I just kind of thought you died you die.

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes
I believe there was a God and a heaven and hell and that when I die I will go to heaven.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
I met my grandmother she was talking to me but I really wasn't paying attention to her and I spoke to God.

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? Yes
God I spoke to God. I did not see him but I felt him felt the love peace his voice was deep masculine voice that held pure love

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Yes
I met God I felt his presence I spoke to him. I felt his love his peace

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? No

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes
I felt God's love. The moment I was there at the park I could feel the peace and the love. I have never been at peace my entire life before that and I knew what peace was when I was there. And then when God actually arrived and spoke to me it was a thousand times more I can't describe it

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Unknown
I came to realize people don't want to believe in God. People don't want to discuss something like death. I came to believe when you have this type of encounter people look at you like you're a religious nut and I learn not to say anything. But I've also learned and reached out to people I know are going to die and I talk to them about it I've had quite a few people ask me about heaven. And those people are no longer here with us but are in heaven.

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes
My family got meaner to me. They've made my life worse this has happened. They are dismissive nasty and act like I'm stupid and I'm lying and I have absolutely no value.

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes
The colors and the music I can't describe them there are no words. The feeling of the love was out of this world

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience
The only thing I question is when I left my body to the time I was in heaven. That's the only thing I'm fuzzy about and I think so because I didn't care that I was dead. I was worn off of being in heaven and feeling the love and peace and I can't wait to go back

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Peace the feeling of peace. And God's love it was incredible. But mostly the feeling of peace.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes
I shared it with the nurse and doctor. The doctor was extremely rude and dismissive. And told me it didn't happen and the nurse believed me. It was immediately after I came back. Probably a few hours later I told my husband and my mom and dad and they told me that wasn't true it didn't happen that I was making things out my husband just looked at me and said nothing and never has. And my brother and sister-in-law came down probably the next day and then I told them and my sister-in-law believed me and it's always asked me about it until the day she died my brother has never acknowledged it. Then I told a select few friends a few weeks later and they didn't believe me either.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Uncertain
May have heard something in passing growing up but never really knew anything about it.

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real
I knew it happened and I know I couldn't talk about it and it crushed me.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real
I knew it happened. I've always known when I die I get to go to heaven and I know I will finally be at peace and loved. And I can't wait

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Uncertain
There aren't words in the English language to describe what I saw.

Anything else to add? It was beautiful, peaceful I can't even begin to explain how peaceful and the love and the colors everything was so intense