Jaid B NDE

Experience Description

I didn't care whether I lived or died. At that time, I carried deep wounds from abusive relationships, mental health struggles, and a heroin and fentanyl addiction. I had a hard time staying sober for any length of time, but I had been clean for about a month after getting out of jail.

A "friend" was staying with me then. He went with me to buy a bag of heroin. I did one shot in the car, and I don't remember the ride home. He woke me up in the parking lot. Somehow I was in the back seat, and I was confused about how I had gotten there.

I remember going upstairs to my apartment with him. Before I used again, I told him, "If anything happens, I have Narcan on my fridge." Looking back, it felt as though my soul already knew I was about to die and come back.

I did another shot. Then my whole world went black. I was overwhelmed by a feeling of pure love, peace, and euphoria. Then a brilliant light surrounded me. It was over me, through me, within me, and all around me. On the other side, you are no longer physical. You exist only as spirit.

People often say that when you die, your life flashes before your eyes. That wasn't my experience. Instead, I experienced my past, present, and future all at once. It seemed to happen in less than a millisecond of earthly time. I simply was everything. I felt everything. I just existed. It's difficult to put into words.

Then I suddenly shot back into my body. Everything seemed to move in slow motion. I saw my so-called friend on the floor, frantically trying to figure out whether he had saved me. I tried to stand, but my body had been without oxygen for too long to support itself. As soon as I stood up, I collapsed.

The next thing I remember is standing naked in a cold shower. I vomited, then blacked out again. When I woke up, I was already 30 minutes late for my serving shift. I got fired.

I yelled, "F@#$!"

Then that same "friend" walked in and called me "babe." He took advantage of me at one of the lowest moments of my life. He claimed I had been coherent and told me we had slept together four times. I have absolutely no memory of any of it.

Looking back, I believe God's redirection was actually God's protection.

After that, I ended up back in jail a few more times. I no longer wanted to use heroin because I was terrified of falling asleep after what had happened during my overdose. Instead, I switched to methamphetamine because I was afraid to sleep.

Today, I am grateful to say I have been sober for three and a half years.

For a long time, I was angry at God, Source, or whatever name you choose to use. I was angry that I had been brought back because what I experienced on the other side was more beautiful and peaceful than anything I had ever known.

Now I understand that I came back for a reason.

Today I work at a rehabilitation center, where I help people struggling with addiction discover their own worth, self-love, and inner light. Every day I have the privilege of reminding my clients that they matter and that recovery is possible.

The truth is, they help me just as much as I help them. It is one of the most rewarding experiences of my life.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date of NDE: 09/00/2022

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? No

How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant

Did you feel separated from your body? I clearly left my body and existed outside it

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? When the light came over me
I literally felt like I could see, feel, hear, just experience so many things in so little time compared to earth time.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness? More consciousness and alertness than normal

Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Exactly that

Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience You're not physical, you're a soul floating in a void of nothingness and everything all at the same time.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience It's more intuitively hearing/sensing

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes
It's like there was a pull from the darkness into the light

Did you see any beings in your experience? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased beings? No

Did you see or feel surrounded by a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes

Did you seem to enter another world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm
It felt comforting but also isn't a physical thing you can describe in words really.

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Overwhelming love and light and happiness/joy

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly understand everything? Everything about the universe
The gift of all knowing is a lot for a human mind to process coming back into your body but it's a beautiful way of understanding how this life is and teaches you to have faith more in the unknown

Did scenes from your past come back? My past flashed before me, out of my control

Did scenes from the future come? I get weird Déjà vu moments like I've done this before or I get just a bunch of random feelings of just knowing something before it even happens sometimes.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes
Just was a floating soul existing in nothingness and everything all at the same time through a darkness carried to a light full of nothing but euphoria and joy and love and obviously light 😅

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
It wasn't my time to go. There is way more things I need to do before my actual time is up.

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Do not know

Have your religious practices changed? Yes
Not knowing if God exists to becoming Omniest what a big, grateful change for me

What is your religion now? Other or several faiths
I feel like Omniest best describes what I am now. I feel like there's truth in all religions as well as their "telephone game" stories for control also. That's why we have discernment to tell the difference.

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience
Religion separates, but we're all from one collective consciousness of love and light

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Intuitively felt a presence and an all knowing sense of feeling

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? Uncertain
I interpreted that was God=love/light/happiness

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? Yes

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Yes

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Yes
But not in the "all fearing" god sense that the world seems to be scared of a mean god. This God was all love and light a pure consciousness.

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? Yes
It's why I'm in the recovery field guiding with love and light as much as I humanly can possibly to help save more lives and find their soul's purpose.

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? Uncertain

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? Uncertain

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? Yes

During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes
Overwhelming love and joy

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes
Euphoric bliss is the only thing I could think that could explain the feeling of the other side in a short formed way.

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience
I was in active addiction so most of that time is in and out with my memory but I definitely could not forget that near death experience, I feel like I was meant to remember to tell my story to others to guide them from that experience potentially happening to them also.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes
I have my more intuitive psychic moments randomly still, and stronger than I did before my NDE

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? I'm just grateful for that experience to show me who I really am by weeding out all the bad people out of my life, thanks to the guidance from up above and all my redirections that lead me to the point of becoming a BHT and CPSP certified in Indiana.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes
Constantly since it happened to help show others they're not alone and not to be afraid to speak their truth and experiences more freely, for deep healing within.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Uncertain

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real
It was weird and hard at first transitioning from all knowing peace, love and light back to this human form and trying to figure out my purpose, but slowly but surely it's all falling into the place it needs to be.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real
I know it was real from what I've felt/seen by my past mistakes that don't define who I am today, fortunately!

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? Yes

Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes