Ivan M NDE

Experience Description

During a medical emergency, the author experienced a spontaneous pneumothorax, which is a collapsed lung. Blood accumulated in his chest cavity, and doctors inserted a chest tube to treat the condition. During removal of the chest tube, he entered a severe crisis. His pulse reportedly dropped into the low thirties, suggesting a serious circulatory problem and possible shock. At that moment he experienced a sudden shift in consciousness.

He describes the experience as an abrupt transition into a very different state of awareness. He perceived himself moving through a deep blue environment that felt vast and spacious. In the distance he saw an iridescent shimmering light. The space appeared structured and immense, almost like large forms or architecture. He felt as if he were moving through depth toward that light, similar to traveling through a tunnel or passage.

His awareness was extremely clear during this state. He reports no panic or confusion. His sense of personal identity faded, yet awareness itself remained present. He describes this as awareness without attachment to his usual sense of self. He also felt detached from his physical body. The detached state felt effortless and smooth. It lacked the friction and heaviness that he associates with normal physical existence.

The return to his body occurred suddenly. He describes the return as forceful and uncomfortable. Re-entering the body felt dense and compressed compared with the detached state he had just experienced. The contrast between the two states was striking. The detached state felt light and effortless, while physical existence felt heavy and constrained.

He did not report encounters with beings, guides, or deceased individuals. He also did not describe a life review or communication with any entities. The experience consisted mainly of a profound change in the structure of awareness and environment.

After the experience, he concluded that continuing to live felt optional rather than automatic. He did not recall making a clear decision to return while he was in the detached state. However, once he returned to normal awareness he felt that remaining alive required a form of ongoing consent. Life felt like something that continues through willingness rather than through simple biological momentum.

This realization affected how he views human struggle. He believes that continuing to live during suffering involves real effort. People who persist through pain or difficulty are actively choosing to remain engaged with life. In his view, depression or exhaustion may reflect how difficult it can be to maintain that willingness.

The experience left him with the sense that detachment from life is possible and effortless, while living in the physical world requires continuous participation. For him, the central lesson of the experience is that life is not merely something that happens automatically. Instead, he believes that remaining alive involves an ongoing willingness to remain embodied and present in the physical world.

Background Information:

Gender: Male

Date of NDE: 5/23/2023

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Uncertain

How do you consider the content of your experience? Both pleasant AND distressing

Did you feel separated from your body? I clearly left my body and existed outside it

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? begining
alert

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness? More consciousness and alertness than normal

Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Time seemed to go faster or slower than usual
speeding up constantly until the snap back to body

Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience from 1080p to 8K resolution, and deepth

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience heard nothing

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Uncertain
i just started going at higher speed from start, so no tunels, straight into space

Did you see any beings in your experience? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased beings? No

Did you see or feel surrounded by a brilliant light? No

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes

Did you seem to enter another world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm
NO life around me, but the space is filled with planetary objects, and im basicly flyin thru the whole universe

What emotions did you feel during the experience? tranquility, ease

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? No

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? No

Did you suddenly understand everything? No

Did scenes from your past come back? No

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes
read my : https://docs.google.com/document/d/1WPHmjATMSDEIOyrdBXX_5rEFsPszFCixaAEa9Ny2pqE Pls

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a definite conscious decision to return to life
snapback after total speed maxxing realized that if i dont repulse i will just keep going, so i did, rebolted back to body

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Do not know

Have your religious practices changed? No

What is your religion now? Do not know

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience
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Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Yes
like frequencies, and the all so cringe, quantum particle, there is a web that ties all this together that we just cant see, nor even produce technical appartus to be able to spot.

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? No

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? No

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

During your experience, did you gain information about love? No

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Slight changes in my life
My anxiety dropped a bit, still is low, thats bout it.

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? No

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience as accurately as other life events that occurred around the time of the experience
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Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? https://docs.google.com/document/d/1WPHmjATMSDEIOyrdBXX_5rEFsPszFCixaAEa9Ny2pqE

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes
we shall see https://docs.google.com/document/d/1WPHmjATMSDEIOyrdBXX_5rEFsPszFCixaAEa9Ny2pqE

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes
this was my 5th nde so ye, ive seen the whole roledex at this point

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely not real
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What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely not real
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At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes
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Anything else to add? https://docs.google.com/document/d/1WPHmjATMSDEIOyrdBXX_5rEFsPszFCixaAEa9Ny2pqE