Graham M Probable NDE

Experience Description

I was in the emergency room and my life was fading away. I heard someone say, "He's going into shock." I saw my reflection in a paper towel dispenser and basically said goodbye to myself.

During my experience, I was in a dark space, like a room I would assume. There was a rotating and brightly-lit, tilted capital "E." All around me like I was seeing from a 360 degree spherical vision. It was something like a drawer or box that would show a time from my life. It was shown to me from different directions such as behind, left, right, up, and down events in my life were shown to me one at a time. I saw good and bad things, that I felt as regretful things and great things, such as family, events, and everything.

I can't get it out of my head, and I won't tell anyone else about it. I've shared it with my mother, brother, and a very few close people, but I don't think anyone but me believes it was real. My life and interests have completely changed. I think differently about things. I mean, everything has changed in my mind, and it was so very real. I can't stop seeing it, like it's seared in my brain.

Background Information:

Gender: Male

Date of NDE: 07/27/0023

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Uncertain

How do you consider the content of your experience? Both pleasant AND distressing

Did you feel separated from your body? I lost awareness of my body

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? I guess in a coma.
Not sure.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness? More consciousness and alertness than normal

Were your thoughts speeded up? No

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Unsure.

Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience Unsure

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience Unsure

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Uncertain
Everything was pitch black except for openings that appeared from all around me, one at a time.

Did you see any beings in your experience? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased beings? Uncertain
Unsure.

Did you see or feel surrounded by a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes
Bright

Did you seem to enter another world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm
A dark room or place. I say room because events popped out all around me.

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Unsure

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Relief or calmness

Did you have a feeling of joy? No

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? No

Did you suddenly understand everything? Everything about myself or others
Unsure.

Did scenes from your past come back? My past flashed before me, out of my control
In description.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes
Same.

Did you come to a border or point of no return? No

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Christian - Other Christian
Never really religious, just have always believed in a creator.

Have your religious practices changed? Yes
I'm always talking to my creator or giving praise, I guess.

What is your religion now? Christian - Other Christian

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience
I don't know.

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes
Not sure how.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? Uncertain
Not sure.

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? Uncertain
I don't know.

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Uncertain
I don't know what it all meant.

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Uncertain
I don't know.

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes
I seem to think I understand animals better, and engineering things, and how things work.

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? Uncertain
I don't know.

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? Uncertain
I was just in awe.

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? Yes
I guess everything.

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes
My son

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life
Everything.

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes
I've changed.

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Uncertain
I can describe it, but I'm not sure.

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience
I just want to know if it was real.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Uncertain
I feel like I can sense how other lives are, and I know what they are feeling.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? I want to know.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes
About a year after

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was probably real
Very real.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was probably real
I feel my purpose has changed, or that I think I have one.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? Uncertain
Unsure.

Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes
Just confused about what it was.

Anything else to add? I just want to know if it was real or a dream.