Ezgi Ş Possible NDE

Experience Description

On January 17, 2013, during my first year of nursing, I suffered a brain hemorrhage. My husband and I had been married for only 28 days. We had a civil marriage because he had been assigned to work in Bursa, and I wanted to join him there. We had not yet had our wedding celebration and were not living together. At about 3:00 a.m., I woke up screaming because my head hurt terribly. My screams were so loud that they woke my sister and my parents. I went into the kitchen, and my family wanted to take me to the hospital, but I told them it was unnecessary. I thought I could eat something, take some medicine, and feel better because I had a nursing shift the following day. However, as I was trying to eat, I suddenly lost consciousness.

My family immediately called a taxi and took me to the hospital. My sister had brought along a bottle of Cyproheptadine syrup, which I had been taking to gain weight. When the doctor saw the medication, he mistakenly assumed that I had attempted suicide and ordered my stomach to be pumped. However, I did not regain consciousness. Since there was no available bed in the intensive care unit, I was transferred to Beylikdüzü Medicana Hospital, where a friend of mine worked as a nurse. As soon as I arrived, the doctors performed a brain MRI (magnetic resonance imaging) and discovered that I had suffered a massive brain hemorrhage. They gave me only a 1% chance of survival.

A doctor at that hospital recommended transferring me to another hospital, saying that if there was any chance of saving my life, it would be there. I was taken by a fully equipped ambulance to the hospital. The doctors examined me but initially said that nothing could be done. My family and relatives waited outside while I remained in the hospital. Around the tenth day, a doctor approached my parents and explained that there was an operation they could attempt. If it succeeded, I might survive, but if it failed, I would die. My parents agreed to the surgery, and I underwent the operation. Afterward, I spent one month in the surgical unit, another 15 days in the hospital ward, and three months in physical therapy and rehabilitation.

During this terrible illness, I had an experience that I am absolutely certain was real. I found myself riding a bicycle in a place that looked something like Beylikdüzü. I was incredibly happy, experiencing a kind of happiness that I cannot explain in words. Since then, I have had a child in this world, and even the happiness of having my child cannot compare to what I felt in that place. It was a happiness beyond anything I have ever experienced in my life.

While I was riding my bicycle, the sky suddenly opened, and an enormous man who seemed to be made from the sky itself appeared. He pushed me downward, but instead of falling onto the ground, I fell down from the sky. That was how the experience ended.

The happiness I experienced there was so extraordinary that, while I was still seriously ill, I told my mother, "Mother, let them kill me. I was so happy there." I wanted her to understand how wonderful that place had been and how much happiness I had felt. Even now, after all these years, I remain certain that what I experienced was real. Since my brain hemorrhage, I have not had dreams.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date of NDE: 01/17/2013

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes
On January 17, 2013, I suffered a severe brain hemorrhage and lost consciousness. Doctors gave me only a 1% chance of survival. I was transferred between several hospitals before undergoing brain surgery, followed by months of hospitalization and rehabilitation.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant

Did you feel separated from your body? No

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? While I was in the hospital
I was aware. Even though some say it was the effect of the medications, I say I just had a dream

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness? More consciousness and alertness than normal

Were your thoughts speeded up? No

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? No

Were your senses more vivid than usual? More vivid than usual

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience If they said there is no God, I would say yes, there is none, but now I believe in God more than I can say

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience I did not hear anything there, I do not remember anything at all

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

Did you see any beings in your experience? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased beings? No

Did you see or feel surrounded by a brilliant light? No

Did you see an unearthly light? No

Did you seem to enter another world? No

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Happiness, an extreme happiness

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? No

Did you suddenly understand everything? No

Did scenes from your past come back? No

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? No

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Unaffiliated - Nothing in particular - Secular unaffiliated

Have your religious practices changed? Yes
I believe in God now

What is your religion now? Do not know

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience
As I wrote before, if they said there is no God, I would say yes, there is none, but now I know that He exists, I am certain, and I love Him very much ❤️

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes
I used to believe in God; now I know for certain that He exists

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
A giant man made of cloud threw me from the sky

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? Uncertain
I only saw a man made of cloud

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Yes
Encountering the angel is a sign to me that God exists

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? Yes
To me, that was an angel

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

During your experience, did you gain information about love? No

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes
Absolutely, every time I tell it my hair stands on end

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience
It has been almost 14 years and I do not dream, but I remember this as if I saw it just now. While walking in the garden at Cerrahpaşa, I said to my mother, 'I want to die,' and I tell my patients about it constantly, and every time I tell it my hair stands on end

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Being very happy

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes
I do not know when I first told it, but everyone is very surprised and their hair stands on end

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Uncertain

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real
It was real, so there is no other alternative. I stayed in intensive care for 1 month, in the ward for 15 days, and in the physical therapy and rehabilitation unit for 3 months, but the only thing I remember is this

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes