Debi N NDE

Experience Description 13505

When I knew I lost control of the car, my first thought was, "I am going to live or die today. It will be what it will be." My immediate next thought was that my children did not need to go through this again, especially in the same way as my 49-year-old husband, who died in a rollover accident six years ago.

At that point, I was watching my head and body being tossed around as the car flipped, from a perspective in the backseat's middle position. Everything in my car was flying around. I had seen this once before when I drowned at age three; I saw my floating body from the front and a little to the right. My foot was stuck in a pothole, holding me underwater, so I was not floating face-down. At that time, I did not understand what was happening, but this time, I was fully conscious and aware. I was not scared. I felt no pain. It was more like watching a movie, with no real connection to the body being tossed around.

When the car stopped, my first thought was that in movies, cars explode, so I needed to get out quickly. I unbuckled my seatbelt and dropped to the roof since I was hanging upside down, then crawled out of the bashed-in driver's side window. People were running from all directions, and I was very disoriented. It was raining, and I thought it was water running down my face, but it was blood from a head injury.

I was loaded into the ambulance on a board with a neck brace, as it was assumed I had major injuries. I remember feeling lost, like I didn't belong.

In the ER, I was a priority patient due to the nature of the accident. I was given all the tests very quickly. The only internal injuries I had were a couple of dislocated ribs and some muscle strain. No broken bones, organ injury, head injuries, or internal bleeding.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date of NDE: 6/19/2025

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes
I took a right turn too fast on wet pavement, and my car fishtailed into a ditch where it flipped what we believe to be two and a half times before landing upside down. No airbags deployed, and my head hit the windshield hard enough to leave a head-shaped hole. The car was beyond totaled, as if it had been run over by a monster truck.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Both pleasant AND distressing

Did you feel separated from your body? I clearly left my body and existed outside it
I watched my body being tossed around in the car as it flipped, from a perspective behind and a little off to the right, like the middle of the backseat. I was an otherworldly spectator watching it happen for however long I was protected from the trauma of the accident. I don't know how many times the car flipped, and I have no idea how long I was out of my body. It felt like a very long time, like forever, eternity, as if everything was all at once. The guess is two and a half times since it landed upside down, but I have no idea. From the condition of the car, it was enough times to smash it into a condition similar to being run over by a monster truck.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? While the car was flipping and I was watching my body during the accident, I was fully aware and understood what was happening to an extent. When I say to an extent, I was disconnected from the body I was watching. I knew it was mine, but I didn't feel I was a part of it at the time. I was a spectator.
While I was conscious in my spirit and watching it all take place, I felt no pain. I felt peaceful, connected to everything and everyone. There was no anxiety and no fear. I felt full and whole, as if everything was a part of me, and I of it. I understood the importance of taking care of that connection because it is eternal. We were, are, and will continue to be connected.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness? More consciousness and alertness than normal

Were your thoughts speeded up? No

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
When I drowned at age three, my perspective changed then. I didn't understand it because I was only three, but I have since felt no age. I feel like I am the same as I was when I was three, only bigger and with life knowledge and experience. I remember my life in detail since then, as if it all happened at once. The car accident confirmed this. In the drowning, I was also very near to my body but remember the same disconnection. I can remember them both as if I were there. That is how my memory works. I just go to that time. It can take some serious rewinding sometimes, but most of the time, I can put myself there and recall it in detail. I didn't understand why my life was so chaotic until this accident. I believe I exist in between and have since I was three. Because of that, my own internal time does not match that of others who are only earthly. I have felt the other side, people who have passed, and have had premonition dreams, including one where I predicted someone was going to die. I have had contact with spirits. (I had an NDE between these that provided even more information on the other side, but that is a whole other questionnaire. That was my waiting room NDE.)

Were your senses more vivid than usual? More vivid than usual

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience Even though the car was flipping, I did not feel like it was flipping. I was stationary, and I could see the car as if it were not moving. I could see bits of trash that had been on my car floor flying around, as well as glass that had blown out from the windows, and leaves, dirt, and mud from the rainy ditch I was flipping in. I didn't smell anything. I didn't hear anything.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience I do not remember hearing anything. There was no audible noise. The relay of information and knowledge was just there when I came back. It was a part of me as soon as I crossed over. It was more of an understanding, not in words, just in knowing.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, but the facts have not been checked out

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

Did you see any beings in your experience? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased beings? No

Did you see or feel surrounded by a brilliant light? No

Did you see an unearthly light? No

Did you seem to enter another world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm
As I mentioned before, I was very near to my body. I was told the only reason my injuries were so few was because I was able to relax and let the accident happen. I was pulled from my body long enough to be protected from the physical pain of the accident and experience something not all humans get to experience. I do not remember being pulled or if I did it myself. I haven't figured that part out. But I do believe it was intentional, and it was to protect me so I could come back. What I came back with in that short time changed me profoundly because, as I said, it was eternity all at once. I didn't see it; I sensed it. I knew it. I believe I am in between and have been since my first NDE when I was three and drowned. This was my third.

What emotions did you feel during the experience? I felt like I was a part of everything forever. I felt connected to the entire universe. It made me understand our purpose here and what we are doing wrong.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly understand everything? Everything about the universe
It is eternal, just like they say. It is peace, love, and feeling welcomed by everything everywhere all at once, at all times. I even understand the reason for Jesus. It happened, but so much has been lost in translation throughout. He told us it was all about love, that following him is the path because he is the physical embodiment of God, to prove his existence and his reason, to prove that life is eternal after death, and that we will conquer the physical body. So it's that simple. We love each other like we are brothers and sisters because we are all one on the other side. We have to take care of that connection here, love each other, and stop destroying each other. It is simple. But no one can stop living for their own selves. It has to be about all of us, or all of us will suffer in one way or another. God did not create the borders and countries; humans did. God intended us to live in the hive mentality, the pack mentality. But we don't. And that has to change.

Did scenes from your past come back? No

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? No

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Christian - Other Christian
I consider myself a born-again Christian, not affiliated with any particular denomination, because many are not actually based on the teachings of Jesus but rather the rules the church made.

Have your religious practices changed? Yes
I take more time to really connect with God, not just to pray, but to focus on the spirit and feel the connection. I trust and feel the love.

What is your religion now? Christian - Other Christian
My NDE only strengthened my beliefs due to my understanding of how and why it happened, but I also acknowledge that people believe differently. I came back with the knowledge that we are all connected, and as long as we are taking care of and loving each other, we are fulfilling our purpose as humans: to love each other as brothers and sisters and do whatever we have to to ensure each other's survival.

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience
I have felt a connection with the universe for a long time, but I didn't know what it was. I have always felt the pull to take care of people who have less or need more love. After the accident, I knew I was right. We are all connected and meant to love each other.

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes
I still believe in the story of Jesus, but not in the same way religions have translated it. I think it's a lot simpler and people have warped his sacrifice into shame and fear when it's not about that at all. It was all about love and proof of God, about God's love for us. It isn't about fear and shame. It never was.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? Uncertain
I know the spirit is eternal. Once the spirit comes into existence, it is eternal. Again, no one told me this. I sensed it. I felt eternity.

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Yes
I knew we were all one, connected to God and to each other. It is the intention to maintain this connection here.

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Yes
I drew a picture of what it felt like recently. It wasn't something I was told; it was what I felt. There was one main central energy that we all connected to, and all of us were also connected to each other. It was peace and love. It was God.

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? Yes
Our purpose is to love and take care of each other. It's that simple. Just love each other.

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? Yes
It is all eternal. On the other side, everything exists all at once. No one told me this; it just was. I sensed it. I felt connected to everything. I felt everywhere, but I wasn't.

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes
The love on the other side is all-encompassing, and that is because we are all one with God. God's love is boundless, and it surrounds us with peace. We are supposed to take that love here with us and give it freely to our brothers and sisters.

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life
When I was in the ER after the accident, I had the feeling I did not belong here, but I belonged everywhere. Right after the accident, when I was back in my body, I was in shock and recovering from a concussion. Much of that first 24 hours was confusion and pain, so thoughts of the OBE were not there for a little bit. But I knew that I felt out of place. I also knew that since I did not die, I was here for a reason and just needed to wait for instructions. I had no idea what feeling out of place was or why I would feel the need to wait for instructions, but I told everyone I talked to about it. Once I was mentally back to normal, the NDE was coming back to me, and the understanding of it all was rushing in on me. I was discussing my three NDEs with a friend around the fourth of July, and I knew at that time that I am a bridge and I am supposed to help others cross over. I have never had a calling, but this is a calling. I have since trained as an end-of-life doula and volunteer with hospice to gain some experience. I am also considering training as a birth doula since there are two sides to the bridge. I carry the peace from the other side with me all the time because I am consciously aware of my spirit within my entire body. I feel it keeping me alive. I am connected to the other side and am trying to figure out how to use this. The first time I was consciously aware of my spirit, I distinctly felt my body and spirit fully at the same moment. I could feel the heaviness of my body and the lightness of my spirit. It was actually a little bit scary because I had never had that sensation before. I am learning to focus on both the body and spirit to see if it has an effect on my physical capabilities. For example, I work out a lot, and at the gym, if I focus on both, my strength and endurance are both greater. I am not very good at it yet, but it's not every day you try to figure out how to use your spirit to your advantage...

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes
Before the accident, I was already a born-again Christian (note I did not say religion). I lived to be the example. Now, I know that the purpose of humanity as a whole is to love and take care of each other. I go where I am needed. I help where I am called. I sit with the dying. I am doing the work God has intended for us all.

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes
I wasn't far away from my body, but I was simultaneously very distant from it. I was in an entirely different plane of existence. I was in my car, but I was not in my car. It was more like I was watching a movie, seated where I had a good view of the action. Knowing I was connected to everything filled me with an understanding and knowledge that does not occur in regular everyday life.

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience as accurately as other life events that occurred around the time of the experience
The only difference was that the visual experience of watching my accident involved much more. Remembering life events is about the physical, but when I remember this event, I am on the other side, back there in the universe.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes
Since my second NDE, I have had a connection to the spirit world. I had a premonition dream of my father's death, and he visited me one night. I had a lot of what I call whispers, thoughts in my head that aren't mine, after my 49-year-old husband died in a rollover car accident six years ago. He was the first, but there were several after him. I knew for certain because I felt their spirit while I heard their whispers. After my car accident, my connection to the spirit world is constant, but I am still not good at holding a strong connection because of the physical body. It takes priority, so I really have to focus to maintain a super strong connection. When I do, I can see through to the other side but not very far. I can see energies near me and can sometimes distinguish who. I can think of someone and feel their energy, but that is still a work in progress. I think part of it is fear of the unknown: what will happen if I actually get good at connecting to the other side?

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? It just gave me peace. It told me God is real and so is the love.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes
For the drowning when I was three, I didn't talk about it for a very long time because part of me thought I made it up since I was so young. But it was so vivid. I asked my mom about four years ago if I drowned when I was three. She was shocked that I remembered it. I then told her from my perspective. After the waiting room (about ten years ago), I shared it right away, but the reactions were very mixed. I stopped talking about it. After the accident, I talked about the out of body experience right away, but I didn't talk about the rest of it very much, because the first time I did, the reaction was definitely one that made me think they were sure I had lost my mind. Truth is, I have never been clearer, and my life has been nothing but chaos.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes
The first NDE occurred when I drowned at age three. The second was when I went to the waiting room after I stopped breathing in my sleep. So I had two prior to the car accident.

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real
As I mentioned, I had two NDEs prior to the car accident, but I was always very skeptical of myself for those. After the accident, it confirmed the other two for me. There was no doubt in my mind that all three NDEs were as real as me typing on this computer at this moment.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real
Because I am in between and time is eternal, I can still feel the other side, and it can't get more real than that. It is not an experience anymore but who I am.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? Yes
My first NDE was when I was three and I drowned. It was not as profound because I was so young, but my concept of time was definitely altered.

Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes
I hope so.

Anything else to add? I think I've probably said as much as I can think of at this moment.


Experience Description 13532

*Note: This is my second of three (so far!) NDEs. I keep saying one of these days it's going to stick.

After falling asleep, I remember dreaming I was shopping with my younger daughter when I was sucked away from her. I remember looking down at her, and then I was gone. I have heard others talk of a tunnel. I can't say that was exactly how it was for me, but I will agree it 'felt' like a tunnel. I could see everything around me. It was like the tube at a drive-through bank, but it had no tangible structure. I was moving very fast (although it never felt like I was moving; maybe it was like making a connection?) in a slightly upward position. Not straight up, but angled. I could see an opening in the sky in front of me and I knew that was where I was going.

The next thing I remember, I was in what I have called The Waiting Room. I always capitalize these words because it was the only waiting room that has or ever will matter. I am not sure how I knew that is what it was, but I just knew. It was like an outdoor pavilion with marble or granite benches and a fountain in the middle. It was all white. There were people everywhere of all ages, genders, ethnicities, etc. I looked around and noticed a man with his hands in his pockets looking over the edge. That is when I realized the structure, with no ceiling and no walls but only a frame and a floor, was nowhere. It was in nothing and nowhere. I was not afraid but a little confused.

I then noticed a naked baby lying on one of the benches, crying. I asked a little girl of about eight with long, blonde hair what was wrong with the baby. She said, in a British accent, that the baby was very sick but they could not get enough films. I immediately understood that the baby was not yet born. Although the doctors were aware something was wrong with the baby, they could not diagnose it while in utero.

The next thing I knew, I was awake in my body. My lips and fingernails were purple, and my head felt like it was being stabbed. I cried and called for my husband.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date of NDE: 00/00/2014

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes
At that time, I was morbidly obese and had issues with sleep apnea. This particular night, I had the flu and uncontrolled asthma. To prevent apnea attacks, I slept elevated and the room needed constant air circulation. Neither of these conditions were met, and I fell asleep with a high fever. I stopped breathing for an indeterminate amount of time.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Both pleasant AND distressing

Did you feel separated from your body? I lost awareness of my body

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? In and on the way to The Waiting Room.
When I was on the way, I could see everything. Not just the earth but all of everything. It was all around me. In the Waiting Room, I was aware of being in a structure that was suspended in nothing. The nothing was not scary; it just was. When I talked to the little girl, she just knew what was wrong with the baby as a child, and I knew exactly what she meant.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness? More consciousness and alertness than normal

Were your thoughts speeded up? No

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? No

Were your senses more vivid than usual? More vivid than usual

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience On the way, I could see everything at once. Thinking about it now, it was as if it was all around me, and I was a part of it all. In the room, I understood where I was, why I was there, and what everyone else was doing there.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience To be honest, I don't know if I actually heard any of it. I had a conversation with the little girl about the crying baby, but thinking about it now, I don't know if it was 'heard' or just understood. Like everything else, I just knew.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes
When I say yes to this, I need to explain further. My best description is like the tube at a drive-up bank teller except it had no tangible structure. I could see everything around me, like I was a part of it. I was moving very fast, but I did not feel like I was moving. I could see that the tunnel was headed for an opening in the sky. The angle was not straight up but at an angle. It was more like making a connection rather than going through a tunnel. I don't know if that makes any sense, but I am not sure of any other way to explain it.

Did you see any beings in your experience? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased beings? Yes
There were many people in The Waiting Room, and I don't know how far it extended beyond the portion I was in. I don't know if all of them were people waiting like me or something else involved in moving spirits through the process.

Did you see or feel surrounded by a brilliant light? No

Did you see an unearthly light? Uncertain
The Waiting Room itself was very bright and white, but it was in nothing.

Did you seem to enter another world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm
It was like an outdoor pavilion you would see at a park. It was nothing but a frame and floor, made of white marble or granite, smooth. There were benches made of the same material and a fountain in the center. The room was nowhere. I noticed this when I saw another person look over the edge and it was just in nothing and nowhere.

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Unlike my other two NDEs where I left my body and lingered 'near' it (drowning at age 3 for the first one, and a car accident last year for the third one), I didn't feel incredible joy and love. I was more curious and a little confused. I wasn't scared; I just wasn't sure what was next.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Relief or calmness

Did you have a feeling of joy? No

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt no longer in conflict with nature

Did you suddenly understand everything? No

Did scenes from your past come back? No

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes
The Waiting Room was a structure all by itself, but I sensed that it was not where I would end up, yet I could not go anywhere else. I was supposed to be there then.

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
I knew I couldn't go anywhere and I was just supposed to wait. For what I was waiting, I did not know. I just knew I needed to wait.

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Do not know
I was raised LDS and broke away in my early 20s. I began attending various churches, hoping to find what I had briefly found when I was 16 at another church: God. I was still searching when this happened. After my husband died in 2019, I found what I was looking for and eventually became a born-again Christian. I do not currently affiliate with any religion since my third NDE in summer 2025.

Have your religious practices changed? No

What is your religion now? Christian - Other Christian
After my third NDE in June 2025, things profoundly changed for me when I came back with an understanding I didn't have before. God is real. Eternity is real. Hell is and will be earth, not because of God's wrath but because of humanity's disrespect for it and each other. Our entire purpose is to share the unconditional love of God and take care of each other, because we are all connected to the same God and to each other. There are many paths on earth to God, and he is called by many names, but he was, is, and always will be with us, and us with him. My path to God was through Jesus. I believe Jesus was sent here as the physical representation of God to teach us that we are all brothers and sisters, and we are all loved equally by our one God, no matter what we believe or who we are. His message was simple: love God and each other. Be good humans. Religion has warped what evil and sin are. The stories are meant to control and manipulate, and God is not about religion. Once you know the unconditional and eternal love of God, the desire to share that with others is the ultimate goal, and should be for each of us and humanity as a whole. The sacrifice was to prove that God is love, God is real, and God's love is unconditional. All the things that you are told are evil are still and always will be forgivable in the eyes of God. God is not wrath. As for the end of times, it is essentially God's last-ditch effort to bring us back to his love before humanity and the earth are destroyed, not by God, but by humans.

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience
I had never heard of a waiting room. I was raised being told we go to heaven or hell. This was new.

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Uncertain
I questioned the NDE since I was taken from a dream. The difference from the dream state I was in to dying was that I knew I left my body. I felt no pain. But I still questioned it until my third one. I wanted to believe, but I could never convince myself I wasn't a complete lunatic. I had already questioned the drowning for 38 years at that point. So my belief was not changed. More like another dimension was added to my confusion about life.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? Uncertain
I saw a lot of people, but I don't know if they were just waiting like me or if some of them were part of the process of moving spirits.

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Yes
On the way to The Waiting Room, I was consciously aware of being a part of everything. I did not understand what that meant because I was also a little confused and curious.

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? No

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? Yes
Once I was separated from my daughter in my dream, I lost all awareness of being human. It wasn't even a consideration. I knew I left my body. I knew I was heading toward the opening in the sky. I saw and conversed with others who were no longer in their bodies, waiting for whatever was next.

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

During your experience, did you gain information about love? No

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Slight changes in my life
From the second NDE discussed in this questionnaire to now, after my third NDE, a lot has changed. This one confused me. I doubted this experience and my drowning at age 3 for a very long time until the third NDE. That one changed everything. I came back with knowledge, understanding, a purpose, the ever-present unconditional love of God, and the connection to God and everything is real. The third NDE confirmed my first two NDEs. It also gave me the idea that, because there are so many different experiences with NDEs including my own, there must be a process for moving spirits around. Some of us jump out of our bodies for a few seconds and understand the entire universe because of that brief glimpse of eternity and proof of God's eternal love. For my waiting room experience, I was taken from a dream state. I did not linger over my body but moved along in the process to The Waiting Room. Some go on from there, some go back. I went back. I don't know if moving through the process is what brought on my curiosity and confusion this time. Either way, I know now.

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes
I told a few people who essentially stopped talking to me or told me it was not real and behaved differently around me.

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? No

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience
Just like my other two NDEs, I can put myself in the actual situation and remember what was said, how I felt, everything. The memory is more like a living photograph I can go into and look around.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes
After this experience, I had a few premonition dreams, including one of my father's death. We had a phone call in the dream (he was living out of the country at that time) and he told me he was planning to visit everyone this coming spring. He had something to tell everyone. I asked him if he was dying and he said yes, he was. I woke up crying, woke up my husband, and told him my dad was going to die. He called the next day to tell me he was coming to the states to visit everyone in the family. I told him about my dream and asked if he was dying. He said he didn't think so. He died of a heart attack six months later at age 63. His spirit visited me after, and I saw and spoke to him. I asked him how he could be here if he was dead and he told me he was just visiting. My husband died in a rollover car accident in 2019 at age 49. A few days after he died, I began having what I call whispers—thoughts in my head that are not mine. I knew it was him because I felt his presence. I have been empathic my entire life, from likely age three when I drowned. He was the first of several, including my mother-in-law who helped me find a pendant she gifted to me before she died, a random man connected to a friend I was camping with who gave me a message to give to her, and a few others I haven't figured out. I know the ones I know because I felt my husband and mother-in-law, and my friend's man was because I felt the connection between the two of them. I doubted all of this for a very long time. I questioned my sanity. But after my third NDE, it explained the other two. It explained why I never felt an age since I was three and my incredible memory of my life is because it feels like it all just happened at once. I can put myself back to times and places. It explained this one, why I have been so connected to the other side for so long. It is because I have been living in between since I was three. After the third one, this is an understanding that has stopped all questioning and given me a purpose.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Just the understanding of where I was. Knowing without being told I was just supposed to wait in this beautiful pavilion in nothing and nowhere.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes
I told my husband and a few others, but they told me it was just part of my dream. It was not. I stopped sharing because of that.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes
The drowning when I was three was the extent of my knowledge. I began researching after the third one.

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was probably real
I knew it was real because I was fully aware of being somewhere else. But I doubted it because it happened while I was asleep and I was taken from a dream state.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real
My third NDE explained the first two because the understanding I came back with of the universe and God and eternity gave me the ability to go back and walk through it.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes
I did the best I could to explain it.