Claude O NDE

Experience Description

I had an upset stomach and got up to go to the bathroom. When I got off the toilet, I looked down and saw only blood. I walked into the next room and called for my wife. Then I started vomiting straight blood. I guess I passed out because when I opened my eyes, I was in the car leaning against the door at the hospital, and it was really hard to breathe. As I used all the strength I had to take a breath, my vision closed in on me. I remembered thinking, "So this is what it's like to die." Then there was nothing, like I was in some kind of void with no sense of time.

Suddenly, I found myself standing in what I thought was a room, but there was no floor, walls, or ceiling that I could see. All around me was a brilliant, pure white light that seemed to glow. Then I thought, "Wow, I have no pain of any kind. I feel perfect." A sense of love and joy washed over me like a giant wave, and I thought, "I'm home. I'm finally home." It was like the weight of the world was lifted from me. I could sense that I was surrounded by loved ones. My grandmother was by my side, and I was so happy to be there.

I felt pain in my chest that was getting worse, like someone was tightening a band around me. Then the pain was gone. I opened my eyes and heard someone crying. It was my wife standing to the side. I asked, "What's wrong with you?" Then two nurses ran into the room, and one of them said, "Oh my God, how do you feel?" I replied, "I feel fine. Why?" I tried to sit up because I felt great, but passed out from lack of blood.

I spent the next four weeks in the intensive care unit (ICU); then one week in a regular room until my heart got back to a steady rhythm. I lost 60 pounds. When I told the doctors what I saw, they insisted that it didn't happen. But, I still remember every detail. I have no fear of dying any longer. I wanted to go back home, but it's not my time yet. I've lost two wives to cancer and shared my story with both of them; hoping it would bring them some comfort.

I have never seen anything even close to what I saw over there or felt such a powerful sense of love, joy, and peace. Regardless of what anyone says, I know it was real because I was there. Since then, my relationship with God has been much closer. I talk to him every day.

Background Information:

Gender: Male

Date of NDE: 06/2008

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes
bleeding internally, lost over 60% of my blood, last bp reading they could get was 46 over 13

How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant

Did you feel separated from your body? I clearly left my body and existed outside it

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Heaven
everything seemed so much brighter and I could sense all the others all around me

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness? More consciousness and alertness than normal

Were your thoughts speeded up? Faster than usual

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
I had no sense of time it was like time didn't have any meaning any longer

Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience it was like I had been looking through a fog that had just been lifted

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience I can not say I heard anything it was more of senseing everything

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Uncertain
there didn't seem to be anything around me at first it was like a void, I was aware of myself only till I entered the room

Did you see any beings in your experience? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased beings? Yes
I could sense loved ones all around me and I could feel my grandmother right beside me but I couldn't see her, but I knew she was there

Did you see or feel surrounded by a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes
everything around me seemed to glow like it was alive, it seemed to shimmer and pluse and everything was such a pure white

Did you seem to enter another world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm
it was like nothing I had ever seen before or since

What emotions did you feel during the experience? joy, love peace, happy, relief

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly understand everything? No

Did scenes from your past come back? No

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Uncertain
I didn't care about anything else I was home after a long trip

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
I wanted to step forward but couldn't

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Christian- Protestant
church ofjesus christ of latter day saints (aka mormon)

Have your religious practices changed? Yes
it gave me a personal realationship with God

What is your religion now? Christian- Protestant
church of jesus christ of latter day saints or mormon

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience
church does not what it's really like, I never considered myself a religious person, but when I was there I missed noone and nothing, everything was perfect for the first time in my life

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes
I became much closer to God

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Yes
words can not describe what it feels like but you know there is life after death and it's wonderful

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Yes
I could the presence of God all around me, he was everywhere, I could feel his love, it was the most powerful thing I have ever felt

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? Yes
I was blessed to see heaven and have no doubt about where I was

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes
we have no idea how powerful love can be, yes we love our spouse, our kids our family but what we experience here is just a drop in the bucket compaired to what we will experience there, we just have no idea what so ever, we are all just children

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life
no fear of death or missing anyone after I'm gone, I'm still here because my work here is not done

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes
I have become more understanding with others

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes
trying to find the right words because a verbal description doesn't do it justice

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience
I have never had a good memory but I remember this like it was burned into my brain

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? the feeling of being home was so strong

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes
after telling the doctors and seeing their reaction I kept it to myself for years before I shared it

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real
it was just as real as me answering these questions

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real
I knew it was real without a doubt

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes
I have been told of others that experience the same thing

Anything else to add? God is so loving we have no idea here