Charlie J PreBirth

Experience Description

My first experience occurred while I was still in the womb. I remember awakening with a great pain in my torso. I remember thinking what that feeling was because I did not understand it at the time. Suddenly I began to fade. Before fading out I felt an energy coming from above, and when we feel, we see. She has thick curly blonde hair; the world would call her Caucasian, but we are all the same, for the source is one. She wears what a woman would wear back in Roman times, but longer, white linen I would say. She took me from my mother's back, and we began to rise until we were just above my mother's shoulder. She was holding my hand with her left because I was over my mother's left shoulder and she was on the right. I believe she is also the one who placed me here. My dad was standing in front of my mother; he had just struck her. To his left was my sister and my cousin was on my mother's right. My sister said, "Stop, you will hurt the baby." My dad lifted his hand to hit her again. My sister, very young at the time, began trying to push him to leave. The one who was holding my hand said, "What is he doing?" I said, "I don't know," except we do not communicate with words from the mouth, but more like telepathy. He began to leave. I was then placed back into the womb, obviously healed because here I am. It is funny because when my mother and dad were here, my mother thought my sister told me. Dad and her think mother told me. My sister shakes her head in disbelief because I was not yet born, yet I know of it because I was there too. By the end of my mother's days here she understood why; she understood how.

My second experience happened when I was three, maybe four. My aunt and cousins came to stay with us because their house had caught fire and they needed a place to stay. One night our two cousins came running into my brother's and my room saying, "There's a man in your bathroom! There's a man in your bathroom!" My brother and I tried waking mom and stepdad but they would not wake. The four of us stepped into the hallway, and in the bathroom staring into the mirror was a figure of a man, a shadow darker than perfect darkness. That night we ran back to bed; no one went to the bathroom that night. I spoke with my brother about it and he remembers that thing, except he does not remember the first event, he remembers the second. Some short time later, a few days maybe, my brother woke me saying, "That thing is in our bathroom again." I got up and there it was, standing there staring into the mirror. We slid across the wall to the middle bedroom where our cousins were sleeping, but they wouldn't wake. My brother and I then began to go back to our room, sliding across the wall as if to stay hidden from it. After a couple of slides we began to run back. My brother thought that I had run back with him, but I stopped. I thought to myself why it was there, that it had to be there for a reason, and I wanted to help it. I turned and began slowly creeping towards the bathroom. Suddenly the shadow moved, looking toward me and stopping me because I did not expect that. It then slowly turned its head back towards the mirror. I ran back to bed and my brother was already asleep.

That morning I awoke ill. A fever had come over me and my stomach was very upset. My mother gave me medicine but it would not work. Some days later I was really ill. I could not hold food, had blistering high fevers, and this was constant. My mother began taking me to doctors one after another seeking help. The last doctor we saw gave me no more than three weeks to live. I remember him saying that my cell count was too low and that my organs were failing. I did not understand what the world called death at that time. My mother also told her siblings of what the doctors said. Three of my sisters, many of my cousins, and those around remember my sickness.

One day I asked my mother if I could go to bed. She was preparing dinner; it must have been during summer hours because it was daylight. When I lay down I remember feeling cold. I covered myself to about my shoulders, pulled my arms closer to my torso, and put my hands together on my chest. When you pass in this way it's like an old television set when you turn it off, how it is a large screen until it goes to a little dot right before it goes all the way out. It was a lot like that. Just before that I was suddenly looking down on myself in bed. I began going up. I wondered where I was going and I looked up. There was a man wearing a greyish robe, big around the sleeves, with long thick hair past his waist. When I looked at his face I could not see it, and it was as if he suddenly had a hood on. On the left side of his chest he has two names written in Hebrew, on his right three names, and down the middle of his chest in squares from the top to bottom were colors like the rainbow.

The first thing he showed me was the ringed planet and its three moons. There were two around it and when I looked up to my right I saw another. I asked him what it was, then his face appeared for the first time. I felt a mild anger from him and he said, "Nothing." He looks Middle Eastern, with a scruffy beard, and radiating bright golden light. He took me further and we arrived at a place like at the end of everything. Around me were these geometric squares that had light in them like the different colors of the rainbow. Suddenly we were inside. The first thing I see is a large long dinner table with many pillared chairs on one side and one on each end. There are maybe eleven or twelve chairs on the long end. It appeared grey in color like the whole place. I could feel the energy coming from the table and chairs. Everything is decorated like it is hand carved. The legs on the table felt large like tree trunks. Under the table was a lining. The pillars on the chairs had vines and fruits; one tiny angel is holding a lyre, the other had a bow and arrow. At the tips of the pillar chairs was something like what you would see atop a Russian cathedral.

Beyond the table are two dark archways that I could not see inside. Between them is a carved face with curly hair. I thought about what was inside the darkness of the archway, then I was inside, surrounded by darkness except I was different; I could see in this darkness as if I had a built-in light. I began walking through this darkness, then I saw the shadow that was in our bathroom, except he had his head down as if in shame. I asked if it needed help and it shook its head; it was stuck in place. Then a light appeared in the distance, a golden light, and the one who took me there appeared, pulling me out of the darkness. That place is Sheol.

We were before the table again facing the chairs. As we began going down the table left to right, only on the first four are there names. The names were in light on the backs of the chairs, not golden but many colors moving like water, dominantly an off-white color. Then the names evaporated. I was focused on the third chair for some reason, something familiar about it. I asked him if we could eat. He wasn't sure and went somewhere to find out, returned and said "Yes" in a childlike way. Suddenly I'm at the table. I sit in the fourth chair. I remember looking to my left and counting three chairs. He was standing in front of me on the opposite side of the table; my head barely could look over the top because I was so young.

Suddenly a plate appeared. On the top right was a piece of bread like a dinner roll. In front of me it looked like rice, and on the left was an oval burnt piece of meat, black almost like liver. I admit it did not look very appetizing, and I knew I liked bread, but I chose to eat what was in front of me that looked like rice. I reached with my left hand and took one bite and instantly I felt my spirit become half full. Then the plate and the food disappeared. The one standing before me, his face suddenly appeared, radiating golden light, and he was smiling. His face was no longer hidden. Then I felt someone else in the distance but wasn't sure what it was I was feeling. I then asked him to go home to my mother.

Upon arriving back, when I awoke I was healed and no longer sick. I ran to my mother telling her where I had just been and what had just occurred. It is the first time I heard the name Jesus. I thought to myself, who is that? And my brother, the one who took me to the table, was still there with me. He said, "I don't know," and went somewhere to find out. On his return, which was almost instant, he said he is real and he is sleeping. I was given a name then that I cannot pronounce because I do not speak that tongue.

Where I had just come from it didn't make sense to sleep because we don't sleep. I guess by being so well connected, or so freshly returned, I was connected differently. I was able to search heaven and he wasn't there. I searched here and he wasn't here. I looked at my brother, the one who took me to the table, and it wasn't him. I began looking into my heart and felt like when I focus on this light it began coming brighter, then it was as if I was distracted by my brother.

Before dinner was served I asked my mother if I could go to bed without eating. She was okay with it because I was sick all the time and couldn't eat. While in bed I thought of the one who took me to the table, then suddenly he came down from the heavens to the left side of the bed. I felt him, and it is like when we feel we see and when we feel we hear, so though I could not see him with my physical eyes I could see him almost like in my mind. We began going over my life. I knew how many children I would have. I knew how many boys and girls. I knew by how many women I would have them by. I knew that I would marry the third. He said then you're going to divorce her and marry her. Suddenly a vision appeared of a woman skipping with her daughter. The first thing I noticed was an angry man carrying a briefcase, and as I looked across the street I saw her skipping with her daughter, and it's like he zoomed in on her face. I have been waiting for her since that day.

Then we thought of the end. He wasn't sure and went somewhere to find out. Understand that every time he went somewhere to find out it was almost instant. He returned in haste. I could feel excitement from him. He calmed himself quickly and said, "In the end you will truly be happy and in the end you will truly be happy."

I then began to think about where he kept going for answers. From my bed, suddenly I was before our father. When I arrived, the one that was by his right foot looked surprised and looked up at him. She has curly blonde hair with a white band around it to hold it up. She wore what a woman would wear in Roman times. The one by his left foot has thick curly dark hair, dressed similarly with a band in her hair, and had more of a curious look. The one above his left shoulder had a look of, "Hello little one, where did you come from?" He wears a robe, holding a large book in his right hand, looks older, balding in the middle with a goatee. The one above his right shoulder had the most beautiful smile I have ever seen. He has dark hair, short with a bang, younger, wearing a robe holding scales in his left hand.

Everything there is golden light; I was engulfed in it. Then I was by father's right hand. His throne is see-through but solid, almost like crystal, radiating golden light which shimmers with rainbows. When I arrived at his side, the four were back in place. The two women were sitting solid, straight, and strong, looking forward. The ones above the left and right shoulder had a hard and stern look, and the one that once had the most beautiful smile had a look of someone that you or anyone would fear, but I was not afraid.

Father wears what you would see the Romans wear, except longer. It's like white linen and it drapes over his right ankle. He wears sandals. He is dark brown skin with a red tint. He is built strong. His hands are huge. He has thick, large, long hair like that of a lion, all white, and his beard the same. Every hair is perfect, not one is overlapping another, and in each strand shimmers of rainbows. His eyes are not a specific color; they spin like wheels. They look like the universe, like the galaxy, like creation. On the inner ring of his eyes it spins clockwise and on the outer counter-clockwise.

For the next few days I am unsure of the order of the events, but will put them in order the best that I can.

I believe the next day my mother put a Bible in front of me and asked me to read. This was after she tried to show me lettering, in which Hebrew letters appeared in light under the alphabet. Since she saw that I wouldn't trace, I guess she would try reading. Before I began reading, the letters on the pages began moving and forming new words. I began to read; I don't know how, I just knew. After reading a few passages from the book that formed new words, my mother said, "Where does it say that at?" She came to where I was reading and the words or letters moved back to where they were. I told my mother that the words moved and they are not the same anymore. She then pointed to a verse and asked me to read. I began reading. Then my mother said, "Hold on, how did you learn how to read?" She asked if the daycare teacher taught me and I said no, because all she ever made us do was sleep. We went up to the school; I am not sure if it was that day or another, but she asked the teacher and the teacher said no. She said some children just know how to read and my mother said, "No they don't," and we walked out.

Maybe that next day, hundreds of white butterflies appeared on our porch. I remember her saying, "Where did all these butterflies come from?" and I said they are mine. I remember feeling they aren't mine, but a gift from father.

I believe we were heading to the doctors because, remember, I only had weeks to live and I was suddenly better. After tests and evaluations the doctor was standing there. I remember him shaking his head because I went from a point of no return—my organs were failing, my cell count was too low to replenish—and suddenly I'm sitting there in full health. My mother told me before we arrived not to tell the doctor what I had seen and where I had gone.

Another day I woke up and came downstairs. It was rainy. My mom had a television on and a Lucky Charms commercial came on. I remember it saying there's gold in them Lucky Charms, and they have the children chasing the rainbow trying to catch the leprechaun and his gold, and before they arrive it disappears. I remember thinking if a rainbow appears I will catch it. By the end of the commercial it had stopped raining and the sun came out. I asked my mother if I could go outside and she said yes after looking outside to see if it was too wet to play. When I stepped out of the front door, two houses down was a rainbow on the sidewalk. I ran to it thinking that there was gold at the end of it. When I arrived there was no gold, and I thought maybe it is on the other side, but there is a rainbow in front of me. I began looking through the rainbow, not realizing at the time that it was a covenant that father made with me. While running back to the house I realized my mother witnessed it.

Another day me and my brother were in back playing. I began climbing a tree and I felt something lift me up by under my arms, which made me slip and impale my inner arm. I was screaming; it didn't hurt at all. I told them I thought my skin was going to tear. When my mother took me to the doctor to get stitches, after stitching he realized that it formed a perfect tree with a twisted branch, a marking that brings me remembrance every day of who I am. The doctor, after saying it, said, "Hmm," like he began to think or remember something. My mother then grabbed my hand and we walked out of that office.

I am unsure the order of the events again after my return, but they were all just days apart. Of course there are a few missing things that I did not mention that assure things for me, but it is for me.

So in my NDE I was taken to the table, I ate at the table, I became half full, was shown my life, given my endings, given a name, took a covenant at the foot of a rainbow, was given a specific marking, was given a wife, been before the father and the four that surround him from my very bed from here, and all things have come to pass except her and my father.

After returning I knew things other than reading. I remembered things not from this life. I remember the beginning. I remember the deal. I remember why I'm here. I remember who I truly am. I remember the wicked one and the others falling. I remember not everything, but much, and though greatly difficult to believe after all this time, a truth, it is almost time.

This is my third testimony and I will admit it takes a lot of work; this may be my last. The others are with the Salvation Army. Though I do not believe much in hope, for there is no surety in it, I hope to see you all in the end. I am the fourth. I am the last that will come.

Background Information:

Gender: Male

Date of NDE: 11/15/1982

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes
I was battered in the womb, and around age three, I was sickened by a shadow that witnesses also saw. If you can find my medical report, the doctor gave me only about three weeks to live. If not, my mother told my aunts about it and my diagnosis, among other things.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant

Did you feel separated from your body? No

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? After I ate at the table
Though I am alert still until this day, everything there is heightened.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness? More consciousness and alertness than normal

Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Time seemed to go faster or slower than usual
It feels like real time. Father can tell us our entire life in heaven from birth to finish and return in less than a second in this place.

Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience I could come face to face with something that was at the edge of everything in less than a second.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience It was more like telepathy, very clear.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

Did you see any beings in your experience? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased beings? Yes
No one dies. There is the Creator, the one true Father, and the four, along with us sons and daughters. There is another who's always with me; it's like a man and a woman, but they are one. I believe the world calls them Jeter.

Did you see or feel surrounded by a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes
When my brother's face appeared, and when I went that night from bed to Father into the full light, it is so bright, brighter than the sun.

Did you seem to enter another world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm
The supreme heaven and the table. Heaven is huge.

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Content, joy, happiness, True Love (there is a difference). I felt at home, and it is wild, but I know them all yet I do not.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly understand everything? Everything about myself or others
I know without knowing, without studying; it is just there. This is one part that I just cannot explain, but at the same time I know how I know.

Did scenes from your past come back? No

Did scenes from the future come? I was shown my wife and went to heaven.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? No

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? No comment
The first writing in this life that I remember looked like ancient Hebrew, and that was when I was taken to our Father's table.

Have your religious practices changed? No

What is your religion now? Other or several faiths
There is only one Truth, one Faith, and one way.

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience
I was a baby. I knew nothing of belief or religion.

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
My brother took me to the table. The darkness tried to take my physical life. We call him 'The Dark'; he is in Sheol. The Father and the four surround him. I still see them and feel them. My brother is my teacher, the one who took me there.

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? Yes
The one called Jesus is here. His name is not Jesus; he is literally in the flesh reincarnated, born in November of 1979 on the 15th, at the middle hour noon. Jupiter was visible in the sky all day, and there was also an anomaly: a thick fog that two wicked things used to witness his birth.

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? Yes
Stay away from the dark, and my name was given also. It is not my government name, of course; it sounds Hebrew.

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Yes
When I ate, I became connected fully to the one we all are, to him, and to one another, but each separate.

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Yes
I still have Father and the others with me. Before my brother went back up that night, he said, 'Stay away from the dark.' I believe I forgot to mention that in my NDE experience.

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes
Purpose of life and my personal duties here. I am the savior of souls.

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? Uncertain
I remember what Father asks of us, but this is not from this life. There is more that I will reveal in time.

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? Yes
The information is myself, the experience, brothers, my Father—all of them. My Father is 100% real; heaven, the one you all call Jesus, the wicked one, the horseman—it is real. There are four shadows still here.

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? Uncertain
I knew it would be hard because the one that placed me here said so, and Father. We chose to come; we had four choices for our lives, each with four qualities, but she made each choice sound so wonderful when there are consequences for choosing the wrong one, for it shows your true heart's desire.

During your experience, did you gain information about love? No

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Unknown
Every day is a change. At that age, would you not agree?

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? No

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience
All I think about now is Father; I feel something in my heart pulsing a light, and every day, all day, I think of him and the event.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes
I see things before they happen and know what people are thinking. I have witnesses to me having conversations with them, and they never say a word. I love doing that just to see the awe, the 'how' in their face while I'm doing it—it is amazing. I know when bad things are about to happen, but I do not know specifically what it is or what is coming. At times, I can see into the hearts of many. I can connect with all life really. I have had animals in both the wild and zoos mimic what I show them. I get my lessons a lot more now that I am closer to awakening completely.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? All of it, but Father the most.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes
I wrote one for Salvation Army Indianapolis last year to Captain Greg, another the year before in Cleveland to Anthony, and something that I have been telling since that day.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real
I do not feel comfortable sharing other things that happened, like objects moving and angels coming from heaven to help me; I feel them when they do. My mother witnessed many things; maybe my aunt knows more of what she told her. Every part of my life has passed except two.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real
100%. Maybe if there were no witnesses to so much, then maybe.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes
This is my experience alone, except for the witnesses, of course. But also know that I can't witness my passing except me. I do have witnesses to the diagnosis, what my mother told them, and the paperwork.

Anything else to add? Another is coming soon.