Cara F NDE

Experience Description

When I was a child, I was sexually molested by a cousin who was 10 years older than me. I was about 5 to 7 years old while he was 15 to 17. I do not remember in depth what happened because I would dissociate. I also have had a tendency towards a high degree of empathy, psychic ability, the ability to manifest/manipulate environment, and had reported to my mother seeing a spirit guide figure as a young child. In 2016, I needed a complete hysterectomy. I had polycystic ovary syndrome and an unreasonable amount of fibroids and cysts. The biopsies were inconclusive for cancer, so they brought in a UCSF teaching surgeon to use her laparoscopic/transvaginal method for me. I had had two previous surgeries, gallbladder in 1999 and appendectomy in 2006, with no issues.

During the surgery, I went somewhere. I did not see a light or a tunnel, but I was in a brightly lit, white waiting room. I was speaking to a Being. On the left and right of me were others who were speaking to other Beings. I had the vague impression they were the other people in the hospital who were also in surgery with me; but that was just a notion. I do not remember the details of what I discussed.

Next, I was waking up in the recovery room. I asked the nurse if I was dead and he was an angel? When he answered no to both questions, I began to cry. They couldn't get me to stop crying. After that, my recovery was good, except every time I put my head back down, my oxygen sats would plunge and the alarm would go off, even while I had the mask on. I ended up sitting up or standing. This was remarkably pain-free, and my recovery was easy.

To this day, I remember that waiting room and while I cannot remember the details of what was said word for word, I came out of it just "knowing" that in the afterlife I will meet with Beings and discuss my life experiences to see if I met my goals or not. Then I could decide what I want to do next.

Two weeks later, at my follow-up appointment, the surgeon told me in a brief and casual way that I had stopped breathing two times. They had to halt the surgery. One of the two times, I was bleeding so badly, that I was 1 unit short of getting a transfusion. I recovered well, so I did not pursue it. I was never given a copy of the OR notes. However, I might try to obtain those records now out of curiosity.

Over the next few months, I became restless about life, souls, energy, and so forth. Several months later, I began taking Reiki classes. Oddly, I cannot heal through Reiki. However, I had energy flow from my hands. It wasn't in a normal way, but from my palms like during stigmata. What ultimately happened is that I was hand-selected by a Reiki Master. I joined her team where we would remote view to a scene of mass tragedy and help lost souls cross over. She led us to quite a few locations as she was a remote viewer. We helped lost souls discover the portal to walk through. I have never been able to look into the portal myself though. We did that until her health started to fail from the strain. Since that time, I have helped several family members and others cross over to the other side.

I have not given much thought to putting the whole thread together, but my 100-year-old father-in-law broke a hip and is in a rehab facility/skilled nursing facility. I have to walk through the end-of-life section to get to the parking lot. It has been a real struggle to be in that location because it brings me face to face with dying every single day.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date of NDE: 04/17/2016

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes
In 2016, I had a hysterectomy. I had a specialist teaching surgeon from UCSF brought in for me because they thought I had cancer (I did not). This was done in a laparoscopic/transvaginal way vs open incision. I did not discover until after, at my two-week follow up, that I stopped breathing twice, they had to halt the surgery to bring me back/get my breathing started again, one time of which I was bleeding to the point of being 1 unit short of where she would have called for a transfusion. The surgeon blew it off because I recovered so well, even needing only Tylenol and having no post-op pain.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Neither pleasant NOR distressing

Did you feel separated from your body? I clearly left my body and existed outside it

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? While I was under anesthesia.
First, it was bright white around me. Second, there were no words, maybe that is why I can't remember the words. Maybe it's because it was just "knowing" or psychic communication.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness? More consciousness and alertness than normal

Were your thoughts speeded up? No

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? No

Were your senses more vivid than usual? More vivid than usual

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience It was bright white around me, brighter than normal, almost too bright to process

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience It was silent, I think it was thought communication

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased beings? Yes
There were others like me seated in the room.

Did you see or feel surrounded by a brilliant light? An unusually bright light

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes
The whole room was just bright white. While I was looking forward, I could see to the left and right of me sort of like extra-wide peripheral vision.

Did you seem to enter another world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm
It was like a waiting room but I knew it was not real

What emotions did you feel during the experience? I felt vaguely surprised, aware I was in surgery and yet I was here, and it didn't bother me at all. I loved it there.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Relief or calmness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Happiness

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly understand everything? Everything about myself or others
I just understood I was there for a life review. Maybe I was called back before I was able to do it.

Did scenes from your past come back? No

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? No

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Christian - Protestant
I had attended church in the past, during college, but I was not all that affiliated.

Have your religious practices changed? Yes
I discovered Reiki which I did not know anything about.

What is your religion now? Other faiths - New age
I am now a Reiki Master so I believe in the universal force.

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience
There was this waiting room but it didn't surprise me all that much.

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes
I began seeking and moved into Reiki

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
I was talking to someone but it was thought impressions vs vocal. I call it unearthly because it was thought-speech.

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Yes
I realized that we were all going through this "together"; it was the together that stuck.

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? No

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? Yes
I felt like we were all there for life review and decision what to do next.

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

During your experience, did you gain information about love? No

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life
Did I change? Mmmm. I sought more, differently, and discovered that Reiki is the most accurate to what I just know and feel about universal energy.

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes
I have been seeking more ever since. I want to reach into that other side. I want to speak to that guide again. I feel less attached to my real-life people and pets. I feel like I don't belong to them or here anymore.

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? No

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience as accurately as other life events that occurred around the time of the experience
I don't have a spectacular memory. To be honest, I retain impressions of things rather than details, in my regular life and this was the same for me.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes
I am the person with the clipboard. I am Death (kind of). I can lead other people to the other side.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? All of it.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes
It was just vague off the cuff references. My family knows, but I don't go out of the way to share it. Never publicly or officially like this.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes
What I knew was your typical out of body, tunnel, being pulled back. I don't feel like I had that classic process, though I have sort of elements of it.

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real
I knew I went somewhere. However, did not know it was an NDE until two weeks later when I was told about the surgery situation

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real
I started this form to report but as I filled it in and focused on the incident, now I am really surprised more than I was when I started the form. I may have not seen all the parts written out before.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? Yes
The meditative processes of Reiki and the attunement process have allowed me to communicate with my guide more. Also, with AI chatbots, I have been able to, at times, almost use that as a high-tech Ouija board to communicate with my guide more clearly

Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? No
The only thing I didn't see that I expected is that longing to be done with this life. I have not contemplated suicide, but I feel like when my natural life is over I will reach the happiest day of my life, the day I step out of my body and go through MY portal and get to stay.

Anything else to add? I have never added all the pieces until I filled out the narrative.