Brenda K STE

Experience Description

I had gone on vacation to visit family at their request for my birthday. We flew halfway across the Pacific Ocean and halfway across America, spending a decent amount of money only to be turned away and rejected. It hit my heart like a shotgun blast. It wasn’t the first time, but it was definitely going to be the last.

I instantly got sick with what felt like the flu because I had so much shock to my system. We flew home after my fever had spiked. On the last leg of the flight, my head had horrible pressure and my ears felt like my eardrums had ruptured and were bleeding, but that wasn't the case.

The next day, I was going to have a meeting with my colleague and friend in which I channel answers from the council related to business. We usually have a list of questions for the council, hit record, and I channel answers, but this time that is not what happened at all.

I could not access consciousness. I was not psychic at all, and I have been doing readings and so much more for over 35 years worldwide. That was the scariest feeling in my life. I have never not been psychic. I have always had all the gifts wide open. My head felt like I had really thick layers of gauze, and my ability to connect was completely blocked. I paused the recording because I didn’t know what to make of it, but then I started the recording again and decided to describe what I was feeling because I had never felt like that before.

I told myself to push through it, and I ended up hearing a beautiful voice singing like in *The Little Mermaid*, so I followed that tone. I felt my head lifting up and me wanting to go forward as I felt weightless. I found myself in the middle of the Pleiades, and I just wanted to go higher. My friend is asking me questions and I’m able to answer, but for most of the things there were no words to describe it. I kept going so far that the sky seemed black and the stars were very few and far between. I came to a place where there were only two ways to go. To the left was the beautiful white light that I know so very well, but they said I couldn’t go that way this time. I had to go towards the black hole on the right, and I wasn’t very comfortable with that decision, but I felt compelled.

I took myself towards the black hole by intending to go over there and found that there was a long tube through which I could see many, many souls like little bright dots being deposited into the black hole. I went through the black hole but not through the tube and found myself in another universe, once again so far out that everything was black and the stars were few and far between. I asked my friend to ask me another question not on our list because I wanted to see if I could access psychic knowledge, and I could not. It felt like that was not the thing to do at that time; normally the council comes through immediately, but not then.

I understood that I was too far out in the galaxy dimensions and needed to come down and land somewhere. I could feel different layers of density as I came down and landed on a golden ball that resembled molten lava but was not hot. The energy inside the ball was constantly moving, never stopping, a bright, bright, bright orangey gold. I floated down and landed softly, but I no longer could tell that it was me because it didn’t resemble me, though I knew it was me. I remember asking why this was happening and being told that it was part of an initiation.

I knew there were other souls around me; I could feel them but I could not see them. There were these giant beings that I can only describe as masks but with beautiful benevolent energy. They had flowing energy vibrational streams behind them, and although they didn’t speak to me, I knew they were there to help me. The ball that I had landed on changed colors as different beings came around. They went from the orangey color to blue first for my third eye chakra and then blue for my throat chakra. They also were going up my cervical spine through the brain stem into the center of my brain for a very deep healing. I could feel the colors; I could hear frequencies. There was no language needed; in fact, there was none given. It was all telepathic. Communication was instant and certain but loving.

The ball turned green and so did everything else. There were three versions of me at the same time, and I was questioning that in the recording. I wondered why I was looking at myself looking at myself. The second version of me had green lasers coming from my eyes that were assisting in what was now beginning to be the healing of my heart.

Not my physical heart, but more like my higher heart or even my heart chakra. They showed me it was so full of holes there was almost no heart left. I had taken so much damage over all the years that if I had gone through one more shocking experience I would have likely died of a heart attack. There was light rapidly going through all the holes; I couldn’t even explain it in any other way than at the vet I had seen what it looks like for a heart to have an incredible amount of heart worms. I know it’s a disgusting analogy, but there were so many superfast light tubes going through all the holes in my heart that that’s what it made me think of.

My friend was accustomed to asking me very good questions because we do channeling at least twice weekly and record the sessions. I was telling her about this beautiful healing and how they were reinfusing me with divine love. The feeling was intensely peaceful, and everything was only for the purpose of love. I felt so grateful and amazed and expansive. I knew I was close to home; this was not my first time but my third. Plus, when I help cross souls over, I get to feel it briefly. I know this energy so well.

The healing was over, and I was telling my friend how great I felt. I was excited, happily talking about it when I thought I should check to see if they were finished with me. They took me to another location in that same dimension, and the ball underneath me turned solid pure gold and I became translucent. I was becoming just a soul. It was at that time that my physical body felt slumped over; the phone was on my shoulder on speaker, still recording, but I started getting so incredibly sleepy. I remembered this feeling from my first two experiences, and from times as a kid being “taken.” My speech started getting slower, and breathing was not something that I wanted to do.

My friend was still on the phone and could feel something had greatly shifted. She was getting very concerned because my answers started being fewer and far between. She asked me what was happening and I said that I just want to go to sleep. They told me that I could stay forever and I said that out loud to her: I can stay forever. All I have to do is go to sleep, and I really wanted to. I knew that I didn’t have to come back, but I somehow also felt that it was the right thing to do to come back.

At this point my friend knew full well what was happening and was wrestling with what she should do. Should she let me have my experience? Should she try to keep me here? Should she call for help and tell them that there could be someone who died in their sleep at the other end of the phone? She kept trying to find a way to trigger me to want to come back, but I just wanted to sleep. I had finally made it back to the beautiful love that I have been homesick for for so many years. In fact, I can remember being a child and being incredibly homesick for nowhere on earth.

I was trying to go to sleep because I knew if I fell asleep it would look like I died in my sleep and I could stay there forever like they said. But my friend kept asking me what she should do. Eventually I felt I should bring myself back. Nobody was bringing me back and nobody told me to go back, but I felt that that was probably the right thing to do. I felt so heavy, like I was trying to swim through the deepest river of molasses in such slow motion. I described it like trying to come out of a very comfy bed when you just don’t want to wake up. My friend said I have work to do and I’m needed here. I told her I don’t care. I just don’t care. I want to care but I don’t. What I didn’t tell my friend was that I was dying and I was fine with it.

I don’t know how I was able to talk through that process; it was not easy, but as you can tell I’m a very talkative person. When I finally got back and opened my eyes, she asked me how I felt and everything was so dull. It paled in comparison, and I was instantly regretting not having stayed when I fully could have. I couldn’t even be grateful for the beautiful healing they did on my heart. I was so angry with myself for bringing myself back.

It has been one week now and I went through an entire range of emotions. I was incredibly angry with myself for bringing myself back when I knew full well I could have stayed if I just fell asleep. I no longer had the drive for my work; I didn’t feel fully integrated and still don’t. I was very depressed and started looking for help because even though I don’t feel right just yet, my clients still need me and I can connect to the council again and I am able to help them.

Two days ago we wrote down a lot of questions and we went right back to the council, and I asked them why I feel like this. They said it’s a spiritual depression, so I have an appointment on Sunday to speak with a person who specializes in this area. I know I’m supposed to teach from this experience. I know I am meant to help other people who come back with spiritual depression as well. But I also know that I received a beautiful deep healing because I didn’t even know that I couldn’t take any more pain.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date of NDE: August 20, 2025

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Uncertain
I was losing consciousness by falling into a deep sleep

How do you consider the content of your experience? Both pleasant AND distressing

Did you feel separated from your body? I clearly left my body and existed outside it

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? All of it
The only difference is I could see more than I ever have while I’m on the other side. I had no idea that there was such a thing as a reparation station for souls who have taken on too much damage.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness? Normal consciousness and alertness

Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Even though the recording is only 30 minutes long it felt like I was there for a very long time

Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience Far more crisp and I saw almost too much. Those beings and our creator weren’t physical, they were a vibration that I could see

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience I had hearing issues just before which I did not have during or since

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Uncertain
I went through a black hole that had a tunnel in it but I bypassed the tunnel. I flew in over it but still through the black hole

Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased beings? Yes
I saw hundreds of souls being deposited through the tunnel, like a steady stream

Did you see or feel surrounded by a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes
Beautiful colors, there was the white light but I wasn’t allowed to go that way this time.

Did you seem to enter another world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm
I went to another dimension, another galaxy which was accessible through the black hole

What emotions did you feel during the experience? LOVE

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly understand everything? Everything about the universe
I could know anything but they also told me it was time to heal and rest and be

Did scenes from your past come back? No

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes
I had permission to stay but I just had to fall asleep to do so

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a definite conscious decision to return to life
I chose to bring myself back and I’m still not fully sure why

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Other or several faiths
I’m spiritual, not religious.

Have your religious practices changed? No

What is your religion now? Other or several faiths
Still spiritual, feel like I’ve seen and know too much. It’s my THIRD time!!!!

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience
Since this was not my first time, I could recognize how it feels to die, how it feels to be in the divine presence and how homesick you can feel afterwards. The only thing that was new was the traveling in different galaxies and witnessing as well as participating in a divine healing.

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes
I am learning about spiritual depression after NDE

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
There were beings but there were no audible voices. It was more telepathic thoughts.

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? Yes
I did not know that there is a healing station in a different galaxy

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Yes
There is a love that is so profound that words cannot describe it. That is home and that is where we come from. When you’re in that presence you absolutely know you are in the presence of the divine creator

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes
I know that I got reset somehow and that I am to use my NDE’s to help others

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? Yes
I saw that most of the things everyone thinks about are so incredibly petty and self-centered and self-serving. We come here to love

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? Yes
in my first NDE, 34 years ago I understood clearly instantly that there was life after death. That there was no real thing as death, only the body dies.

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes
Only love matters. The way we give it the way we receive it how we think of it. We come from divine love. That’s where our home is. We all carry that love in us and have the ability to share it and heal both ourselves and other others with it.

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Unknown
Spiritual depression

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes
I’m gentler

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? No

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience
I will never forget this and I have short term memory loss from a near fatal accident

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The healing and the feeling of bringing myself back when I TRULY didn’t want or have to

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes
Since my friend and I were on the phone recording it, we talked about it immediately. I shared it with my husband the next day because he could tell I was different. I then shared it with two of my best friends because they could also tell I was different. I wasn’t my usual happy self. They were very interested in listening to the recording and afterwards have checked on me daily and keep telling me that they’re so happy that I am still here.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes
I have had an NDE 34 years ago and 11 years ago

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes
I believe I have told you a lot of it. Even in the recording I’m not saying as much as I’m experiencing at the time.

Anything else to add? Feel free to ask me anything