Brandon D NDE

Experience Description

I was relaxing in a tent after getting off work. It had stormed that day, rained fairly hard, and was just letting up. There was a large tree over my tent. I didn't know it at the time, but the tree was dead. The weight of the rain water soaked into the tree, causing it to break. I heard crackling and looked out of the zipper door of the tent. I saw the tree falling toward me. I knew I didn't have time to get out of the tent, so I dived towards the back of the tent between the wall and the air mattress. I felt a very heavy smack at the back of my head with a force I could only describe as being hit by a train. I was pushed into the ground while I tried to break my fall with my arms. At this time, I knew would die. Yet, I struggled to breathe and could feel myself getting weaker and weaker. I was getting extremely hot and starting to panic.

The next thing I know, I'm in an endless black expanse. I had a 360 degree view and could see my body in a sitting position. It was like I was on a cushion of air, relaxing in absolute peace and tranquility. On earth, I have tinnitus. Not only was it gone, but I didn't even think about tinnitus. I didn't think about the event that just happened. It was like I was so at peace, I didn't even have the desire to think about things. Nor did I feel any pressure to move on from the state.

But eventually, I was surrounded by thousands of holograms like TV screens. They showed the various important moments in my life; private things I had done, and things I had done with others. I saw, felt, and heard events in first person, second person, and third person. When I was yelling at someone, it was like I was reliving that moment through my own eyes, ears, and mind. But I was also reliving it as if I were the person being yelled at. I could see the look on my face as I was angry and I could hear how condescending I was. I could also see it as an outside observer.

I was mentally asked, 'What did you learn?’ And I learned that all the pain in my life were through my choice to be avoidant. I had been avoidant of risks, avoidant of thinking I was good enough and deserving of good things so I didn't try. I still had thoughts like 'I'm not good enough for this dream job, so I won't apply' and etc.

Next, I was given an image. It reminded me of one of those maze toys where a silver ball has to be rolled around through a wooden maze while being mindful of the holes so you didn’t lose your ball. It was sort of like that except that there were orbs of light going around all over the place. Sometimes the orbs would cross each other, but they never caused interference. There were countless orbs. And they were zipping around really fast and would appear and disappear in different places. I interpreted that as the souls' journeys. That we play a part in each other's journey.

I was then given a choice to stay or return back to my body. I knew that either choice was okay. I said, 'I caused a lot of pain. I wish to return so I could heal the pain I put onto others.' Instantly I was back in the body.

My lungs burned from struggling to breathe, and I was drenched in sweat. I realized I had a spare phone in my back pocket. My hands were trapped under my ribcage, and the tree was on my back, but I managed to free them and reach for my phone. I called 911. Fire rescue took nine minutes to arrive. Breathing was excruciating, so I called my then-fiancée and had the paramedic speak to her. At the hospital, I finally felt safe enough to relax. I was exhausted. I saw my parents out of the corner of my eye but was too weak to speak or wave.

The next thing I remember is waking up in the ICU, covered in tubes and wires. My then-fiancée’s father was there. That scared me, since he disliked me. He assured me he was visiting on her behalf.

After the accident, people told me I had become angry, hostile, and negative. My nickname used to be "Superman," but now I wore a diaper and couldn’t walk properly. I didn’t recognize myself.

Once I was medically and financially stable, I reflected deeply. I realized that the vision I described wasn’t the only insight I’d received. I developed what I call the Unified Library Hypothesis. It is an ambitious idea blending multiverse theory, time dilation, universe expansion, the Mandela Effect, the double-slit experiment paradox, and more. As I remembered my NDE, my anger faded. I began to see my life in a new light.

And then it hit me: I think I came into this life to answer two questions. Can love defeat hate? Can courage defeat fear? Not just in isolated cases, but universally. I remembered being seven years old, learning about war for the first time and crying for days. I swore my purpose was to show the world a better way; one without hatred and violence. As for courage, well, I’m still in the closet as LGBTQ.

During my NDE, I didn’t see angels, demons, humans, or animals. I didn’t even see myself as a physical form in that cushion of air. It was more like I was pure consciousness, communicating with one other formless entity.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date of NDE: 07/16/2015

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes
I was crushed by a tree with initial impact to my skull, ultimately the tree landed on my back, pinning me face down into the ground inside a plastic tent.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant

Did you feel separated from your body? I lost awareness of my body

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Early to halfway
I understood very complex things with ease. My normal thoughts were things like 'Are we alone in the universe'. But I was given an understanding that is still pushing the boundaries of quantum physics and cosmology to this day. I wish I could explain it in a way people could understand.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness? More consciousness and alertness than normal

Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
It took some time to figure out a chronology that made sense. The life review projections seemed to happen all at once.

Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience Crystal clear and 360 degrees. It's hard to explain given our cone of vision normally. Even panoramic photos are warped and hard to visually understand.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience I have tinnitus and it was gone during my NDE

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Uncertain
I think I briefly experienced a tunnel. But I can't be sure that was my experience or something I picked up hearing from other stories. I'm trying to be honest so I can't be sure.

Did you see any beings in your experience? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased beings? No

Did you see or feel surrounded by a brilliant light? No

Did you see an unearthly light? No

Did you seem to enter another world? Some unfamiliar and strange place
Imagine infinite space without stars or planets. But it's not cold. The life review projections were at a comfortable distance (whatever that word means in this context).

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Comfort, joy, peace, acceptance. After my life review, a sense of determination and duty.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly understand everything? Everything about the universe
Unified Library Hypothesis: Abridged from 40 pages to a few short sentences (haha): Every dimension is a collection of variations of the dimension below it. At 0D we have what some call God. Once we get to 5D we have superpositions (think time travel). At 6D we have the Many Worlds Hypothesis. The Mandela Effect comes from consciousness jumping from one version of a book to another. Time is a literal physical thing like electrons, and they are the dark energy in the universe, with each branch creating a new universe with an umbillical that is causing the universe to expand. 'God' is experimenting with 'what if' of different big bangs.

Did scenes from your past come back? I remembered many past events
I had a life review with what must have been several hundred events in my life. Times I ignored a pet for the sake of my addiction. Or times I yelled at a girlfriend. Or when I won a trophy. Every event gave context to each other.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a definite conscious decision to return to life
I caused a lot of pain to many people. I felt it my duty to heal that pain.

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Unaffiliated- Atheist

Have your religious practices changed? Yes
Practices, no. Beliefs, yes.

What is your religion now? Other or several faiths
A mix of Hinduism + Panentheism + Buddhism, with parts of each. According to ChatGPT, these are the closest 3

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience
I think the biggest difference from what I expected was absolute peace and tranquility and the presence of absolute love and acceptance. Terrible things I have done seemed to have no negative judgement on me such as 'You're bad'. It was always 'What did you learn?'

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes
I seek to understand more than I seek to control. Before the experience, I hardly ever cared about understanding. 'You do what I want, is that understood' was my way of thinking. Now, I seek to understand your position first.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I heard a voice I could not identify
It was like a telepathic communication. Not like when you are thinking to yourself and you imagine your own voice saying the words. Not like 'God booming through the clouds'. It was different, like a silent knowing or a silent wondering.

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Yes
A combination of the life review perspectives and the wooden maze showed me that we are all on this journey zipping around and we impact each other but never interfere with each other. This told me that what we think of interference (getting fired etc) were part of the paths that these 'orbs' were taking. I understood this during the experience.

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? No
I guess that depends on what is meant by 'supreme being'. I believe we are splinters/characters in a grand 'what if' experiment. 'What if these were the initial conditions and constants? What would it be like? What would it feel like to be at this location at this time in this form doing this thing?' In that way, we are ALL 'God'. Me, my neighbor, you, the desk, the sun, everything.

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? Yes
During what I explained earlier about the wooden puzzle analogy, orbs of energy were popping in and out of existence and I got the distinct understanding that these were an analogy of souls.

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? Yes
It is part of my journey through the maze to experience this thing or that thing. And it is part of someone else's journey through the maze to provide that experience. As seen by the orbs crossing paths but never creating an interference pattern (as what you would expect when 2 waves of water might collide)

During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes
True love is acceptance. 'I love my wife' is not true love because there is condition (wife or not wife). The only true love is unconditional. That means everyone and everything. Humans are incapable of that, but in my NDE, that's what I felt.

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life
I have become at peace with my life as a whole. I still struggle with things like anyone else (lazy landlords, budgeting money, etc). But I no longer have a doomsday perspective on it.

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes
I made amends with all the people I could. Some people were just unwilling to let go of their hate and some people lost their lives before I could make amends. But I follow the golden rule at all times now.

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes
How do you explain the idea of seeing yourself but it not being you that you see? How do you explain a warm cushion of love but also a void of nothingness? My life review wasn't exactly like seeing a thousand TV screens, but that's the best description I can come up with.

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience
I recorded my account of the experience once I became medically stable. A couple years later, I recounted the experience again and checked the video. It matched up. However, I do not have nearly that level of consistency in other areas of my life.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The life review was very eye-opening. How you treat people matters. A smile could be what keeps a stranger from ending their life. Every little thing matters.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes
I shared it with my then-fiance a couple months after the experience. It was part of my PTSD therapy. She cried and was lost for words. A couple years after the experience, I posted my story on YouTube. The reactions were mostly positive with the inevitable troll. I shared my story not long ago with a friend and he told me about his out of body experience in a hospital.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real
It felt more real than a dream. I could find no correlation to the specifics and cultural/medical things that were happening. If it were just bright lights, I could dismiss it as the light over a surgical table. But it didn't have that, and it was so much more, and it happened before lights were involved. Things like that that just didn't line up with anything that I could use to dismiss it.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real
Same as previous question. And hearing other stories and how amazingly similar they are to mine. Countless people having so similar stories no matter their background. When a million people tell you 'Joe stole the cookie', you don't need a security camera or crumbs.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes
The only thing I had to abbreviate was my hypothesis (haha). But frankly that's outside this scope anyway.

Anything else to add? No