Bashayer NDE

Experience Description

It was a rainy day, and I was horseback riding as usual. There was a horse that had come from outside Saudi Arabia, very tall and broad. He belonged to one of the owners, and no one rode him. I used to go to him every day, talk to him, and touch him. When they began training him, they allowed the best people to ride him, and they used two bridles because he was unruly. But that day was different. My trainer asked me to ride him for the first time with one bridle, and I had never ridden him before. I did not feel fear. I felt calm, and it was one of the most enjoyable moments. But at one moment, I merged with the horse with my whole being, and I felt that I was him. At that moment, he threw me off violently. I flew high and hit my head on the ground. It was as if I had awakened, but in a different world. Clarity, radiance, expansion. I was light, I was air, I was part of everything. I was there, very far away. A feeling I cannot describe in words.

After a while of this delight, I felt a voice from afar calling my name: 'Bashayer, Bashayer, Bashayer, listen!' I was between the voice and being above everything. Every time my trainer shouted my name, I moved downward like a particle. I began to wonder, 'What is this voice?' I felt cold, and I began to get closer and closer to my body until I entered it. Then I felt the fingertips of my left hand sensing the coldness of the sand I was lying on. I kept focusing on that voice, that voice, until I realized that I was my body now, and I opened my eyes.

My trainer asked me to go to the hospital, but I could not. I asked him to help me sit up, and he helped me. He kept asking me, 'Are you okay?' I seemed to be in shock, more emotional than physical. He was choked up, and I was silent. He brought his car into the arena and said, 'Come on, let's go to the hospital.' I said, 'Just let me stretch out in the car by myself.' My head felt heavy, and I felt no pain in my body. I asked my driver to come, and I went home. The house worker, or whoever looked at me, asked, 'Are you okay?' I did not answer her. I felt I was in shock, went into my room, slept, and refused to go to the hospital. It was as if I felt that sleep would heal me, that strange sleep.

Less than a month later, it was Ramadan. As was my habit, I would buy Eid clothes before Ramadan. But this time, no Eid clothes appealed to me. I did not find anything suitable. Then one day, during the last ten nights, I tore the main tendon in my right foot, and I could not walk for nearly three months. After that, the story of my foot in my life began, and it ended with a divine miracle. God's grace upon me was great, for I now stand on it without pain and without surgery, even though it had been confirmed that my treatment would be surgery.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date of NDE: 11/24/1992

NDE Elements:

How do you consider the content of your experience? Both pleasant AND distressing

Did you feel separated from your body? I lost awareness of my body

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? At the moment of impact.
I felt that there is something deeper, and something scary on the other side.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness? More consciousness and alertness than normal

Were your thoughts speeded up? No

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
I felt that I was time, or that there is no time.

Were your senses more vivid than usual? No

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience After the experience, I felt a feeling as if I was immersed in a place and took from it.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience My hearing during the experience was different, clear, and calm. Before the experience, it was the voices of others.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes
A tunnel of light when I returned to my body, and while I was outside my body, I found myself in a place that was no place.

Did you see any beings in your experience? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased beings? No

Did you see or feel surrounded by a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes
I was the light.

Did you seem to enter another world? No

What emotions did you feel during the experience? I felt that I was in my true home.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Happiness

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly understand everything? Everything about the universe
I understood that I am life and life is me. I understood that it is complete, perfect, without judgment.

Did scenes from your past come back? No

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? No

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Muslim

Have your religious practices changed? Yes
I became stronger.

What is your religion now? Muslim

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience
I felt it was also a shocking experience about the meaning of death and life, comfort and tranquility, and the meaning of the word 'infinite'.

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes
My belief in faith: after that, one of the main foot tendons tore, and I remained for two years undergoing medical treatment. There was only one doctor who did not believe in it, and his belief wavered along with mine during my treatment. The other end of the same tendon tore, and my faith was tested. Thank God, I now stand without a tendon on my foot.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? Uncertain
I felt that I was there, and that I am the present, the past, and the future.

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Uncertain

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Uncertain

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? Uncertain

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes
I felt infinite, pure, deep love, a long, endless thread.

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes
I tried to express and explain it, but I found that this topic was not important to others.

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience
I remember the exactness of the feeling and the moment, as if something was given to me.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes
Before that year, I always hesitated about my inner intuition, but after it, and after the experience, I became certain that it is the voice between me and God.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The timing was meaningful to me: one month before, my sister's one-year-old child came out of the hospital after head surgery; one month later, I was struck on the head and had this experience; one month later, a tendon in my foot tore.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes
They didn't understand; they only listened, I think out of courtesy, which made me feel alone. So I started looking for people who shared this experience in many places, through YouTube and Netflix.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes
I had heard about it, but I didn't pay attention to it.

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real
I felt it was real and undeniable, and it is so at every level of my feelings, which is the strongest body I have, the emotional body.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real
I had the same feeling that it was real. I never doubted it was real. I wanted an explanation for what I went through, so I spoke with some doctors, but they did not engage with me.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes