Amy L ADCs

Experience Description

My father, who I was extremely close to, died by suicide in late January 2023. I missed his text message that night telling me he was going into the garage. My phone was on "do not disturb" mode, so I did not see the message until I was going to bed. It showed me a notification that said, "while you were in focus mode," and I saw a message from my dad.

As we had been arguing in the weeks leading up to his death, I found the message strange. I read it and immediately called the police to do a welfare check. An ambulance was also sent. I received the news when two police officers came to my house an hour later.

I cried every single day. I would wake up in the middle of the night and cry. I was totally inconsolable. Then I had three separate dreams over the course of several weeks.

My biggest question was how long it took him to die, because all I could picture was him hanging there in pain and regretting his choice. No one could give me a definite answer, and there was conflicting information online. I asked police, doctors, and psychologists, and they all said different things.

My first dream was me watching my dad. It was the exact spot that we know he did it, on the exact beam. He started off facing the garage door, which I found weird. He was in a shirt and underwear, which I later had confirmed. He spun around at speed and actually had a heart attack immediately. The coroner did not do a full autopsy, so this could not be confirmed. When he stopped spinning, he was facing the garage door again, which was also later confirmed. I could see exactly where the rope was, and his head was on an angle. I finally had this confirmed when we got the full coroner's report eight months later.

The next dream was short and strange. He literally scooped me up out of my bed, took me outside to the pavement, and dropped me. Just as I was about to hit the hard pavement, he scooped me up to save me. I have no idea what the meaning of that is.

The third and most profound dream: he actually came and got me again and took me to where he was in the afterlife. We were both balls of intense light, different colors like I have never seen before. We circled around and around and communicated telepathically. It was so nice; it was all love. I was at complete peace. I could see that where he was now is a much better place than earth. Time just did not exist. He told me telepathically how ridiculous I was being for crying every day, as we are going to see each other so soon. I knew this to be true while I was there. I was, what I feel like, "reminded" from having been in the afterlife before I came here, that 80 years is like five seconds there. So I was comforted by being reminded that time goes so quickly and we will be back together so soon, where I will also be happier because I am there.

For the first time, I did not cry for a week after that dream.

I have only had a couple of dreams about him since. He has shown me signs of the afterlife on many occasions. But the dream was like a near-death experience without any medical issues.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date of NDE: 3/18/2023

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? No

How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant

Did you feel separated from your body? I clearly left my body and existed outside it

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? In the afterlife
Just the fact that it all came back to me whilst I was in the afterlife. I remembered it.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness? More consciousness and alertness than normal

Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Time didn't exist, and I was shown that by looking back down on Earth, possibly at me in a previous life. Everything in the dream happened quickly.

Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience Vision is fine so no difference

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience I can hear fine but no words were spoken in the dream or sounds made it was telepathic

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Uncertain
He sort of scooped me up and we just shot up and we were there

Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased beings? Yes
It was dad but he was a ball of light, as was I - mixed vivid colours swirling around each other

Did you see or feel surrounded by a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes
Colours more vivid than anything I’ve seen

Did you seem to enter another world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm
I knew it was the afterlife

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Once there, it’s all love, safety and happiness. I felt it and would have stayed if I could

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt no longer in conflict with nature

Did you suddenly understand everything? Everything about the universe
Where we come from and go back to time and time again and that people wait there until we are all back together again before we do life again

Did scenes from your past come back? No
Please refer to the first dream of details I could not have known

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
I knew or was told telepathically that this was a once off just to show me or remind me because I was being so silly crying everyday. It was almost like he wasn’t actually meant to take me there but felt he had to

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Unaffiliated- Agnostic
None other than I already believed in the afterlife.

Have your religious practices changed? Uncertain

What is your religion now? Other or several faiths
Spiritual

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience
I assumed it was all gold and white lights, I didn’t know it was vivid colours and I did not know time don’t exist and that when we die we will look back and go that was so quick which is why we come back again

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes
Already stated but I also took up meditation which I NEVER thought I would do.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? Yes
As above

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? No

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes
As already stated.

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? Yes
I was in the afterlife and I remembered it

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? Yes
Just that it only exists here, not there

During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes
It’s all love there, it’s amazing

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life
I left my husband of 16 years a few months later as I truly believe we are not here for long and he was making me miserable. I finally went back to work. I care way less about things. I have no qualms in not speaking to my toxic mother but wish her well. I wish everyone peace and happiness. I do everything I can to achieve happiness in mine and my kids lives now

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes
I left my husband and am now with a beautiful man and have never been happier. My kids are happier too.

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? No

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience
It changed me. I was an emotional wreck before that.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes
Everyone thinks I’m psychic. I just know how to use it.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? That I know my dad will be in my next life with me and that he I waiting for me

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes
The next day. I don’t think anyone believed me

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes
I’d heard about them but it didn’t affect my experience. In fact I believe I got further than most do as I was actually in the realm where the souls are

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real
I just know. There’s no other way to put it

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? Uncertain

Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes