Experience Description

Before this happened I was so intelligent. I was only 13, nevertheless I had the culture of an adult. One day I started to have backaches, I was told that it was a scoliosis. I started to wear a corset.

About nine months later, there came the need to operate on me. One month after the operation, I started to feel bad. I couldn't sleep nor eat anymore. The nurse examined me and said, ‘You have to be operated on, as the staphylococcus aureus [Editor’s note: An infection.] has increased. You could die if we do not react’. So the following day I was operated to clear the problem.

Just after the operation, I saw my open back. I had lost three liters of blood. At that moment I was dead, I saw a white path with my cousin and a light at the end. I talked to him. Another path was black with much blood and screaming. I saw an old woman there that I knew. Before seeing all this a spirit asked me ‘do you believe in God?’ and I said ‘yes’.

Then at the end, my cousin told me to go back to my mother to take care of her. I came back to life but fell into a coma for one month and a semi-coma for two more months. When I woke up after the comas, I wasn't the same person. I had forgotten everything and couldn't control myself anymore. On the 2nd of January of this year, I woke up and was cured. I don't remember what happened during my three years’ stay at the hospital, but I was told that I did horrible things and that all my relatives suffered because of this. Now I'm cured but I don't have the same school levels as I had before.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: début 2010

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Surgery-related. Heart attack. While under general anesthesia. CPR given. Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function or brain function) My back was opened and at that moment I lost my life. I saw a white space with my deceased cousin and a light at the back.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant

Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I heard and saw the nurses, the nurse's aides and my family. I clearly left my body and existed outside it

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Less consciousness and alertness than normal I had the impression that I felt well, being free, and being happy when I was dead.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Before the second operation.

Were your thoughts speeded up? No

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Time seemed to go faster or slower than usual I felt that time was more peaceful than usual.

Were your senses more vivid than usual? More vivid than usual

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I had better vision; besides, since my recovery, I see very well from afar.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. He looked better, but he wasn't changed in any other way.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out

The experience included: Tunnel

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes It was white with a brilliant light at the background; I also saw my cousin.

The experience included: Presence of deceased persons

Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes I had seen my cousin, who was in paradise. I think, but am not very sure, the older woman that I knew, told me something.

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? An unusually bright light

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes It was not yellow as usual, but a yellow that one could not imagine and there was also some red.

The experience included: A landscape or city

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm It was white with a supernatural garden and a big light.

What emotions did you feel during the experience? During the comas, I was weak and couldn't move nor speak.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? No

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

The experience included: Special knowledge or purpose

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe I knew that God and His angels were with me.

Did scenes from your past come back to you? No

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will My cousin told me ‘go back to your mother’; then I came back to life.

God, Spiritual and Religion:


What importance did you place on your religious/spiritual life prior to your experience? Moderately important to me

What was your religion prior to your experience? Muslim A ce moment là j'étais musulmane et très croyante ainsi que pratiquante.

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Uncertain It didn't change, but it increased.

What importance do you place on your religious/spiritual life after your experience? Greatly important to me

What is your religion now? Muslim Je suis encore musulmane et je suis plus croyante car vu mon experyence je crois de plus en plus à cette religion.

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience J'avais vu mon cousin à la base on peut pas voir les morts avant le jugement dernier et je ne savais pas qu'il y avait un jardin avec au fond une lumière. Mais par rapport à la religion je savais qu'un esprit apparaissait.

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes My belief is much stronger.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin I only saw a blurred face that told me: ‘so do you believe in God? And unto whom do you also believe?’ He brought me to my cousin and let me stay there.

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? No

Did you believe in the existence of God prior to your experience? God probably exists

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Yes J'avais vu une sorte d'esprit surement un ange vu son éblouissement je n'arrive pas à dire les mots mais il brillait.

Do you believe in the existence of God after your experience? God definitely exists

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:


During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes That after death, one will inevitably become alive again.

Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are possibly meaningful and significant

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? Yes Le but est de faire moins de péchets et plus d'actes positifs pour aller dans le jardin que j'avais vu.

Did you believe in an afterlife prior to your experience? An afterlife probably exists

Do you believe in an afterlife after your experience? An afterlife definitely exists Yes Oui car l'esprit m'avais demandé si j'étais croyante et c'est là que je vu que mon cosin était finalement vivant après sa mort.

Did you fear death prior to your experience? I greatly feared death

Do you fear death after your experience? I do not fear death

Were you fearful living your life prior to your experience? Not fearful in living my earthly life

Were you fearful living your life after your experience? Greatly fearful in living my earthly life

Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are possibly meaningful and significant

Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant after your experience? Are meaningful and significant

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? Yes Si on a des difficultés c'est normal on nous teste.

Were you compassionate prior to your experience? Moderately compassionate toward others

During your experience, did you gain information about love? No

Were you compassionate after your experience? Greatly compassionate toward others

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life Large changes in my life. Since I became myself again, I see from afar, I hear from afar, I feel from afar and I have a more powerful touch. Sometimes I see spirits or hear voices. Often, I have premonitory dreams.

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes Yes Some friends are no longer friends as they think I'm crazy; but the real ones have stayed.

After the NDE:


Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes It was so unbelievable; however I saw paradise, hell and my cousin who died years ago.

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience as accurately as other life events that occurred around the time of the experience

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes My vision, my smelling, my hearing, my touch are much more powerful. I see spirits or hear them, and have many premonitory dreams.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? I don't know, maybe I experienced this event to get a stronger belief or to take care of my mother?

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes The 2nd of January, I had started to tell about it. Certain people believed me; others thought I was crazy or lying.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real Because I’ve got proof and my mother remembers what I told her.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real I feel better, and have the impression that when relating this experience I'm giving a message.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? The spirit asked me if I was a believer. Then I saw that my cousin was definitely alive after his death. I saw a kind of spirit, for sure an angel. I saw his brilliance; I cannot find the right words: but he was shining. If we have difficulties in life, this is normal: we are being tested. I saw my cousin at the base; one cannot see the dead before the final judgment. I didn't know that there was a garden with a light in the background. I knew that a spirit was appearing.