Ryan M NDE 9771

Experience Description

During the winter of my freshman year in high school, I was in a group called the Civil Air Patrol. It is an Air Force auxiliary group. I had plans to join the military as an infantryman or sniper. This was my pathway to that. On this particular day we were required to run two miles outside for our physical training. On completing this task, I went back inside to the church where we would meet.

I had suffered from asthma my entire life, although I was not prepared for what happened next. Not two minutes had passed inside when suddenly I lost the ability to breathe. My lungs seized up on me and I lost consciousness. I was taken to the hospital for treatment. The last thing I remember is seeing the ambulance.

What had happened between the ambulance ride and waking up is something that I can still picture very vividly today. The next thing I remembered was waking up to this ethereal light coming from the hospital room. All I could see is this vortex of white light, like a light tunnel. It was very white, almost silvery colored. And as I was flying through this portal, every man in my life of any considerable influence was there. On the sides of the vortex, they greeted me, saying hello and telling me things.

Once the series of men ended, I was greeted by every woman of impact in my life, ending with three entities. Firstly, there was my grandmother. Secondly, I saw my mother.

Lastly, I saw a glowing, bright figure that was the very definition of beauty. At first I thought it might be Mother Nature? I’m not positive. The imagery seemed so much like Mother Mary, although I can’t recall the image because it was almost blinding. She had a delicate voice that was delicate, assuring, and hopeful. She gave me wisdom about my life and current path. She told me I wasn’t a killer, that this path I was on was not mine.

To this day I think about this experience, probably once a week or so. Sometimes, in times of great stress, I revert back to this message and my savior and strength. These visions made me realize that we are judged on earth and that we must bring joy and beauty to the places it needs it most.

Background Information:

Gender: Male

Date NDE Occurred: 12/12/2008

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? No. Accident Illness Allergic Reaction. Life threatening event, but not clinical death

How do you consider the content of your experience? Both pleasant AND distressing

Did you feel separated from your body? No I clearly left my body and existed outside it

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal. It was ethereal and unreachable from this realm. I feel like I can’t go back there just by meditating or trying to recall. It was a magical place.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Not sure.

Were your thoughts speeded up? No

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning. Time had vanished. The time between me passing out and waking up was about an hour. This vision felt like 5 minutes long.

Were your senses More vivid than usual? No

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. The vision was the same. My interpretation of the events are accurate with the experience. Which is haunting to me, considering I fuddle and forget some of the best experiences I’ve had on this plane of life. None of them stick with me like this message did.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. The experience was the same.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes It was very bright, wide and very bright white. Much like a vortex tunnel.

Did you see any beings in your experience? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes Friends and family surrounded the tunnel, as I passed each one they said or acted to me with some kind of message.

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes Brighter than the sun, although I could stare at it. As if something was beyond it.

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm The vortex tunnel.

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Pure bliss, joy and excitement. At the same time, calmness, no worries, a clear and open mind. It was as if my brain was working at full capacity.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Happiness

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt no longer in conflict with nature

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No

Did scenes from your past come back to you? No

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? No

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Christian- Catholic I was raised Roman Catholic, receiving communion and confirmation. Although during the time of this accident my faith in god was weak and unattended to.

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes More religious, more praying more faith.

What is your religion now? Christian- Catholic I believe in Christianity, specifically Catholicism. Although, I disagree with some of the main tenants and especially with some of the punishments.

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes More belief in god. A definite understanding that life is important and that I am judged for my actions by something higher than human.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin At the end of the tunnel was a woman figure of pure strength and love. The embodiment of beauty in my eyes.

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Yes The people and messages delivered were unlike any I’ve ever gotten on earth since. The feeling I had was strong and still is with me today. It made me a calmer and quieter person. At the same time it made me more conscious of actions, which led to great fear and anxiety for years to come. I was not living the right way before this vision.

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? No

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes She told me to be beautiful to share beauty and be strong. In a modern world this is very difficult to do and can be dangerous. She told me to live my life engaged with people and to not hide from the worlds problems.

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? No

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

During your experience, did you gain information about love? No

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life. I used to be a wild-child type of person. I talked a lot, and was very involved with people. I had a bad temper at the time and would often become very angry at silly things I did or others did. I had a very bad problem controlling my mouth and would say rude things sometimes. These activities stopped after this experience. It was like a wake up call for me. I became more reserved and quiet after this. I was scared of my judgment and felt like I had to redeem myself. I am still living my life trying to be this fulfilled person, at times to a fault. I put a lot of pressure on myself to be good, so much so that sometimes I just stay home instead. I am working now to become a volunteer to help the less fortunate.

One thing I struggle with is, after having this vision it made me wish everyone could too. To see life from a different perspective and to feel it as well. Which I think are two mutually inclusive things. The message was delivered. It is difficult for me to talk to anyone about this, in my experience I’ve only told a handful of people about this, and seemingly it goes unnoticed. I love my friends and family so much, and they are not wrong for this. This experience for me, was just that. For me. I don’t tell people for attention I’m just looking for anyone else out there that feels the same. So I don’t feel alone. It makes me feel very different in a way that I can’t describe. Sidebar: Dr Jeff, Thanks for going on Theo Von's podcast, I didn’t know this ever existed and writing all this down is very relieving to me. Going to buy your book as soon as I can afford to! Thank you.

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? No

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes In some instances I have. One that sticks out to me the most, although I don’t know if it’s coincidence or clairvoyance. My freshman year of college, the first day of class. My roommate and I were walking to get food, and it was very sunny and bright out. The sun was facing us as we walked. In the near distance I saw a woman wearing a sundress and surrounding her body was the sun. Much like the holy image I had in my vision. The end of the tunnel, the beautiful woman with light encapsulating her. As she passed I looked at her, thinking how I would ever get a chance to talk to her. That night I had a dream about an all white room, with white bedsheets and everything. She was there and we had a beautiful experience of love. Two months later I was to meet up with a friend, and behold she was with him. I befriended this woman and we went on to date. It seemed like fate to me.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? I can’t recall at this time, it’s getting tiring to remember this. My brain is shutting down this memory for some reason right now.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes It took me until I was 22 to tell people, and their reactions were just as if I was telling a story I wanted to be true. My friends are great people, I can understand how others would think this I abnormal, weird or attention seeking. This was never my action, I was just looking for anyone that shared a similar experience.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

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