Experience Description

I was in the top right hand side of an ambulance and looking down at my body. I could read the thoughts of the emergency medical technician (EMT) who was with me. He was thinking that I was so young to die. When looking down at myself, I thought, 'Am I dying.' I then sensed a presence with me. The presence spoke to me in a kind and soothing female voice. I did not see her. She did not speak with words but with thoughts. That is the best way I can describe it. When I thought 'Am I dying' she spoke with surety and said, 'No! that would never be asked of your parents.' My parents have lost a twin girl at birth and we lost my brother in 1999 after fighting a year long battle with a very strong cancer. These events nearly destroyed all of my family. Then it was like she became even more soothing than before. She told me not to fear because there would be nothing wrong with me. She told me this several times. Then she told me that they would run tests on me, many tests but not to fear for they would find nothing.

The love that came from that presence that I call my angel is inexplicable. I describe it this way: Take the person that you love the most in all the world and magnify that love times a million. That is the love and comfort that I felt, yet this does not even give it justice. Just as she said, they ran many tests on me and found nothing. I believe that is because she was giving me strength for the future because just two years later, I had Grand Mal seizures. Once again, they ran every kind of test on me only to find nothing. I know that I Spoke to one of God's angels. No one will ever convince me that I did not. There is no way she could have known and prepared me for the future not to mention the love, total kindness, complete forgiving and unconditional love. I felt that is truly beyond human explanation. Thank you for listening to my very beautiful experience. I am no longer afraid of death. In fact, I embrace it and can't wait to go home!

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: 2003

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Allergic Reaction Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function) I had an an anaphylactic reaction to a prescribed medication.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant

Did you feel separated from your body? No I clearly left my body and existed outside it

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal. I felt conscious of the thoughts of the EMT and I was totally conscious of the thoughts conveyed by the angel or from God.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? In the ambulance and while the EMT was with me. I could read his thoughts while I was looking down at him.

Were your thoughts speeded up? No

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Time seemed to go faster or slower than usual. Time seemed unimportant. Things were slower and very calm.

Were your senses More vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I could feel more emotion, especially from the angel. I could read her thoughts or messages and she communicated to me this way. I could read the thoughts of the EMT working on me.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I did not hear as normal. The communication was conveyed through thought.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere, as if by ESP? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

Did you see any beings in your experience? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? No

Did you see an unearthly light? No

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No

What emotions did you feel during the experience? I felt unconditional love and no fear. I felt only comfort and love.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt no longer in conflict with nature

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No

Did scenes from your past come back to you? No

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? No

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Christian- Catholic Cradle Catholic.

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes. More in-depth study of the Bible, the holy lands and God's works.

What is your religion now? Christian- Catholic

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience. Prior to this experience I believed in God in the human ability to measure love. After this experience, I know it is much stronger and not even describable in human terms.

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes Stronger beliefs with absolutely no doubts.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin. I felt thoughts conveyed to me from what I believe to be an angel.

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Yes Aware of the great love, not only from the angel but of the creator.

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? An afterlife definitely exists. I felt certain that there is life after death. A total experience of love, compassion and unconditional acceptance of all.

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? Yes She told me the future and it unfolded just as she said.

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes Pure unconditional love that is not measurable by human standards.

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life. I now have total trust and fully acknowledge that afterlife and God not only exists, but interacts for us with deep love. Far deeper than humans can imagine.

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes I love more and am more kind, accepting of others and compassionate.

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes Total unconditional love and kindness. I can only say take the one you love most in this world and multiply it by a million. Yet, that doesn't even do it justice.

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience. Total remembrance to this very day.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Just the pure love and kindness.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes It took quite a while for fear of disbelief or suspicion by others.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes I had read a few instances in articles and watched some things on television.

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. I knew it was besides she told me the future.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real. I will never forget the love and pure kindness that I felt. I know that this did not come from the world we live in or the emotions humans are capable of.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? No suggestions