Experience Description

I came down with the flu, which turned into pneumonia. We were visiting my wife's brother's house at the time. I went to the hospital the previous day where they took an X-ray that showed pneumonia. I forget the name of the antibiotic, but I started taking it. The next day, my coughing was very bad. I was coughing up blood and feeling like I couldn't breathe right. I was leaning over the sink coughing up this blood and I remember praying for help when, the next thing I knew, I saw what could only be described as a shadowy hand in my mind. I had to make a choice. I was told that I could continue and that we have three times in life to make the choice, but that for me, my health would be worse in the future. I was desperate and I had two small boys at the time. I remember taking the hand and grabbing it and putting it right on my back where the pneumonia had shown on the X-ray. Immediately I stopped coughing.

The next day, we were coming home to Virginia and I was having what looked like an allergic reaction to the antibiotic. We stopped at the hospital and the doctor looked at me and said it did look like a reaction. He asked why I was prescribed it and I told him pneumonia. He asked if I had the X-rays and I told I'm that it was done in a hospital in Maryland. He ordered another which showed absolutely no sign of pneumonia.

Background Information:

Gender: Male

Date NDE Occurred: Jan 2001

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Illness, trauma or other condition not considered life threatening. I was suffering from pneumonia and was coughing up blood.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Mixed

Did you feel separated from your body? No

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Not very conscious and I feel like parts of it are submerged, I clearly remember the big hand and putting it on my back where I believe the blood was coming from when I coughed.

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning While the discussion of choices was occurring, I felt like that took a long time, but I don't really remember much of it.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes The hand.

The experience included: Darkness

Did you see an unearthly light? No

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No

What emotions did you feel during the experience? First fear and then gratitude.

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No

Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will I wasn't really outside of my body per se, but it was weird.

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Conservative/fundamentalist

What is your religion now? Moderate

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I have almost become obsessed with getting back there. I had another experience when I was younger that I consciously had done, and now it seems as if I'm obsessed with near death and out of body experiences. Mostly just reading about them. I have come to believe that reality is much different than we believe but I am trying to prove it and am getting frustrated by it.

The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? No

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Best part was no more coughing up blood. Worst part is that I have even more health issues than I did.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Once, but they were ok with it. No judgment.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? Yes When I was younger I had a similar event that I will post in a follow up post.

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? It was my second experience with something weird. I will make a separate post regarding that. Before my Father died in 2007, he told me that he had an experience where he had died in an operating table (he had had an accident at the saw mill that had cut through an artery). He had gone somewhere and saw a group of people who were familiar somehow but didn't know them and was told he had to go back. He never knew about what had happened with me, and was telling me this because my mother had just died and he wanted to assure me that we go on.