Experience Description

I made a suicide attempt by taking anti-depressants. In the intensive care unit, I found myself drawn to one of the room corners, being a spectator of all what was occurring. Then I entered a kind of tunnel lit by a terribly dazzling light. I hesitated a lot to go back, but someone with a very soft voice told me to do so.

It was at the same time, a marvelous and terrifying experience because nobody tried to explain anything to me. After ten days being in a coma, I awoke with a chaplain sitting beside me. In fact, people expected me to die.

However, this changed all my life. My vision of death (now without fear) and always - go to the main points!

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: 1981

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Suicide attempt Clinical death Suicide attempt.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Positive

The experience included: Out of body experience

Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I was without substance, floating up to the ceiling. I was only 'alive in my mind'; I had neither arms nor legs anymore.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Coma.

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning There was neither time nor space any more, only feelings.

Did your hearing differ in any way from normal? Light and very melodious sound.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes An ethereal and luminous tunnel.

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No

The experience included: Light

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes Terribly dazzling but not painful nor unpleasant.

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No

The experience included: Strong emotional tone

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe I have the impression to have changed of dimension - to be different from the others. To look at things in perspective became much easier for me.

Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control As a clip which is on, very quickly, and in which some scenes are very clear and some others are fuzzy.

Did scenes from the future come to you? No On the other hand, I became a much more intuitive person.

Did you come to a border or point of no return? No All occurred without any action from me, I was absolutely unable to change anything.

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Moderate catholique romaine

What is your religion now? Moderate non pratiquante dans les lieux consacrés

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes They were reinforced.

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes The fabulous, indescribable side of such an experience.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes More intuition and feelings, more sensitivity.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The best side: fabulous wellbeing. The worst side: the thoughts and the look from others, powerlessness of the medical staff.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Mixed reactions. I don’t speak easily about it.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? It was too beautiful! Now, I am simply waiting for my hour, but with joy and serenity.

Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? The medical staff attitude should be tackled.