In March 2003, I remember my son was 4 months old at the time. I had been sick during my whole pregnancy because of my gall-bladder. At the time of the pregnancy, I constantly had feelings of faintness. The doctors thought that it was some kind of disease connected with the pregnancy. After giving birth, the faintness with loss of consciousness continued. During a test the cause of my fainting was discovered. I had emergency surgery because gallstones were blocking the common bile duct.
The surgery was from 8:30am until 21:30pm. I came back to a room with a gastric suction tube through my nose.
I remember that I couldn't breath anymore, but I couldn't move and I felt that my strength was leaving me. I was thinking that I was dying and thought about my son. The next I know, I went outside of my body.
Then I was in a dark tunnel with people wandering around. At the end of the tunnel was a very beautiful and luminous light, but it was not dazzling.
The closer I got to this light, the more I felt relief. I felt a sensation of being loved, which I missed so much at the time. I felt very satisfied and finally happy, which was something new for me. I had positive feelings that had such an intense depth, that words don't exist to explain it. It was more like I was sensing it.
I entered the light without any fear. While I continued my way in this light, a silhouette came from above and blocked the way to the light by coming in front of me. I was surprised to see my whole, difficult life scrolling before me and I said, 'I don't want to relive this, life is too hard." And I started crying. The silhouette told me 'It's only up to you to change things, you can help many people as your soul is pure. You are needed on earth.' When he told me that I was needed on earth, I immediately was thinking about my son. Then I found myself moving backwards, but in a vortex. It was a little bit like what you can see in science fiction movies.
Then I found myself in a room.
I'm looking around and seeing my body on what looks like a surgery table. But considering my medical experience, it resembled more a room for defibrillation than a surgery room. As I'm watching the situation, I see a nurse and a doctor. I hear a lot of people talking in a very noisy room next door. I feel the panic in this adjacent room from the screams and crying. I'm coming back to the room where my physical body is and I see the doctor. He starts saying, 'It's done. We lost her.' He looks at his watch and the clock on the wall in order to pronounce the time of death. At that moment the nurse asks the doctor, 'Please doctor, try once more to shock her. She's only 21 years old; she's to young to die.' The doctor looks at her and says, 'Unfortunately, I cannot resuscitate people. But okay as you insist. We will try a last time.' I see him going towards a big machine. Then I come back into my body. As from this moment, I don't remember anything anymore.
When being transported in my room, my roommate said to me, 'What happened to you?' And there I understand that something strange happened, as the nursing staff was talking about me. They were saying, 'She's coming back from far, the young one.' When trying to ask questions I got evasive answers. With time I realize that it is sounding false, as this is not logical.
Date NDE Occurred: mars 2003
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Surgery-related. Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function or brain function)
I felt suffocating, I couldn't breath anymore and I felt myself leaving my body.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal. I saw very clearly what happened, like seeing a movie.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? I don't understand the question.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning.
My whole life took place in a split-second.
Were your senses More vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I saw things at the same time when I tought about them. I thought about my body to really see it.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I heard everything, even what happens behind doors or walls, and even in the adjacent room.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere, as if by ESP? Yes, but the facts have not been checked out
The experience included: Passing into or through a tunnel
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes a tunnel with wandering souls in the form of shades at the entry, and at the end a light. From the moment I entered the tunnel, I changed dimension and my vibratory rate was changing. People that don't enter the tunnel, are persons staying with the physical energy of earth. They cannot change their vibratory rate because of their physical past they are unable to let go.
Did you see any beings in your experience? I sensed their presence
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No
The experience included: Darkness
The experience included: Unearthly light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an Unearthly light? Yes It's a very intense light, but not dazzling.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm. It was like a spiral, like in science fiction movies.
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? I sensed the emotions of the persons being present around my body.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? Happiness
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
The experience included: Special knowledge or purpose
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe. I simply understood the universal laws of the universe of life.
The experience included: Life Review
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control. I understood that I was victimizing myself and that I saw only the negative. Now I see life from the good side and I live with the positive.
Did scenes from the future come to you? No
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a definite conscious decision to return to life. I was thinking about my son and found myself above my body in the room where my body happened to be.
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What importance did you place on your religious/spiritual life prior to your experience? Not important to me
What was your religion prior to your experience? Christian- Catholic. I'm a non practicing Catholic Christian
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I now believe in the universal laws and no more in human religions.
What importance do you place on your religious/spiritual life after your experience? Greatly important to me
What is your religion now? Do not know. I don't believe anymore in the religion of man, but I now believe in the universal laws of life.
Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience. Human religions have been interpreted to get power over the people. The real truth is different, it's the liberty to choose your life and to find ways through personal development.
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I believe in the energy of the universe and in souls that are energy.
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin. A humanoid being, blocked the passage of the tunnel. From the moment I looked into it's eyes, I saw my life scrolling past. After this, I said that I didn't want to relive this and he told me, 'It's only up to you to change things and having another look at life.'
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I sensed their presence
Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No
During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No
During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Yes Universal laws of life, like the laws of attraction and of other phenomena of personal development.
Did you believe in the existence of God prior to your experience? I was uncertain if God exists
During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? No
Do you believe in the existence of God after your experience? God definitely exists
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes I have extrasensory perceptions that are developing. I feel the need to transmit them, but I don't know how. I have to help people to grow, thanks to my personal development.
Did you believe that our earthly lives Are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are not meaningful and significant
During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? Yes Seeing the good side of things. There's always a life lesson in every negative or difficult experience.
Did you believe in an afterlife prior to your experience? I was uncertain if an afterlife exists
Do you believe in an afterlife after your experience? An afterlife definitely exists
Did you fear death prior to your experience? I moderately feared death
Do you fear death after your experience? I do not fear death
Were you fearful living your life prior to your experience? Greatly fearful in living my earthly life
Were you fearful living your life after your experience? Not fearful in living my earthly life
Did you believe that our earthly lives Are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are not meaningful and significant
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant after your experience? Are meaningful and significant
Did you gain information about how to live our lives? Yes Personal development is the key to evolve and to be in accordance with your mission of life, chosen before the incarnation.
During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? Yes Seeing the good side of things, there's always a life lesson in every negative or difficult experience.
Were you compassionate prior to your experience? Moderately compassionate toward others
During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes Love is everywhere, you just need to accept seeing it in all things.
Were you compassionate after your experience? Greatly compassionate toward others
What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life. I understood the universal laws of life, and I understood that you choose your incarnation, and that, whatever happens, you always have a choice.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes I left the father of my son.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes There are sensations that are experienced and felt, being far from human sensations, as at that moment you change the energetic dimension, everything is very subtle.
How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience. At the time I was in a difficult situation, and wanted just one thing, dying to stop suffering. My only memories, except of the experience, are from suffering, and I succeeded to transmute everything, thanks to the near-death experience.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes I became a link person for souls. I have magnetism and above all I have the capacity for communication with risen masters, like archangels, and I have access to the akashic annals.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes It took me 12 years to talk about. During my studies as nursing auxiliary, a professor told us about NDE and I talked to him after the course. Since that time, I have the need to transmit this experience, since I know that science and medicine are getting closer to the ND.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. This was very real for me, due to the fact of seeing my life scrolling, which was a very strong experience for me.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real. This experience happened to me, to allow me to transmit it, in order to help people that are not able to evolve spiritually.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? The questionnaire is very clear and sometimes there are too many questions that are difficult to reply to, as we have global answers, and detail is very hard to explain by computer.