Krystal N Possible NDE

Experience Description

I can't express my excitement when I came across this website, since my experience I have searched for other accounts of near death experiences to see if I could find someone who has had the same as mine. From others that I have read about or heard of never matched mine, mostly those have been bright lights, tunnels and family members that have passed etc. Mine is so different that I feel quite alone in my experience. I guess a brief history is where I should start. 6 months after the birth of my second child in December of 2001, I became pregnant again. My partner at the time became furious about this and forced and threatened me to abort my pregnancy. I was heartbroken, and guilt ridden. I left him but was forced back by his threats. Months later I again became pregnant, and again was forced and threatened to abort my pregnancy, this would happen once more a year later. A year after that I had to have surgery for an ectopic pregnancy, the day after my surgery while I was in recovery he came in with our son and said goodbye. He took my son and left me. After this I took my eldest son from a previous relationship and we moved to NY to live with my father. For the next several years, I was in and out of court for my youngest son. During this time, I had been very weak, lost, and didn't know what to do. My back started to really bother me, I went to see a doctor for this and had to have surgery in February of 2014, it was during this that the doctors noticed on the images that I had several large masses in my uterus. I was told that once I healed to get it checked out. In October of 2014, I went to see an OBGYN for the masses. By December, I was told that I needed a hysterectomy. I went in for surgery on December 10, 2014. I was told that there were complications due to the amount and size of some of the masses.

While in recovery, I became ill. I was not getting any better and the doctors noticed a hole in my bladder and an obstruction to my ureter tube. I was rushed to another hospital for emergency repair surgery which took 9 hours. Come to find out I did have a hole in my bladder and my ureter tube had been stitched closed, but also my bladder had been sewn to the wall of my vagina and to the wall of rectum and two foreign objects were removed from me. It was during this massive repair operation that my experience occurred.

The earliest part of my experience started from pure blackness and peace. Shortly after the darkness, I appeared into this place. Everything about it was alive and breathing; the walls, the floor, everything. There were these amazing bright lights everywhere within the walls and floor that moved with the breathing of this place. I stood in the middle, watching these bright white beings enter and exit the archways. I was surrounded by archways in this huge dome that I could not even see the top of.

I was approached by three blue beings. They were pure love and had no features or sexual identity. They were just this vivid blue human-like form. As they approached me, two of them stopped a few feet away as the other continued toward me. This being used no verbal words, nor a human language to communicate with me. It was more like frequency sounds and colors. This being came to my right side and put its hand on my shoulder. With its other arm, it motioned me to look around me. As I looked, I was told this is the place of the souls birth and departure. I watched as souls came and went in and out of these archways that spanned beyond my vision. I was shown by the beings all my lifetimes, my soul's purpose, and saw and knew that I had been here and through these archways many times. It felt like home to me.

I was told by the being that I would return to my body to complete my life, that I had work to do still. I was shown an archway and was told to follow the white being that was about to go through it. In an instant, I was at the archway.

The next instant, I had awoken in the operation room. The first thing I said was 'Put me back!' I'm sure the doctors had no idea what I was talking about.

While in recovery, I was visited by spirits. One was a little boy named Kenny who was trying to show me where his body was. Another was an African American man who sat by me, read the paper, and told me about the deals on lawn mowers. The other was a nurse that was running around throwing candy everywhere. I know this all sounds so crazy but it happened. I think of this experience every day. I feel it and can recall in detail everything and every moment of it. It has been such a profound thing for me. Since this, the weird things that I've always experienced have become much more prominent. I've always been weird in the sense of seeing, hearing, or feeling things. But since this experience, I see colors in sounds. I feel frequency changes and have dreams that come true. This whole experience has left me feeling completely alone; in the sense that I can't find anyone who has had anything close to my experience.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: 12/17/2014

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Surgery-related While under general anesthesia Life threatening event, but not clinical death Emergency repair surgery

How do you consider the content of your experience? Both pleasant AND distressing

Did you feel separated from your body? No I clearly left my body and existed outside it

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal I was a soul and as a soul we know all we need to know

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? The whole time

Were your thoughts speeded up? No

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning Read experience

Were your senses More vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. My vision was from that of a soul not a human, and it still lingers

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. My hearing has become extra sensitive

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere, as if by ESP? Yes, but the facts have not been checked out

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

Did you see any beings in your experience? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes Read experience

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes Beings and the breathing lights

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm Read experience

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Unexplainable

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? No

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe Read experience

Did scenes from your past come back to you? I remembered many past events Read experience

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a definite conscious decision to return to life Read experience

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Unaffiliated- Nothing in particular- Religious unaffiliated

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I know things I didn't know before and its altered how I feel about life

What is your religion now? Unaffiliated- Nothing in particular- Religious unaffiliated

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience To much to go into here

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes More aware

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin Read my experience

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? Uncertain I just knew certain things

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Yes I saw and was in the place of the creation of our souls

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Uncertain I just knew things

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes Read experience

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? Yes I just knew

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? An afterlife definitely exists Yes Read experience

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? Yes Read experience

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? Yes I just knew

During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes I just knew

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life many

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes Able to feel others emotions which helps me when I'm around people

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? No

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience. Vivid

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes Unexplainable

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? All of it

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I talk about it often

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes I've heard of them

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real I knew and saw what our souls were

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real The most truth I've ever known

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? Uncertain I see colors in sounds which I saw and experienced in my experience

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? No

Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? it was fine