Experience Description

I was admitted at the emergency room with suspected heart problems. After a few hours of intensive care, I was rolled to the corridor of a ward because they didn't have enought beds.

That first night, I had an experience. I was fully conscious. I wasn't under hallucinagenic drugs, had no shortness of breath, and I didn't go into cardiac arrest. I did, however, have an intense fear of dying.

Suddenly, I was in darkness. I was more conscious and alert than I had ever been. I asked, 'Am I dead now?' I was looking around and aware that I still had a body, but it wasn't my earthly body. It was very dark and I didn't know where to go. I was alone.

Then I saw a tunnel with a bright white light. I wanted to go over there but my grandmother, strongly pushed me away. I could not get close to the tunnel.

I kept looking around and saw another tunnel with a bright white light. So, I wanted to go over there.

But this time, an unknown person kept me away from the tunnel. Two rejections scared me.

Then suddenly, I was in a beautiful violet, magenta-colored light. A few Beings surrounded me and I felt so very much loved. They were very loving souls.

Then I saw my whole life; every microsecond, every thought, and every feeling. The Beings escorted me through my complete life. It was like a life review. I could ask everything and got answers that were healing to my soul. There was no sense of time and space.

There was a feeling of everything, a void, and being everywhere, exactly the way I had experienced when I practised Yoga and had done color meditations on earth.

I was able to communicate with all beings at once and could understand the answers clearly. A lot of information had been pouring into me. I got answers about a person who was still alive. This was confirmed as accurate after I came back to my body. There was no fear anymore. I felt mutual respect, much love and humbleness. Each of those Beings listened and answered to me. There was no 'you have to' or sense of power over me. The communication happened at the same eye level.

Then another Being came forward with deep humbleness and much love and said to me, “It's ok the way it happens.” This person repeated this sentence three times. This sentence remains vivid in my memory.

I later named this Being 'God,' due to the lack of the right term. I returned suddenly and conscious in my bed. I felt fine like I had been healed. I didn't feel bad and very weak.

On the following day the doctors could only diagnose an overreaction of the immune system.

This experience has been so profound that I'm still thinking about for almost every day.

Background Information:

Gender: Male

Date NDE Occurred: 06.2006

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Heart attack. Life threatening event, but not clinical death. I had been admitted to the emergency room hospital with heart problems.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant

Did you feel separated from your body? Yes. I clearly left my body and existed outside it

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal. I was very conscious and clear in my head.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? The whole time during the experience.

Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning. There was no sense of space and time. I could communicate with each of these Beings at the same time.

Were your senses More vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I saw everything very clearly.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. My hearing was very good. But I had the impression that I didn't need it at all because the communication happened mainly in another way.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere, as if by ESP? Yes, and the facts have been checked out

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes I saw two tunnels but had been prevented from enterring both tunnels.

Did you see any beings in your experience? I sensed their presence

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes In front of one of the tunnels, I saw my grandmother.

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes At the end of the tunnels was a white and bright light. Later, I saw a violet-magenta light that was very intense and that I can't compared to anything on earth.

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? Some unfamiliar and strange place. After the darkness, I was suddenly at a place with loving Beings, that I think were angels. I also saw a very beautiful, violet-magenta colored light.

What emotions did you feel during the experience? In the darkness, I felt insecurity and some fear. Later, I felt a lot of very strong love.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Happiness

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe. Everything was very clear. I could ask questions and got answers which were healing and very helpful for me. Everything made sense.

Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control. My whole life passed in front of me.

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? No

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Christian- Catholic I was a baptized Catholic but not attending Church.

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I see God as the same in each religion.

What is your religion now? Do not know. I believe in God, in reincarnation, and going in any church whatsoever and lighting a candle.

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience. I now whole-heartly believe in God and in an afterlife. I also believe in the cycle of reincarnations.

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I became much more tolerant.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin. There were Beings surrounding me who were doing my life review with me. After this, I heard a voice that I later on called 'God'.

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I sensed their presence

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? Uncertain I can't remember in detail anymore. A lot of information was flowing.

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Uncertain Everything is in connection with everything.

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Yes At the end of the life review, a Being came forward in very deep humbleness and told me three times, 'It's okay the way it happens.' Today, I call this Being God.

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes I was told that two fellows that I thought bad, were totally okay. My relationship with them suddenly changed into a good relationship afterwards.

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? Uncertain We are here to learn.

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? An afterlife definitely exists It was clear that there is continuity.

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? Yes I was told that two fellows that I thought bad, were totally okay. My relationship with them suddenly changed into a good relationship afterwards.

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? Yes At the end of the life review, a Being came forward in very deep humbleness and told me three times, 'It's okay the way it happens.' Today I call this Being God. Today this helps me tremendously to get through a difficult disease.

During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes Everything was only love

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Moderate changes in my life

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes I'm more tolerant.

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Uncertain A lot of information had been flowing, especially during the life review.

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? God told me 'it's ok the way it happens.' This is helping me tremendously today.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Before I didn't know anything about NDE.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. I was very alert and focused. All my senses were functioning very well.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real