After my first surgery I was extremely weak, tired and in terrible pain. I knew a second operation was necessary. I just knew I wouldn’t survive it. It was so clear to me that I said my farewells to my wife. It was not that difficult because my life energy was so low that I did not have a choice. It was so clear to me. Next, I was in a state where I knew I was dead. That was okay. Then I felt this incredible peace. I did not see anything. But the feeling was so overwhelmingly intensive, clear and enormous like nothing else I had ever experienced. Everything was simply well. It was this incredible peace.I knew my wife Beate and my two children (18 and 20 years old) were suffering and were very sad about my death. I also knew that the suffering and sadness were not real, temporary, and in fact a deception. I did not feel pain, because where I was, there was no pain. I also knew that pain was not real. All was well and peaceful. Under no circumstances did I want to return to that world. I returned against my will and it was horrible: cold, loud, bright and painful, like a terrible birth. I remembered the peace and tranquility, both in my subconscious and conscious mind. It remained clear even after 10 weeks of coma and sedation. I knew I would never forget. It became the most real in my life.
Date NDE Occurred: 18.09.2012
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Surgery-related. While under general anesthesia. 'Life threatening event, but not clinical death'
While mountain climbing in the Alps on the September 12, 2012, and at 2555 meters elevation. I suddenly experienced a sharp pain in my stomach. It was a rupture of the inner lining of my stomach aorta. I was alone. In excruciating pain, it took me two hours to climb back down. Then I was airlifted to hospital and had my first surgery that night. The next few days I was mostly unconscious. Six days after the first surgery I underwent the second one.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant
Did you feel separated from your body? No
I lost awareness of my body
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal Totally clear, no doubts.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? During the entire experience.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Faster than usual
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? No
Were your senses more vivid than usual? No
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I was not able to see (had no vision). It was a really strong feeling. The new perception was that worldly pain and evil were simply an illusion.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I did not hear anything. Everything was a feeling.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
Did you see any beings in your experience? No
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? No
Did you see an unearthly light? No
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Infinite peace, all was well.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about myself or others I knew that all was well and divine.
Did scenes from your past come back to you? No
Did scenes from the future come to you? No
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will I did not want to go back but I wasn’t asked. I got sucked back. A while later when I was briefly conscious I told my wife and children that I had come back because of them
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What importance did you place on your religious/spiritual life prior to your experience? Moderately important to me
What was your religion prior to your experience? Christian- Catholic Ich bin katholischer Theologe und Seelsorger, aber sehr kritisch gegenüber der kirchlichen Lehre, zugleich offen gegenüber der geistigen Welt, der größeren Dimension hinter unserer engen Raum-Zeit Wahrnehmung. Das Konzept der Wiedergeburt halte ich für plausibel.
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I am more relaxed and clear and know that God is in everything and everywhere around me. I can’t get lost or go wrong. Religious rituals and activities are unimportant. Important is the attitude and belief inside
What importance do you place on your religious/spiritual life after your experience? Greatly important to me
What is your religion now? Christian- Catholic Meine Wurzeln sind katholisch. Aber mein Horizont heute lässt sich nicht auf Religion oder Konfession reduzieren. Ich glaube, dass das Geheimnis Gott alles umfasst und in allem zu finden ist. Alles, was ist, ist das Spiel der göttlichen Liebe. In allem und in jedem Menschen versteckt sich diese Liebe und will neu gefunden und erkannt werden.
Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? No
Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No
During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No
During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? No
Did you believe in the existence of God prior to your experience? God definitely exists
During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? No
Do you believe in the existence of God after your experience? God definitely exists
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes A knowingness that all was well. Peace is all encompassing.
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are probably meaningful and significant
During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No
Did you believe in an afterlife prior to your experience? An afterlife definitely exists
Do you believe in an afterlife after your experience? An afterlife definitely exists No
Did you fear death prior to your experience? I slightly feared death
Do you fear death after your experience? I do not fear death
Were you fearful living your life prior to your experience? Moderately fearful in living my earthly life
Were you fearful living your life after your experience? Not fearful in living my earthly life
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant after your experience? Are not meaningful and significant
Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No
During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No
Were you compassionate prior to your experience? Moderately compassionate toward others
During your experience, did you gain information about love? No
Were you compassionate after your experience? Greatly compassionate toward others
What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Moderate changes in my life To this day I am still sometimes scared, anxious or stressed, but then I remember my experience and soon all is clear and alright because I know all is well.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No No
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No
How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience die Eindringlichkeit und Gewissheit dieser Erfahrung war unsagbar klarer und nachhaltiger als alle anderen je gemachten Erfahrungen
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Most importantly: Even though here in our world we might experience suffering, pain, and separation, this is nonexistent from the divine perspective.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes As soon as I was able, I spoke about it. Today I often tell my story in church or counseling groups. The reaction is always positive and sympathetic.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes I knew the NDE existed in conjunction with a tunnel and light. I always knew these experiences were real.
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real Everything was so clear and obvious devoid of doubt. This felt experience was more real than anything else.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real Even today I know my experience was overwhelmingly real. I just know and I have no doubts.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
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